情深的一句 (烈火戰車)

冷風吹 心裡空虛 車飛向遠方在無力傷心的人
是誰人漸累 情也漸累 停住了的心偏卻是醉
* 咀邊濕透是淚 沒有勇氣說再會又伴隨
推不開心中的罪 留住你我放棄了負累
再拚命追 渡過的從前 今天過去明僚原來曾令你
真的太心碎 明白到心死不可再追
# 啊...面對當年情真心說句祈求完全原諒我
當初的不對在你離開的一刻說出 情深的一句
(唯一的一句)

this one is for you brutha ong..
lets sing!haha
edwin!i need to KALAOKIE..hahahhhhaha

dishwalla

Home

I'm so sick and tired
of all these things
that drag me down
I've got no where to go
they say that life
is in these hands
you give everything
you give yourself away you give
and still you choke
and find yourself running for the door

come and take me
home
lead me to your door
take me where you are
lead me to your door
at least just for a while

its some kind of life
forever days
we're in the cold
unfamiliar way
so take this fear
and fade it out
it won't make me sad
cause I get sentimental lord
in other ways
and I don't want to let me down here anymore

so come and take me home
lead me to your door
take me where you are
lead me to your door
and let me in
just let me in
and let me leave
just let me leave this world
come on now let me leave this world
at least just for a while

so near yet so far.

ever experienced the irony of how while one is so far away in terms of distance, yet they could be closer emotionally?
well back home, i always took for granted that home is just half an hour away..n tat if i didn;t call home today..i probably could talk to them when i get back on the weekends..it kinda got complacent..
mum told me..tat i been calling home more often now compared to when i was in spore and we talked more now..compared to then.
ironic eh? or rational? since the opportunity to do so is limited now due to the distance..?

no matter the reason..i am glad how tings turned out..how the family has gotten closer n with all the problems we are facing..we found strength through unity. its good to know that in adversity ..some good things come to brighten up the gloom.

__________________

i came to realise now that its funny how u can learn certain life's little lessons from just about anything..if u really look into it..

its time to move on..i've harboured hopes that i knew within myself that were just too difficult to realise.
somethings just ain;t meant to be.And no one will ever know how it feels to feel like i did.
try they might..but they will never get it right.
and i came to my senses.On a cold melbourne night

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.

ever wished u cld hv part of a lousy bit of ur life erased so it doesn't come n haunt u?not to hurt u?or to make u feel silly?
if you could....wld it make u a different person altogether?
could one such experience/memory be so dramatic tat its life changing?
tink..near death experiences,bad childhood memories,etc...

they say to love like u never been hurt. who are these people?
have they been hurt before? it is true ..u shld love like u nvr been hurt..with ur utmost fullhearted effort.
but it does change u ..won;t it?no matter what it is in life..happy times or bad times..it no doubts leaves a mark,scar on you..or your perspective or attitude towards life in general.
how can we ignore the past..when it is what constitutes our very existence today?

some memories just do not go away...

excerpt from alexander pope

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
Labour and rest, that equal periods keep;
"Obedient slumbers that can wake and weep;"
Desires compos'd, affections ever ev'n,
Tears that delight, and sighs that waft to Heav'n.
Grace shines around her with serenest beams,
And whisp'ring angels prompt her golden dreams.
For her th' unfading rose of Eden blooms,
And wings of seraphs shed divine perfumes,
For her the Spouse prepares the bridal ring,
For her white virgins hymeneals sing,
To sounds of heav'nly harps she dies away,
And melts in visions of eternal day

a tale of two movies

ydae i watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind..its a fantastic movie abt relationships..boy girl kind.
it may be duh to some..but it reali is thought provoking for me.
and late on tv here in aust..they showed forever fever..i nvr seen it in spore..haha its terrible man..the singlish tat they used..i was wonderin..my gosh..it makes singaporeans look reali farni..keke.
the good and the bad..

has been a while since i wrote..
i think i am fallin ill..try to be clever..went running late in the cold night..haha..

i been waitin for an email...i wonder whats taking so long..it seems so deja vu...

mui fan anyone?

its rather quiet without meina around..hope everything is ok over at her side. cooked mui fan tonight..haha u know the thingy they sell at zhi-char stalls back home..the gravy, meat and veggies with rice?
not too bad i would say..but still i suppose its only passable fare for guys who went through army who would say that..
okie i admit..i am a bad cook..but i will get it one day..heez
kinda lost as to what to do..cept study..cook..tv..and running..i went running again today..did a slow paced run..and i felt great..hope to run twice a week hopefully through winter too..

running to me has become rather therapeutic...it calms me..relieves stress, makes me forget my troubles and best of all..i get to feel tired physically..a feeling that is a luxury here..u might think i am crazy..but u can;t have a strong mind without a strong body..sometimes mental stress and exhertion is worst then the physical sort.

another week has passed..and hopefully tomorrow lynn arrives here in melb..and we cld do some catching up...shes here with her bf and would make great company..esp since meina is not around. really glad that some of my friends get to come over once in a while..
it makes it easier to ease into living here.

called home too to check out some recipes with mum..still..haha..i betta 'suffer' myself before i cook for anyone..esp those with a choosey appetite.

i realised how much i missed the spore scene when i called to wish jimmy happy birthday ydae nite...he was at DBL O ..haha cheap boooze..whr u expect to find like minded friends of mine? he was getting really wasted with all the guys back there intent on making him drunk..
i wish i were there to down a few drinks with him too..we both wish so much to catch up over drinks and i guess he has alot to tell me?
hey brudder..just let me know man..and thanks for your support all this while.
brudder ong..the guy who makes the best friend..kaki..fellow officer (i always think he is much betta then me in all aspects at work.) i hope u get a great full time job soon..we'll drink to that when i return.

kinda breaking out all over my face..no doubt due to all the 5am nites that i been keeping..i feel like a..old man with zits!haha
think i shall make some green bean soup tomorrow to balance the yang energies within..need some ying yea..haha......i reali nid to TAO LIANG..gettting heaty ..

old man lament

Happy Birthday Brudder Jimmy..all time sleeping kaki,beer guzzleing,chiong and makan teochew muay partner in crime! happy birthday to you!
i guess you must be at some club having fun.
have my share..i wish i could join you man..i am rreally in need of entertainment n more imptly..kakis like you arnd.

here without you.( n pls i am not Gay.)


A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

The miles just keep rolling as the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that it gets better as we go

I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love

I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl it’s only you and me

big fish..it must be some higher, cosmic order that led me to you

i am supposed to do my readings for my tute presentation tml..but tat cld wait.
i just caught big fish..its a movie starring ewan mcgregor..its a really nice n touching movie to me..esp since i was on the whole father son relationship, male bonding, familiy ties issue. coz the movie is all about this!
it mus have been some divine intervention that led me to see tis flick.wow!
i was so inspired to write after that ..i cldn't ctrl myself..keke

so the story is kinda like well most guys story with their dads?
u never know what your dad is truly like? to borrow from the show..he is like an iceberg..u only see 10% of him..the rest of him..u never can truly know...
how the story goes is how this guy is so fed up with his father's constant yarn spining..making stories outta everyting..like fantasy like stuff..he is so fed up coz his father always make a big story abt his birthday...tats when the dad caught like this BIG FISH!its like a monster catfish..
they end up not speaking to each other for 3years.. sounds familiar? well..more of like have some of us not reali spoken to our dads..

so the story goes..the dad had cancer..n the son returns..wantin to find out more abt this dad of his..whos past is always fantasy inspired..theres too much to say..but it all goes on with that while he goes on to know more abt his dad..he realises.that what he hated the dad for..his constant storytellng n fantasizing of life itself..is reali all true!

but the dad is in critical condition n slowly the two bond with the son realising why his dad made up all those stories..u gotta see it..its a great film for inculcating family values esp abt father and son relationships.

i was rather moved at the end of the movie..of course the dad passes away..but his son finally understood him...too late?better then never..
so dun wait...

life is only tis short..its not enuff for a lifetime of regret when it comes to the point where he is not around..

vietnamese chicken special pho

completed my assignments today!yeah..haha well i do not know how well they will do, but the sense of accomplishment felt relieving.
a couple more essays due in may and june and i would be back home then!kekeke =P
wish me luck and good grades.

went to Myers to get some winter clothing as they were having a sale. its a real sale. discounts start at 20% to 25% reduction. unlike the miserly 10 to 15% in Singapore.
got myself a jacket and a long sleeved ribbed tee. theres this nice jacket that i saw that really caught my eye. but its too expensive!almost 250 bucks man!gosh.
well..maybe i will invest in a really good one..but hmm not now...i will see how cold it is here before deciding.

had a really delicious dinner out with meina at Mekong at swanston st. i love their chilli oil..its the only form of proper spicy chilli here, besides cut chilli. those who know me will know how deprived i am..without my beloved chillis!sighz..
their spring rolls are really fantastic..you all should try it if you are here!

back to skool on mon..its gonna be another six weeks of lects, tutes and more readings...
i was thinking i kinda got back on track with studying since the whole easter break i was doing my essays and reading and it made me understood the stuff i was doing better.saw kai en and his gf at mekongs too..man..the protein freak still ain;t giving up..saw him lugging home 4X2litres of milk back home.gosh..won't he get lactose intolerance?keke

was hoping to go online..but i guess for once i better sleep earlier..its early for my 5am standard..its about 3 now..but i think i better not try to become an insomiac..

i retire into the cold authumn night with the sounds of Tori amos and Wu Bai...
good night all ye beautiful people.