its a wet day here in melb! rained in the morn, afternoon and at night. man it feels like spore.only much more windy.
went to the gym familiarisation prog today, waste of time as usual, but at least i can use the gym now.
going through my readings for tomorrow. oopsie.. some stuff about india and the caste system, gosh, its really cheem, i had to take a break and thus-blogging for awhile.
i am starting to feel really pissed..why does it seem to be so difficult? i am frustrated at the momentum of my studies, its too slow! i feel really retarded.. like a old jalopy that keeps breaking down, i need a engine tuneup. anyone knows a good mechanic?
essays due next week, working on them and like studying, its slow. gosh. i betta pick up soon. i feel like a bicycle in a formula one race.. way slow!
do things happen for a reason? how else can we explain life? is there a greater force behind our everyday lives? is it God? or isit something more divine? some supernatural beyond comprehension force at work?
i am just hoping it likes to make poor students like me scrap through with what i am doing now.
chilly night..13degrees..brrrr..makes u wana snuggle up with someone..
any volunteers?
Monday, March 29, 2004
Sunday, March 28, 2004
sheesh i think i am a shopaholic
okie this morn we had a rush to meet up with frances and adrian for lunch out and then shopping at smith st... madness.. i spent so much but all on necessities, got pullovers and sweaters for the oncoming cold spell. okie..i indulged myself in a pair of oakleys..but they were cheap..haha well..kinda..
so rest of the day i was helping out the two of them shift to their new apt.. managed to do some readings and squeezed in some time to cook dinner too..feeling heaty..its authum here..but its a hot day here..crazy weather here..keke
nothing much today..not in the mood to think of anything.
had a quarrel with my hsemate earlier..man... itsnot worth it to fight with a woman..i let it go in the end n let her had her way.. i just wish to avoid the negativity of it all.
ciaoz!
so rest of the day i was helping out the two of them shift to their new apt.. managed to do some readings and squeezed in some time to cook dinner too..feeling heaty..its authum here..but its a hot day here..crazy weather here..keke
nothing much today..not in the mood to think of anything.
had a quarrel with my hsemate earlier..man... itsnot worth it to fight with a woman..i let it go in the end n let her had her way.. i just wish to avoid the negativity of it all.
ciaoz!
damn i feel hungry
just a little update..daylight saving is over..so effectively the time difference between aust and spore is reduced to 2hrs!
i wld love to hear from you people. an email will do too.kekeke =P
wish to know how i spend my weekend? i stayed at home, even though my housemate asked me to go to nextblue, its a club here at crown, basically a asian joint.haha i still decided not to go despite her pleas...i felt bad saying no to her but just don't feel the same clubbing when you do not know the person that well.
the feeling is definately not the same if it were jimmy, andrew, dan2, edwin, or any of my other kakis..where i can let loose and have a ball of a time just guzzling drinks after drinks and talking shop all night long, top it off with supper at newton..sighz..the food back home..=P
anyway i would have felt really old going there..the crowd is like 18 somethings, the young and the beautiful..not a place for an old bloke like me..disenchanted with life and such places..gimme a beer and a kaki anywhere anytime. i choose that over ogling at gals at some club anyday. such is the lost of interest.
getting busy, essays due in a weeks time, working on them and hope they turn out fine. if only they were as easy as blogging.keke
i wonder at times, what makes people fall in love? isit the initial physical attraction? it will fizzle out right? they are plenty more pretty and goodlooking people around too..ooh how about the special feeling that is supposedly what makes you know ..shes the one?
if only it was that easy...its hard to love someone..even harder to know who to love..OH u think i am a flirt who can't tell whos the one for me? honestly isit that easy to know whos the one for you? i can just follow my hormones, which ironically due to the male genetic requirement to procreate and extend the familly line..which basically makes me 'like' almost every other decent looking lass that i meet! is that the feeling we are talking about?
i not been through much, yet i feel i seen enough of the bgr thingy to get disillusioned by it.
what makes two persons compatible for each other? what if sometimes they are from two different worlds and are complete opposites? what may seem like obstacles and differences that can be worked out NOW, may seem to be what drives couples apart after reality sets in.
such is the irony. with love, you can accomplish so much more, when it leaves you, EVERYtIng seems impossible.
i feel hungry, for affection and for food, i can probably find the food easily and without thinking, just sink my teeth into something.
affection-wise?
can it be as easy as instant mee?
i wld love to hear from you people. an email will do too.kekeke =P
wish to know how i spend my weekend? i stayed at home, even though my housemate asked me to go to nextblue, its a club here at crown, basically a asian joint.haha i still decided not to go despite her pleas...i felt bad saying no to her but just don't feel the same clubbing when you do not know the person that well.
the feeling is definately not the same if it were jimmy, andrew, dan2, edwin, or any of my other kakis..where i can let loose and have a ball of a time just guzzling drinks after drinks and talking shop all night long, top it off with supper at newton..sighz..the food back home..=P
anyway i would have felt really old going there..the crowd is like 18 somethings, the young and the beautiful..not a place for an old bloke like me..disenchanted with life and such places..gimme a beer and a kaki anywhere anytime. i choose that over ogling at gals at some club anyday. such is the lost of interest.
getting busy, essays due in a weeks time, working on them and hope they turn out fine. if only they were as easy as blogging.keke
i wonder at times, what makes people fall in love? isit the initial physical attraction? it will fizzle out right? they are plenty more pretty and goodlooking people around too..ooh how about the special feeling that is supposedly what makes you know ..shes the one?
if only it was that easy...its hard to love someone..even harder to know who to love..OH u think i am a flirt who can't tell whos the one for me? honestly isit that easy to know whos the one for you? i can just follow my hormones, which ironically due to the male genetic requirement to procreate and extend the familly line..which basically makes me 'like' almost every other decent looking lass that i meet! is that the feeling we are talking about?
i not been through much, yet i feel i seen enough of the bgr thingy to get disillusioned by it.
what makes two persons compatible for each other? what if sometimes they are from two different worlds and are complete opposites? what may seem like obstacles and differences that can be worked out NOW, may seem to be what drives couples apart after reality sets in.
such is the irony. with love, you can accomplish so much more, when it leaves you, EVERYtIng seems impossible.
i feel hungry, for affection and for food, i can probably find the food easily and without thinking, just sink my teeth into something.
affection-wise?
can it be as easy as instant mee?
Friday, March 26, 2004
do you like veggies?
ok, i was peeved by this ridiculous aussie while attempting to sign up for the gym here today..haha with whoelse as my gym buddy? mr leongie kaien..hah!
man she was so rude and full of airs that i wanted to give her a good verbal fooking! godamit..if not considering not to lose my composure and act maturely, i would have done so.
had dinner alone today..meina was out with frenz for korean hotpot.haha i whipped up some steamed fish, stirred fried some veggies and baked a sausage wolved it down with rice..haha..
tats when nic smsed from LA..wow..touched that she did..well..even more so since she was disturbed from her rest..
did a homer and was guzzling beer and watching tv..patch adams..such a touching story..hic..
so how many chances do you give someone? isn't it more of how much more your heart can take? the disappointment and crest fallen feeling that well..no one chooses to be in that situation, but yeap it happens all the time..well if you can find it in your heart to try again..more often then not, its always easier to opt for the easier way out....hasta la vista baBEEE... goodbye relationship..try again i might say? well it all depends on is it worth it? and the whole notion on worth is also well based on if its effort from both sides..it be nice to BOTH work on the problems and get through it TOGETHER>..
so why do we mortals fall in love? is it out of the initial attraction/honeymoon period tat will fizzle out with time? what keeps two persons together then? can someone tell me? or isit plain loneliness that drives us to each other? so its interesting yea...love or loneliness? it could be either one.. and no one is ever the wiser..
do we think about it rationally and logically..is there something that keeps two persons together other then love and loneliness? such a sad bunch we are...
man she was so rude and full of airs that i wanted to give her a good verbal fooking! godamit..if not considering not to lose my composure and act maturely, i would have done so.
had dinner alone today..meina was out with frenz for korean hotpot.haha i whipped up some steamed fish, stirred fried some veggies and baked a sausage wolved it down with rice..haha..
tats when nic smsed from LA..wow..touched that she did..well..even more so since she was disturbed from her rest..
did a homer and was guzzling beer and watching tv..patch adams..such a touching story..hic..
so how many chances do you give someone? isn't it more of how much more your heart can take? the disappointment and crest fallen feeling that well..no one chooses to be in that situation, but yeap it happens all the time..well if you can find it in your heart to try again..more often then not, its always easier to opt for the easier way out....hasta la vista baBEEE... goodbye relationship..try again i might say? well it all depends on is it worth it? and the whole notion on worth is also well based on if its effort from both sides..it be nice to BOTH work on the problems and get through it TOGETHER>..
so why do we mortals fall in love? is it out of the initial attraction/honeymoon period tat will fizzle out with time? what keeps two persons together then? can someone tell me? or isit plain loneliness that drives us to each other? so its interesting yea...love or loneliness? it could be either one.. and no one is ever the wiser..
do we think about it rationally and logically..is there something that keeps two persons together other then love and loneliness? such a sad bunch we are...
wrigley's chewing gum
i did the most amazing thing yesterday.well i wasn't feeling all that great after attending tutes and realising that i could find my 'voice' i had all these thoughts in my mind yet i could not just speak out and assert myself at all..hmm i guess i was kind of overwhelmed by the outspoken aussies..tsk tsk..it made me feel really stoopid though and believe me, its the last thing you wish to feel while attending skool.
and so i went on a run to clear my thoughts..i always like running to clear my mind and destress..well maybe not in the army context of waking up early JUST to run but yea it sure feels betta when u run when YOU want to. so i did a run around my suburb and finished off doing some chinups at the park. no..they dun have chin up bars here thats so assessible, but i made do with what was available.
you must be wondering now..what is so amazing about that? seems pretty routine NO? i headed home and after dinner, i just started boozing, ransacking my fridge for beers, nice cheap beers they have here. beer of the day was amstel...felt good ..in a way.
i wonder what is it that keep two people toghether sometimes? is it anything more than just the initial physical attraction leading on to the 'honeymoon' period whereby you are oblivious to all the differences and wassits among the two persons? what happens then? we start noticing flaws, differences and aspects that well, for the better of the 'better half' we wish for them to change or get rid off. so where do you draw the line at how much change there should be? shouldn't there be something more then that? if all we want is just to change the person. then we ask ourselves? why did we like the person in the first case?
how many chances do you give someone to change? once twice? how about when u feel ..the person cannot change anymore? its all in the feeling..isn't that what started the whole mess?
and so i went on a run to clear my thoughts..i always like running to clear my mind and destress..well maybe not in the army context of waking up early JUST to run but yea it sure feels betta when u run when YOU want to. so i did a run around my suburb and finished off doing some chinups at the park. no..they dun have chin up bars here thats so assessible, but i made do with what was available.
you must be wondering now..what is so amazing about that? seems pretty routine NO? i headed home and after dinner, i just started boozing, ransacking my fridge for beers, nice cheap beers they have here. beer of the day was amstel...felt good ..in a way.
i wonder what is it that keep two people toghether sometimes? is it anything more than just the initial physical attraction leading on to the 'honeymoon' period whereby you are oblivious to all the differences and wassits among the two persons? what happens then? we start noticing flaws, differences and aspects that well, for the better of the 'better half' we wish for them to change or get rid off. so where do you draw the line at how much change there should be? shouldn't there be something more then that? if all we want is just to change the person. then we ask ourselves? why did we like the person in the first case?
how many chances do you give someone to change? once twice? how about when u feel ..the person cannot change anymore? its all in the feeling..isn't that what started the whole mess?
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
Trial of lovE?
" in a trial of justice, you listen to the evidence, in a trial of Love. YOU listen to the heart. "
my two cents worth for a dear friend of mine, hope you are coping fine. i'll always be here to hear you out.
its been a while eh? since i last blogged, reason being, Australia is such a efficient country at times, one moment they will surprise you with their " ooh u will get it in a few days and next thing you know, its in the mail the day after!" and yet they are days when " it will be in the mail in 3 days time and its been exactly eleven days since i APPLIED for my broadband here and i STILL not received the darn installation cd YET! " cheerios! to optus! i heard it gotten better after Singtel took over, gosh, cannot imagine how it was before. in fact i am writing now on my notepad and will just be copying this over when i can get online and post this.
essays due next week, gonna be busy researching for some info and i guess the real test is here. wish me luck guys, i really want to do well. for everyone and myself.
lately i received emails and had friends realising they miss me being away, well i was really glad to know that. beeming from ear to ear, NOPE..not in an egomaniacal fashion but in appreciation that theres is some reciprocation of how i am feeling here, missing all my dear friends and its heartwarming to know that you are being missed as well.
Doesn't it make you feel good? or are we all too caught up in our own lives to realise this small gift that being friends are all about? yeap they do come and go and there are the ones just good for ruining the whole notion of friendship, but if nurtured, it can be the most rewarding and satisfying 'relationship' you ever get. No, theres no sex, but darn it, a soulmate is even harder to find/get then a female vaginal orgasm. Its even betta and emotionally satisfying. enough sexual innuendoes already.
david tao's ( pu tong peng you ) is playing now.
i finally settled in! the past weekend, i gotten a washing machine and sofa and now it really looks like a home. come and visit anytime! its not designer chic but hey. you must be proud of what you have yeap! come and sit next to me and we shall have a glass of wine and just chat the night away. getting chilly tonight. keeping my fingers and toes crossed that i will get the installation cd in the morning.
miss ya people lots and yeap i love you all.
my two cents worth for a dear friend of mine, hope you are coping fine. i'll always be here to hear you out.
its been a while eh? since i last blogged, reason being, Australia is such a efficient country at times, one moment they will surprise you with their " ooh u will get it in a few days and next thing you know, its in the mail the day after!" and yet they are days when " it will be in the mail in 3 days time and its been exactly eleven days since i APPLIED for my broadband here and i STILL not received the darn installation cd YET! " cheerios! to optus! i heard it gotten better after Singtel took over, gosh, cannot imagine how it was before. in fact i am writing now on my notepad and will just be copying this over when i can get online and post this.
essays due next week, gonna be busy researching for some info and i guess the real test is here. wish me luck guys, i really want to do well. for everyone and myself.
lately i received emails and had friends realising they miss me being away, well i was really glad to know that. beeming from ear to ear, NOPE..not in an egomaniacal fashion but in appreciation that theres is some reciprocation of how i am feeling here, missing all my dear friends and its heartwarming to know that you are being missed as well.
Doesn't it make you feel good? or are we all too caught up in our own lives to realise this small gift that being friends are all about? yeap they do come and go and there are the ones just good for ruining the whole notion of friendship, but if nurtured, it can be the most rewarding and satisfying 'relationship' you ever get. No, theres no sex, but darn it, a soulmate is even harder to find/get then a female vaginal orgasm. Its even betta and emotionally satisfying. enough sexual innuendoes already.
david tao's ( pu tong peng you ) is playing now.
i finally settled in! the past weekend, i gotten a washing machine and sofa and now it really looks like a home. come and visit anytime! its not designer chic but hey. you must be proud of what you have yeap! come and sit next to me and we shall have a glass of wine and just chat the night away. getting chilly tonight. keeping my fingers and toes crossed that i will get the installation cd in the morning.
miss ya people lots and yeap i love you all.
Thursday, March 18, 2004
everyone should just HUG!
don;t it make you feel good when u are being hugged? i wished i could give my mum a hug now
..shes been retrenched today..must be an absolute bummer of a day. everyone has their down
day.. my MD player is kaput today too..must be an ominous sign..dammit. no more music cept
for radio here..sad man..all my MDs..gone to waste..sheesh.
in fact i dun even feel like writing anymore.
i just want to sleep it all off and get over this bad day.
gonna be eliz bday in an hours time. if you are reading this.HAppy B'day! wish i was there!
meina was really sweet though..knowing i had a bad day n the news of mum losing her job when
i called back ..to offer me a cup of tea just before she slept..thanks yea!
no worries mate? lotsa things to worry about now..
..shes been retrenched today..must be an absolute bummer of a day. everyone has their down
day.. my MD player is kaput today too..must be an ominous sign..dammit. no more music cept
for radio here..sad man..all my MDs..gone to waste..sheesh.
in fact i dun even feel like writing anymore.
i just want to sleep it all off and get over this bad day.
gonna be eliz bday in an hours time. if you are reading this.HAppy B'day! wish i was there!
meina was really sweet though..knowing i had a bad day n the news of mum losing her job when
i called back ..to offer me a cup of tea just before she slept..thanks yea!
no worries mate? lotsa things to worry about now..
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
you will never get indigestion from swallowing your pride...
wow..its been like 3 days since i last written anything. time really flies here. essays up
in 2 weeks time. Gosh! haha. time to get focused. nothing much really cept that have to try
to find some focus amongst the myriad of topics and issues that you can write about. writing
well is another thing but heck. right now, i just hope to get by. i can't be expecting to do
wonderfully well for my first semster here.
look through my fotos on my laptop with my housemate, meina, before cooking dinner and hmm
..its kinda calming to see her photos. i miss everyone back home. especially the guys from
camp, i wonder if they feel the same? haa.i guess not..its such a sad reality that probably
thats the way life is. do people value friendship and ties as much anymore?
a soulmate is for eternity...
had a freaking full dinner of fried dory fish and chicken with capsicum and carrots. keke..
too bad i had to cook and wash up, meina cut herself again while preparing the fish. keke..
cute girl is she not? haha.
its a cold night and i still have 2 readings to complete before tomorrow's tute. i guess i
wun be sleeping early tonight.
i remember the first few days i been to Uni. seeing some of the graduands in their graduands
gown? is that what you call it? hah! made me reminiscent of the days in OCS. the familiar
feeling of ...sheessh.. can i make it? why did i get myself here? all the apprehension and
fears feel so similiar.haha.. but looking back and drawing inspiration from seeing senior
cadets in their number1 and commissioning made me hang on and going on every day, every
exercise. The emotions inside during commissioning and the fact that i went through Alpha
Wing made me realise, that hey, i made it!
i grinned to myself.. and drawing the same inspiration from the graduand in her gown, i
shall use it to motivate and keep myself on track.
time to go do my reading.
in 2 weeks time. Gosh! haha. time to get focused. nothing much really cept that have to try
to find some focus amongst the myriad of topics and issues that you can write about. writing
well is another thing but heck. right now, i just hope to get by. i can't be expecting to do
wonderfully well for my first semster here.
look through my fotos on my laptop with my housemate, meina, before cooking dinner and hmm
..its kinda calming to see her photos. i miss everyone back home. especially the guys from
camp, i wonder if they feel the same? haa.i guess not..its such a sad reality that probably
thats the way life is. do people value friendship and ties as much anymore?
a soulmate is for eternity...
had a freaking full dinner of fried dory fish and chicken with capsicum and carrots. keke..
too bad i had to cook and wash up, meina cut herself again while preparing the fish. keke..
cute girl is she not? haha.
its a cold night and i still have 2 readings to complete before tomorrow's tute. i guess i
wun be sleeping early tonight.
i remember the first few days i been to Uni. seeing some of the graduands in their graduands
gown? is that what you call it? hah! made me reminiscent of the days in OCS. the familiar
feeling of ...sheessh.. can i make it? why did i get myself here? all the apprehension and
fears feel so similiar.haha.. but looking back and drawing inspiration from seeing senior
cadets in their number1 and commissioning made me hang on and going on every day, every
exercise. The emotions inside during commissioning and the fact that i went through Alpha
Wing made me realise, that hey, i made it!
i grinned to myself.. and drawing the same inspiration from the graduand in her gown, i
shall use it to motivate and keep myself on track.
time to go do my reading.
Sunday, March 14, 2004
cold sundae.nite...
its A COLD sundae nite...
brrr...makes u wana eat some hotpot..
finished shifting...FINALLY... haha..
went marketing at richmond ydae..and it made me regret not going marketing with mum all this while..its not to learn how to market..but just the act of going with her...sighz..
gonna keep it short today..
had a long day unpacking and fixing up the place..its finally over and now..
on to studying..heez.
till then.
brrr...makes u wana eat some hotpot..
finished shifting...FINALLY... haha..
went marketing at richmond ydae..and it made me regret not going marketing with mum all this while..its not to learn how to market..but just the act of going with her...sighz..
gonna keep it short today..
had a long day unpacking and fixing up the place..its finally over and now..
on to studying..heez.
till then.
Friday, March 12, 2004
'san bao fan' = chicken,char siew and egg with rice.
whew..i just shifted some of my stuff over to my new apartment, lucky edwin ( my housemate ) had a car, though it was rather wierd that we were shifting stuff around at 130am here!haha..well we were restless and not sleepy so yea..
hmm jessie's birthday soon in a few minutes..think i better call her first.
keke...shes asleep already..gosh..i keep thinking tml is sat..well its fri actually but since i hve no classes on fri..it always feel like sat.
man.. i dun mean to be drama mama here but earlier while cooking dinner..all by myself and feeling rather sombre.. i was overcomed with a sudden sense of emptyness.
the apartment was empty ..housemate was at uni...the tv's on but its all crap shows here..gimme some taiwanese crap here anyday! hahaa i miss kangkang!
it happened all of a sudden and it felt so quiet being there all by myself there. sighz..
heres a song that REALLY shows how i feel...
葉子 是不會飛翔的翅膀
翅膀 是落在天上的葉子
天堂 原來應該不是妄想
只是我早已經遺忘
當初怎麼開始飛翔
孤單 是一個人的狂歡
狂歡 是一群人的孤單
愛情 原來的開始是陪伴
但我也漸漸地遺忘
當時是怎樣有人陪伴
我一個人吃飯 旅行 (到處)走走停停
也一個人看書 彈琴 自己對話談心
只是心又飄到了哪裡
就連自己看也看不清
我想我不僅僅是失去你
hey waddya know? arsenal did win 2-0..haha cool eh? like i said..a season of greatness beckons for the Gunners! yea..sorry edwin..man u is not in luck eh?
hmm jessie's birthday soon in a few minutes..think i better call her first.
keke...shes asleep already..gosh..i keep thinking tml is sat..well its fri actually but since i hve no classes on fri..it always feel like sat.
man.. i dun mean to be drama mama here but earlier while cooking dinner..all by myself and feeling rather sombre.. i was overcomed with a sudden sense of emptyness.
the apartment was empty ..housemate was at uni...the tv's on but its all crap shows here..gimme some taiwanese crap here anyday! hahaa i miss kangkang!
it happened all of a sudden and it felt so quiet being there all by myself there. sighz..
heres a song that REALLY shows how i feel...
葉子 是不會飛翔的翅膀
翅膀 是落在天上的葉子
天堂 原來應該不是妄想
只是我早已經遺忘
當初怎麼開始飛翔
孤單 是一個人的狂歡
狂歡 是一群人的孤單
愛情 原來的開始是陪伴
但我也漸漸地遺忘
當時是怎樣有人陪伴
我一個人吃飯 旅行 (到處)走走停停
也一個人看書 彈琴 自己對話談心
只是心又飄到了哪裡
就連自己看也看不清
我想我不僅僅是失去你
hey waddya know? arsenal did win 2-0..haha cool eh? like i said..a season of greatness beckons for the Gunners! yea..sorry edwin..man u is not in luck eh?
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