what does it take? To make a person smile?
Can that very same thing that made ur smile radiant, cause you to shed countless tears too?
i have wondered and pondered.
in someway i am haunted.
The moments of joy we once shared.
became instances of despair.
Life has been busy, i've been working hard this semester, trying to get along.
Life has been kind, great friends were sent to me, this semester, they came and without them i would have crumbled.
Life has been wonderful, my family, i missed them so.
Why can't life be simpler?
I wonder.
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Saturday, August 27, 2005
Ladies and gentlemen, JetStarf Flight number 401 is now departing for Sydney. Here we go..haha..As i promised these are some pics from the wicked holiday i had last july. those days with my friends and housemate were just incredible.I cant wait for the end of the year..Cairns and white river rafting...grrrR!
Friday, August 26, 2005
Smile and the whole World shall Smile with You?
what does a smile mean to some of us?
Beneath those pearly whites, framed by luscious moist lips (that smells like strawberry?), Can a smile be much more then what it appears to be?
An Angelic smile that warms the very hearts of two people in love.
A mother's loving smile that radiates the overwhelming love that she has for her children.
A smile of appreciation from the cleaning lady that clears your table when she recieves a Thank You for doing her job.
The megawatt and botoxed smile of Celebrities.
The wideasyourface Grin of the winner of the Lottery.
Each Smile being the same facial expression, yet embedded with different feelings and each with different meaning to the individual and others whom are around this individual.
A smile might be infectious, being happy makes those around you happy as well?
But the last smile of a dying person, the smile that says, "Thank you, you've done all that you could." The smile before their inevitable departure from this world. The shower of a thousand tears...
Smile and the whole World shall Smile with You?
PS.
To the poor soul who died in Hougang Ave 7 last night, peace be upon you.
To those whom watched and didn't lift a finger to help (even after desperate pleas), stating "the ambulance is coming soon." Shame shame shame on you.
Where is the love for your fellow man?
The World we live in is a scary place.The People, Humanity itself, that breathes the very same air as everyone else. What a horrifying thought.
Beneath those pearly whites, framed by luscious moist lips (that smells like strawberry?), Can a smile be much more then what it appears to be?
An Angelic smile that warms the very hearts of two people in love.
A mother's loving smile that radiates the overwhelming love that she has for her children.
A smile of appreciation from the cleaning lady that clears your table when she recieves a Thank You for doing her job.
The megawatt and botoxed smile of Celebrities.
The wideasyourface Grin of the winner of the Lottery.
Each Smile being the same facial expression, yet embedded with different feelings and each with different meaning to the individual and others whom are around this individual.
A smile might be infectious, being happy makes those around you happy as well?
But the last smile of a dying person, the smile that says, "Thank you, you've done all that you could." The smile before their inevitable departure from this world. The shower of a thousand tears...
Smile and the whole World shall Smile with You?
PS.
To the poor soul who died in Hougang Ave 7 last night, peace be upon you.
To those whom watched and didn't lift a finger to help (even after desperate pleas), stating "the ambulance is coming soon." Shame shame shame on you.
Where is the love for your fellow man?
The World we live in is a scary place.The People, Humanity itself, that breathes the very same air as everyone else. What a horrifying thought.
Thursday, August 25, 2005
一六一二。
What?!!?
Is Eric trying to provide the top prize lottery number for this saturday? ( Well, if anyone does strike, please buy an airticket and visit me here in Melb, i love to see you guys+gals and HOr-Lee_Dey before i graduate.=P
Neither is this the latest WONG KAR WAI movie title, yes i love 2046, but In the Mood for Love and Maggi..AND those delicious Cheongsams is even better!
Firstly, i would like to say hiyeee! to Evvon! You inspired this blog, otherwise i would have been tooooo tired and slack to blog tonight..not to mention i had to put aside my Chinese Thought Assignment..but thats US Saggis...haha terrible procrasinators we are.=P
Okie okie... i'll get serious now.
一六一二。
what is it?
Thats the day i'll leave my beloved Melbourne, the friends whom i made, whom held me close, the food places and Gelato shops which 'healed' my stomach when i was hungry, the pleasures of having my own room and a queen sized bed, the carefree ways of being/pretending to be a student, blasting my Mp3's on my 5.1 Speakers, having late night snacks at 4am, sleeping at 6am because the sun is rising, cheap beer, sleeping underneath my quilt, being the mp3 pirate, the wineries at yarra valley, the views from great ocean road, how lucky i am having friends whom visit me everytime they fly in, the pizzas from Redrock, ChilliCafe, Dessert House House Special Pork Chops, 椒鹽雞飯, running in the cold melbourne evenings, BigBrother, Sdyney Holidays...(Where do i end?).
I would have loaded this song ___ Home by Michael Buble, but i'll leave it for december.
Those who haven't heard it before, you should!
Is Eric trying to provide the top prize lottery number for this saturday? ( Well, if anyone does strike, please buy an airticket and visit me here in Melb, i love to see you guys+gals and HOr-Lee_Dey before i graduate.=P
Neither is this the latest WONG KAR WAI movie title, yes i love 2046, but In the Mood for Love and Maggi..AND those delicious Cheongsams is even better!
Firstly, i would like to say hiyeee! to Evvon! You inspired this blog, otherwise i would have been tooooo tired and slack to blog tonight..not to mention i had to put aside my Chinese Thought Assignment..but thats US Saggis...haha terrible procrasinators we are.=P
Okie okie... i'll get serious now.
一六一二。
what is it?
Thats the day i'll leave my beloved Melbourne, the friends whom i made, whom held me close, the food places and Gelato shops which 'healed' my stomach when i was hungry, the pleasures of having my own room and a queen sized bed, the carefree ways of being/pretending to be a student, blasting my Mp3's on my 5.1 Speakers, having late night snacks at 4am, sleeping at 6am because the sun is rising, cheap beer, sleeping underneath my quilt, being the mp3 pirate, the wineries at yarra valley, the views from great ocean road, how lucky i am having friends whom visit me everytime they fly in, the pizzas from Redrock, ChilliCafe, Dessert House House Special Pork Chops, 椒鹽雞飯, running in the cold melbourne evenings, BigBrother, Sdyney Holidays...(Where do i end?).
I would have loaded this song ___ Home by Michael Buble, but i'll leave it for december.
Those who haven't heard it before, you should!
Monday, August 22, 2005
我和春天有個約會。
For the Mando_iliterate, today's blog post title is "I have a Date with Spring".
Now before there are any bubbles popping out of the viewer's head, it's not that i have a girlfriend now or that i am in love. I have always been in love, with Love itself.= )
Now that romantic..awwww.. and finally! thoughts have been squashed, lets get down to business.
Spring is almost here! The cold n endless rain pattering down from the skies with gusty chilly winds that tickle your bones, it has to be here soon.Bleh. (means i am heading home soon too.)
Had a crazy dream last night, i was snowboarding..and not to sound HAO LIAN or what, i was damn good and doing all those stunts ALA Xtreme games.
*DISCLAIMER.Please note and remember that this is a dream.Afterall.*
Made me miss my Ski Holiday so much..i want to go again!Who wants to go???
After being snapped back into reality by a mighty BURp... i reckon i am a big dreamer, someone who wants to do so much, but there just isn't time or resources to do all that my mind is capable of.
indeed, haven't i spoken of going to Korea and stuff previously? mmm Perhaps my dreams of heading to Europe to visit Mark and Weilun in London would'nt materialised till the actual moment.But the thought of it makes my life worthwhile..and that suffices.For now.=)
Coming up soon on this space, my sdyney holiday photos.
I hope you guys+gals like the song on my Blog.=P
Now before there are any bubbles popping out of the viewer's head, it's not that i have a girlfriend now or that i am in love. I have always been in love, with Love itself.= )
Now that romantic..awwww.. and finally! thoughts have been squashed, lets get down to business.
Spring is almost here! The cold n endless rain pattering down from the skies with gusty chilly winds that tickle your bones, it has to be here soon.Bleh. (means i am heading home soon too.)
Had a crazy dream last night, i was snowboarding..and not to sound HAO LIAN or what, i was damn good and doing all those stunts ALA Xtreme games.
*DISCLAIMER.Please note and remember that this is a dream.Afterall.*
Made me miss my Ski Holiday so much..i want to go again!Who wants to go???
After being snapped back into reality by a mighty BURp... i reckon i am a big dreamer, someone who wants to do so much, but there just isn't time or resources to do all that my mind is capable of.
indeed, haven't i spoken of going to Korea and stuff previously? mmm Perhaps my dreams of heading to Europe to visit Mark and Weilun in London would'nt materialised till the actual moment.But the thought of it makes my life worthwhile..and that suffices.For now.=)
Coming up soon on this space, my sdyney holiday photos.
I hope you guys+gals like the song on my Blog.=P
Sunday, August 21, 2005
蛋塔王子
The rain is falling.
And i'm tired as hell.
I've been neglecting this blog, my consciousness, somewhere else.
Theres so many things to do, but theres only 24hrs a day.
This blog's posts, once so vivid, with words that carry emotions, now seem barren, where has it gone?
What is it?
So many questions.
I rather not know why.
Gimme telly, beer and i'll be fine.
Now don't worry,
i'm just tired.
I'll Survive.
And i'm tired as hell.
I've been neglecting this blog, my consciousness, somewhere else.
Theres so many things to do, but theres only 24hrs a day.
This blog's posts, once so vivid, with words that carry emotions, now seem barren, where has it gone?
What is it?
So many questions.
I rather not know why.
Gimme telly, beer and i'll be fine.
Now don't worry,
i'm just tired.
I'll Survive.
Thursday, August 18, 2005
Happiness.
I am happy.
When i returned to Melb from singapore a few months ago.I wasn't, i wasn't myself and in a way, that wore out those around me too.
these days, i feel so natural and at ease, having found my jovial, crappy, cheeky* self.
So much has been happening around me, happy news of marriages and proposals. Must have rubbed off that happy feeling thats in the air.
I am happy!=)
When i returned to Melb from singapore a few months ago.I wasn't, i wasn't myself and in a way, that wore out those around me too.
these days, i feel so natural and at ease, having found my jovial, crappy, cheeky* self.
So much has been happening around me, happy news of marriages and proposals. Must have rubbed off that happy feeling thats in the air.
I am happy!=)
Sunday, August 14, 2005
i saw her again
Its been awhile since i last used my NEC 3G phone, i was charging it up for nat last evening coz her battery was gonna be flat.
and then i decided to switch it on..mmm familar photos of her were then displayed before my eyes.
No longer feelings of sadness, yet an unfamiliar sense of, what am i gonna say to her if we EVER meet again?
Take care and best of luck in your studies, if you for some reason are stilling reading this blog, you should know despite me failing you, i still want the best for you.
Anybody wants to buy a NEC 3G fone? =)
and then i decided to switch it on..mmm familar photos of her were then displayed before my eyes.
No longer feelings of sadness, yet an unfamiliar sense of, what am i gonna say to her if we EVER meet again?
Take care and best of luck in your studies, if you for some reason are stilling reading this blog, you should know despite me failing you, i still want the best for you.
Anybody wants to buy a NEC 3G fone? =)
okie this is a really bad picture but i just felt such a big craving for childhood snacks that the first thing that popped into my mind was kaka! Not to mention the other numerous junk foods that i wasted my allowances on previously.kekeke..those were good memories.When the world around us was innocent due to our lack of awareness. Now that we've grown older, everything seems greyer and less appealing as they once were. more blogs to come, but first, reading of the Tiananmen massacre.
Thursday, August 11, 2005
I am so happy to see Min today! Had fun teasing her and bantering with her, it all seems so bickerish and bitchy but i guess thats our way of connecting with each other.=) So happy in another sense as she's getting married soon! Her boyfriend, Ben proposed and i thought its really sweet after what both of them went through. I have been hearing wedding bells for two of my close galpals already. So very excited and happy for both Amelia and Min.Seems like others are more excited about my lovelife then myself, for now i am glad to be in the company of a very good friend, Singlehood, U and me, we're gonna be beautiful together. = )
Friday, August 05, 2005
We, the Citizens of Singapore!
Sent some fotos in a CD-R back to mom n pops back home, hope they will like the fotos of the steamboat night, sydney trip and falls creek snowtrip that i sent to them. = )
sorta planning a National Day dinner thingy followed by watching the Parade online hooked up to the TV... = )
Menu of the night,(for now)
Wee Ki Chicken Rice
Jac's ChilliCrabs
Jean's Dai Fu Ku
i remember i wasn't this enthusiastic about NDP during the days when every weekend of mine was spent at Kallang... but the pride and actual atmosphere of the parade itself on 9th of August changed all that.
It really makes u feel patriotic..being in there alongside the rest of the parade participants.
Did i say that i felt like tearing when i sang the National Anthem then?
Singapore, i love you!
PS...
there was this Sporean girl previously (last sem) that absolutely detest Spore, we were in this SEA history class and she always lambast and complain about how bad Spore is and i couldn't take it anymore one day and commented to her, well, no matter how much you hate it, you can't change the fact that you are a Singaporean, can you?
the Silence that ensued was the sweetest thing.
I Just can't take whiners who bite the hand that fed them. Sorry, but she's better off not being a Singaporean.
sorta planning a National Day dinner thingy followed by watching the Parade online hooked up to the TV... = )
Menu of the night,(for now)
Wee Ki Chicken Rice
Jac's ChilliCrabs
Jean's Dai Fu Ku
i remember i wasn't this enthusiastic about NDP during the days when every weekend of mine was spent at Kallang... but the pride and actual atmosphere of the parade itself on 9th of August changed all that.
It really makes u feel patriotic..being in there alongside the rest of the parade participants.
Did i say that i felt like tearing when i sang the National Anthem then?
Singapore, i love you!
PS...
there was this Sporean girl previously (last sem) that absolutely detest Spore, we were in this SEA history class and she always lambast and complain about how bad Spore is and i couldn't take it anymore one day and commented to her, well, no matter how much you hate it, you can't change the fact that you are a Singaporean, can you?
the Silence that ensued was the sweetest thing.
I Just can't take whiners who bite the hand that fed them. Sorry, but she's better off not being a Singaporean.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Singing In The Rain.
it feels like Spring...the cold nights, wet wet weather, chilly wind coupled with bright sunshine during midday.
was walking home in the rain this late evening after catching up with Meiyin, Yuwei, Mike and Joe, who's busy with his final year project.
chatted about whats gonna happen after graduation, (for me there really ain't much choice) but it seems they all are pretty eager to get back home to Singapore.
Realised too at one stage that we are talking about our friends getting hitched..oh man..really getting there in the age department.Soon i'll be talking about which stroller is good (must get those aussie tri-wheel tank like ones!), etc...
was walking home in the rain this late evening after catching up with Meiyin, Yuwei, Mike and Joe, who's busy with his final year project.
chatted about whats gonna happen after graduation, (for me there really ain't much choice) but it seems they all are pretty eager to get back home to Singapore.
Realised too at one stage that we are talking about our friends getting hitched..oh man..really getting there in the age department.Soon i'll be talking about which stroller is good (must get those aussie tri-wheel tank like ones!), etc...
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Daddy Long Legs
I was pleasantly surprised this evening after coming home from the supermarket, dad rang!
Been such a long time since we spoke over the phone, most of the time, he's working and when i ring, he out.
I can tell that he was happy to talk to me too and i made it known to him i missed talking to him as well. = )
Had a good laugh as mom tried to speak to me and i told dad not to let her have it coz i just spoke to her on sunday.kekeke =P
I wonder if there's some comprehension problem on my part, have been misinterpreting things and miscommunicating very frequently lately.
Sorry i stood you up today... i'll do some serious self reflection.( And promise it won't happen again)
Its been good so far!
Still motivated and handling time well in terms of studying and still keeping myself fit at the gym.
need to be more conscious of what ELSE is happening around me though.=P
Time for a shower and back to the books!
Been such a long time since we spoke over the phone, most of the time, he's working and when i ring, he out.
I can tell that he was happy to talk to me too and i made it known to him i missed talking to him as well. = )
Had a good laugh as mom tried to speak to me and i told dad not to let her have it coz i just spoke to her on sunday.kekeke =P
I wonder if there's some comprehension problem on my part, have been misinterpreting things and miscommunicating very frequently lately.
Sorry i stood you up today... i'll do some serious self reflection.( And promise it won't happen again)
Its been good so far!
Still motivated and handling time well in terms of studying and still keeping myself fit at the gym.
need to be more conscious of what ELSE is happening around me though.=P
Time for a shower and back to the books!
Monday, August 01, 2005
360Degrees
My 360th post, its been awhile since i've been here ain't it?
I remember the days of losing so much weight when i first got here, now i can't seem to lose any at all.
I need to say this while its the beginning of the passage, most of the time, people don't read beyond the first 5 lines of the passage if it doesn't catches their interest. I missed You all!
YEa while i have a awesome gang of friends here in Melbourne, i really wish i could have stayed here with all of them instead of heading home at the end of the year.
Indeed, that thought is nice, but seriously i can't afford another year of this and its about time i get back to Spore and start working my ass off for some serious cash.
I hope that the friends that i have made here become just aquaintances once i return back to Sillypore, it would be one hell of a time juggling and management trick, i can't bear to leave you all! When i first got here, i wish i could have 'tao pao-ed' my friends over to Melbourne, now i wish i could bring you all back home and just relive the wonderful experiences we all had.
The chinese have a saying, 天下沒有不散的宴席。
Lets all work hard. =)
Heres to friendship and memories which are enough to last me a lifetime.
To all my friends, thank you.
I remember the days of losing so much weight when i first got here, now i can't seem to lose any at all.
I need to say this while its the beginning of the passage, most of the time, people don't read beyond the first 5 lines of the passage if it doesn't catches their interest. I missed You all!
YEa while i have a awesome gang of friends here in Melbourne, i really wish i could have stayed here with all of them instead of heading home at the end of the year.
Indeed, that thought is nice, but seriously i can't afford another year of this and its about time i get back to Spore and start working my ass off for some serious cash.
I hope that the friends that i have made here become just aquaintances once i return back to Sillypore, it would be one hell of a time juggling and management trick, i can't bear to leave you all! When i first got here, i wish i could have 'tao pao-ed' my friends over to Melbourne, now i wish i could bring you all back home and just relive the wonderful experiences we all had.
The chinese have a saying, 天下沒有不散的宴席。
Lets all work hard. =)
Heres to friendship and memories which are enough to last me a lifetime.
To all my friends, thank you.
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