nice place to eat, food looks and tastes great but all of us who went to sen bar for the korean hotpot was down with diarrhoea!
TAMADE!(Hokkien explicit language)
Worst thing, i had to endure the pain of a tummy ache and the urge to rush to the toilet over a lecture!I was trapped amidst rows of people preventing me from making a mad rush to the loo.the feeling was horrible, i could have sworn my knuckles were white while enduring the pain and trying not to move!
you don't even dare to move your butt!
Porridge for lunch now.argh!
Thursday, April 28, 2005
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
take my virginity!
Ski brochure from Falls Creek was sent down!Cool!hope plans to go skiing works out.
though i kinda dread planning the entire trip. i reckon i better do it if not i'll never get to ski or fooking end my snow virginity till god knows when!
mmm..planning for a trip like this aint gonna be easy, but if someone has to/can do it.i am sure i can do it!haha! =P
hopefully things work out well.
With great holiday plans, comes great responsibility, thinking of planning the driving, the adcomm, the food, the activities made me recall the days of army planning!haha! well, i need to 'shoot some arrows' i guess!
had Korean hotpot earlier this evening, man i feel so sorry for bring my friends out to a really crappy one previously, sorry T*** and *Kite*, back then i didnt know this joint, its much better. =)
two days till Quidam!MAn i can't wait!
though i kinda dread planning the entire trip. i reckon i better do it if not i'll never get to ski or fooking end my snow virginity till god knows when!
mmm..planning for a trip like this aint gonna be easy, but if someone has to/can do it.i am sure i can do it!haha! =P
hopefully things work out well.
With great holiday plans, comes great responsibility, thinking of planning the driving, the adcomm, the food, the activities made me recall the days of army planning!haha! well, i need to 'shoot some arrows' i guess!
had Korean hotpot earlier this evening, man i feel so sorry for bring my friends out to a really crappy one previously, sorry T*** and *Kite*, back then i didnt know this joint, its much better. =)
two days till Quidam!MAn i can't wait!
Monday, April 25, 2005
Writing To Reach You-Travis
Every day I wake up and it's Sunday
Whatever's in my eye won't go away
The radio is playing all the usual
What's a Wonderwall anyway
Because my inside is outside
My right side's on the left side
Cause I'm writing to reach you now but
I might never reach you
Only want to teach you
About you
But that's not you
It's good to know that you are home for Christmas
It's good to know that you are doing well
It's good to know that you all know I'm hurting
It's good to know I'm feeling not so well
Because my inside is outside
My right side's on the left side
Cause I'm writing to reach you now but
I might never reach you
Only want to teach you
About you
But that's not you
Do you know it's true
But that won't do
Maybe then tomorrow will be Monday
And whatever's in my eye should go away
But the radio is playing all the usual
And what's a Wonderwall anyway
Because my inside is outside
My right side's on the left side
Cause I'm writing to reach you now but
I might never reach you
Only want to teach you
About you
But that's not you
Do you know it's true
But that won't do
And you know it's you
I'm talking to
Whatever's in my eye won't go away
The radio is playing all the usual
What's a Wonderwall anyway
Because my inside is outside
My right side's on the left side
Cause I'm writing to reach you now but
I might never reach you
Only want to teach you
About you
But that's not you
It's good to know that you are home for Christmas
It's good to know that you are doing well
It's good to know that you all know I'm hurting
It's good to know I'm feeling not so well
Because my inside is outside
My right side's on the left side
Cause I'm writing to reach you now but
I might never reach you
Only want to teach you
About you
But that's not you
Do you know it's true
But that won't do
Maybe then tomorrow will be Monday
And whatever's in my eye should go away
But the radio is playing all the usual
And what's a Wonderwall anyway
Because my inside is outside
My right side's on the left side
Cause I'm writing to reach you now but
I might never reach you
Only want to teach you
About you
But that's not you
Do you know it's true
But that won't do
And you know it's you
I'm talking to
I did what i faced dilemmas or when i am troubled, bothered.I RAN..i RAN and RAN ala forrest gump.although my poor state of fitness doesnt allow me to run as much or as long as he did.it felt good to be able to take the blood out of your brain and pump it through your system without having much need to think about anything else cept pumping your hands and moving your feet.Those 20minutes of mental respite...it felt really good.we all wish to be free, not to be bound by chains wrought from desire, emotions, stuff that will give you pleasure yet pain if it all goes wrong.Life aint something you can run from. Even as i speak, i think of the kite, which is tied down to reality by the string that is attached to it. Perhaps it would be nice to cut loose the strings that hold us back, but without the very same string, the kite would have never left the ground and get lifted into the sky. Without suffering, how do we define what is happiness? Without the heartache from losing someone, how do we realise how important love is and how important it is to hold on and grab every chance possible to make love work? It is simply not possible to run nor hide from all this.Although it may hurt, but i figured the pain of losing an opportunity that could have, might have been, is far greater then the pain of trying and not succeeding. ~hugz~
a case of referencing.
Dear friends, i came across this entry (words which i found really meaningful) on ZihUi's blog the other day, asked her for permission to do a quote on what her friend <> wrote and well i shall just clam up and let you all take a look at it. =)
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Life is the process of finding love. Every person will need to find four people in their life. First person is yourself, Second person is the one you love most, Third person is the one who love you most, And the fourth, is the one you spend therest of your life with.
In life, firstly you will meet with the one you love most, and learn how love feels. Because you know how love feels, so you can find the person who love you most.
When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you will then know what it is you need most. Then you will find the person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.
Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.
The one you love most, doesn't love you. The one who loves you most, is never the one you love most. And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who loves you most. He is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.
Which person are you in other people life?
No person will purposely have a change of heart. At the point in time when he loves you, he really loves you. But when he doesn't love you anymore, he really doesn't love you anymore. When he loves you, he can pretend that he doesn't.
Same goes, when he loves you no more, there is no way he can pretend he loves you. When a person doesn't love you and wants to leave you, you must ask yourself if you still love him. If you also don't love him anymore, don't ever let him leave just to save your pride.
If you still love him, you should wish him happiness, and hope that he will be with the one he loves most, not stop him from it. If you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves, it shows you already don't love him. And if you don't love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart?
Love is not possessive. If you like the moon, you can't just take it down and put it in your basin. But the moonlight still shines upon you. In other words, when you love a person, you can use another method of possessing the person. Let him become a permanent memory in your life.
If you really love a person, you must love him for what he is. Love him for his good points, and the bad. You can wish for him to become like what you like him to be just because you love him. If he can change to become what you like him to be, you don t love him anymore.
When you really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love him, you only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood, you will wish to have this person be with you.
Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criteria. In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, not always be on the receiving end.
Being away from each other is a type of test. If the relationship isn't strong, then you can only admit defeat.
Real love will never become hate...
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Genie, it makes me think of the book you gotten me for my birthday. =)
i cant wait to see you again!
its a public holiday here today and i think we are gonna have a bbq tonite.mmmm...
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Life is the process of finding love. Every person will need to find four people in their life. First person is yourself, Second person is the one you love most, Third person is the one who love you most, And the fourth, is the one you spend therest of your life with.
In life, firstly you will meet with the one you love most, and learn how love feels. Because you know how love feels, so you can find the person who love you most.
When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you will then know what it is you need most. Then you will find the person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.
Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.
The one you love most, doesn't love you. The one who loves you most, is never the one you love most. And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who loves you most. He is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.
Which person are you in other people life?
No person will purposely have a change of heart. At the point in time when he loves you, he really loves you. But when he doesn't love you anymore, he really doesn't love you anymore. When he loves you, he can pretend that he doesn't.
Same goes, when he loves you no more, there is no way he can pretend he loves you. When a person doesn't love you and wants to leave you, you must ask yourself if you still love him. If you also don't love him anymore, don't ever let him leave just to save your pride.
If you still love him, you should wish him happiness, and hope that he will be with the one he loves most, not stop him from it. If you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves, it shows you already don't love him. And if you don't love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart?
Love is not possessive. If you like the moon, you can't just take it down and put it in your basin. But the moonlight still shines upon you. In other words, when you love a person, you can use another method of possessing the person. Let him become a permanent memory in your life.
If you really love a person, you must love him for what he is. Love him for his good points, and the bad. You can wish for him to become like what you like him to be just because you love him. If he can change to become what you like him to be, you don t love him anymore.
When you really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love him, you only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood, you will wish to have this person be with you.
Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criteria. In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, not always be on the receiving end.
Being away from each other is a type of test. If the relationship isn't strong, then you can only admit defeat.
Real love will never become hate...
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Genie, it makes me think of the book you gotten me for my birthday. =)
i cant wait to see you again!
its a public holiday here today and i think we are gonna have a bbq tonite.mmmm...
Friday, April 22, 2005
scarf fetish
haha!i satisfied my scarf fetish again this afternoon, bought a FCUK scarf that i have been eyeing and LO and BeholD it was on sale!
i tried on the pull over again and i made up my mind to get it instead of getting the cardigan/jacket.
hope they allow exchanges though! =P
its the weekend again!
goolly! Jean's BF did a "eric in adelaide", made me feel for him man. i know how it must mean for him to be down here under the circumstances.
Alan seems disturbed as well, is it more then just work stress?
Have to go proof read Leon's resume and cover letter for his job application.
Fortunately i remembered as i tucked into mee goreng and Milo...mmmmm
Gym is up tomorrow!
I miss you guys.
i tried on the pull over again and i made up my mind to get it instead of getting the cardigan/jacket.
hope they allow exchanges though! =P
its the weekend again!
goolly! Jean's BF did a "eric in adelaide", made me feel for him man. i know how it must mean for him to be down here under the circumstances.
Alan seems disturbed as well, is it more then just work stress?
Have to go proof read Leon's resume and cover letter for his job application.
Fortunately i remembered as i tucked into mee goreng and Milo...mmmmm
Gym is up tomorrow!
I miss you guys.
Thursday, April 21, 2005
i can't wait for Quidam!i know its goona be good so i really can't help getting psyched! i wonder if there is indeed a relationship bug, one thats bites you and then those around you.Back in Spore before i came back, jimmy me and hongda got into r.s troubles and all of us returned to singlehood one after another. been kinda emotional lately, its not about the previous r.s anymore.Yes, the backlash is just my own persistance with feelings of guilt and desire to make things right.Something else is weighing heavy on my heart and i wish just for that extra bit of resolve to keep my promise to Natalie. I been pondering about this question myself for the past few days, why am i such a biggie on physical affection? why isit at the same time i yearn and desire emotional connection so much? Cant a guy love and feel at the same time?
Monday, April 18, 2005
well hongda, you wanted to see what my fridge is like right?well like i described it to you,there is always beer on chill in my fridge, in fact you can say its the most important thing inside that i would notice!oh well..i am gonna make a decision that i think i will regret, but i foresee that nothing is gonna come out of what i hope would happen as well so i rather not hurt anyone nor myself in the foolish process of going along with something that you already know would not turn out well. am i losing my belief or am i bowing to reality and fate?why did i become like this?i think only the beers have the answer.i rather not think of anything nowadays.i feel so vulnerable, when will i be able to face the world again and truely love again? what am i doing now? just trying to convince myself i can love?A fever has its paracetamol, the cut has its bandage, what can heal a broken and weary heart?
Sunday, April 17, 2005
sunday,its another maniac sunday.
i am feeling rather emotional lately.
isit just me or isit that i can't shake free my desire to be with someone so much, yet choose to hold back my feelings knowing that if i were to selfishly pursue my own interests, it would only hurt the person more and drive her further away?well she aint running away from me.
i just need to fathom out what is the actual meaning of, love is patient and love is kind.
i once thought i was patient and i tried but i tired towards the end.
i once told a galpal of mine, yea we can all try hard to make a r.s work, or anyting to work, but like we aint energizer bunnies and one day we will stop or burn ourselves out.
i thought i would be recharged. But it doesnt appear so, isit the aftermath of trying? For one to feel the dread of trying so hard when once it didnt turn out right?
yea, thats it. we can never escape from the experiences of a previous relationship, no matter how hard we try.
some of us compare the ppl we are with now, with the ones we've been with before. that in itself is a form of attachment to the past.
what about the habits and little things you bring across from your previous r.s?
we all bring something out from a r.s, be it love, anger, longing for the person, a sense of guilt, a sense of ' i could hv done better', whatever the case, no matter how hard we try, we are unable to escape the ghosts of our past.
in some cases, there are some of us whom have met someone really nice in the past and we refuse to settle for anything lesser this time round. isnt this also a manifestation of your ex imposing upon your decision right now?
ask yourself this...isnt this true?
when Joel ( in the movie, sunshine of the eternal mind) tried to erase the memories of someone whom brought extreme feelings of joy and grief, it appears it could work but in real life, it doesnt.
i am not missing nic in the romantic sense anymore, but yes i still do think of her.
i feel perturbed, i think i am not in the right frame of mind for doing anything, studies much less a relationship, i thought i would be ready for it once i gotten over what happened. truth is, i feel confused and even more fragile+vulnerable then ever before.
"whats left to be broken?" i once said...a whole lot more, it hurts even more and as i look upon the pictures that i have taken lately, i have lost that smile which i once knew so well. i just say i'm tired nowadays, but end up sleepless when i am back home, staring at the laptop for as long as i can. till i feel weary and head to bed.
the room is in a mess, much like my analogy regarding packing up the room, you can pack away your memories and think that the room/mind is neat now, but those things are always gonna stay with you, you cant just throw away memories or thoughts. what looks neat and calming on the surface. well.
isit just me or isit that i can't shake free my desire to be with someone so much, yet choose to hold back my feelings knowing that if i were to selfishly pursue my own interests, it would only hurt the person more and drive her further away?well she aint running away from me.
i just need to fathom out what is the actual meaning of, love is patient and love is kind.
i once thought i was patient and i tried but i tired towards the end.
i once told a galpal of mine, yea we can all try hard to make a r.s work, or anyting to work, but like we aint energizer bunnies and one day we will stop or burn ourselves out.
i thought i would be recharged. But it doesnt appear so, isit the aftermath of trying? For one to feel the dread of trying so hard when once it didnt turn out right?
yea, thats it. we can never escape from the experiences of a previous relationship, no matter how hard we try.
some of us compare the ppl we are with now, with the ones we've been with before. that in itself is a form of attachment to the past.
what about the habits and little things you bring across from your previous r.s?
we all bring something out from a r.s, be it love, anger, longing for the person, a sense of guilt, a sense of ' i could hv done better', whatever the case, no matter how hard we try, we are unable to escape the ghosts of our past.
in some cases, there are some of us whom have met someone really nice in the past and we refuse to settle for anything lesser this time round. isnt this also a manifestation of your ex imposing upon your decision right now?
ask yourself this...isnt this true?
when Joel ( in the movie, sunshine of the eternal mind) tried to erase the memories of someone whom brought extreme feelings of joy and grief, it appears it could work but in real life, it doesnt.
i am not missing nic in the romantic sense anymore, but yes i still do think of her.
i feel perturbed, i think i am not in the right frame of mind for doing anything, studies much less a relationship, i thought i would be ready for it once i gotten over what happened. truth is, i feel confused and even more fragile+vulnerable then ever before.
"whats left to be broken?" i once said...a whole lot more, it hurts even more and as i look upon the pictures that i have taken lately, i have lost that smile which i once knew so well. i just say i'm tired nowadays, but end up sleepless when i am back home, staring at the laptop for as long as i can. till i feel weary and head to bed.
the room is in a mess, much like my analogy regarding packing up the room, you can pack away your memories and think that the room/mind is neat now, but those things are always gonna stay with you, you cant just throw away memories or thoughts. what looks neat and calming on the surface. well.
Saturday, April 16, 2005
yipeeee!tickets for cirque du soleil is here!cant wait for april 29th!honestly guys..if cirque do visit singapore or whichever part of the world you might be at..do give it a shot.you cant go wrong with it..if you come out of the show not feeling good, write in to me and i'll give u a refund.YAH rite!hehe..its really good.heee..update more later on tmr..will be going out to get some groceries later for tonites hsewarming..=) its curry chicken tonighT!
easy way out.
i would like to share this MTV by SHE.
yes, the trio from Taiwan, we guys always wonder when we were training there during the days of national service..why werent we born there? =)
mms://tai-wmarc03.tai.bcst.yahoo.com/hinetroot1/HinetShare03/music/7/12112836.wmv
my friend here is facing a dilemma.
its the typical long distance r.s problem.
someone special popped up here.
is it easier to just choose to go for the one whom is nearer and you are able to see each other rather then continue with someone whom you can only hear but not feel physically?
my friend seems sleighted to taking the easy approach.
if we are so aversive towards toiling for a r.s, then why get into one when you just want to take it easy and slack your way through it?have you ever tried to love a person more?
is this the way love and r.s are going?
if indeed, the word is out and it is true.
relationships are overrated (quote minah lim 2004).
i wish you all a happy weekend.
yes, the trio from Taiwan, we guys always wonder when we were training there during the days of national service..why werent we born there? =)
mms://tai-wmarc03.tai.bcst.yahoo.com/hinetroot1/HinetShare03/music/7/12112836.wmv
my friend here is facing a dilemma.
its the typical long distance r.s problem.
someone special popped up here.
is it easier to just choose to go for the one whom is nearer and you are able to see each other rather then continue with someone whom you can only hear but not feel physically?
my friend seems sleighted to taking the easy approach.
if we are so aversive towards toiling for a r.s, then why get into one when you just want to take it easy and slack your way through it?have you ever tried to love a person more?
is this the way love and r.s are going?
if indeed, the word is out and it is true.
relationships are overrated (quote minah lim 2004).
i wish you all a happy weekend.
Thursday, April 14, 2005
dinner at marc's
i just came back from dinner at marcs plc in east brunswick..golly it was nice to have a dinner of japanese food.sachiko cooked tonite and it was wonderful!the japanese pancakes she made were quite yummy!
i had a good chat with them all during dinner, what shocked me towards the end was as me and marc were doing the dishes, he told me that he and sachiko werent together anymore..i was stumped..they still looked fine underneath..tooo much for me to handle i guess...too many ppl breaking up arnd me..i instantly felt a sense of dread.
the feeling overwhelmed me and i was worrying...negativity took over.
why has it got to be like this?
its really sad thinking and hearing about all this.
like Me, Marc didnt know what to tell me and thus even though they broke up awhile ago..he didnt tell me untill today.
gosh i can imagine how difficult it must have been for him.
i hope the weather is fine tomorrow.
good night people. =/
i had a good chat with them all during dinner, what shocked me towards the end was as me and marc were doing the dishes, he told me that he and sachiko werent together anymore..i was stumped..they still looked fine underneath..tooo much for me to handle i guess...too many ppl breaking up arnd me..i instantly felt a sense of dread.
the feeling overwhelmed me and i was worrying...negativity took over.
why has it got to be like this?
its really sad thinking and hearing about all this.
like Me, Marc didnt know what to tell me and thus even though they broke up awhile ago..he didnt tell me untill today.
gosh i can imagine how difficult it must have been for him.
i hope the weather is fine tomorrow.
good night people. =/
its the weekend!!!
yipeee! another week of uni is over and assignments done and handed up. at least this weekend i wouldn't have any thing on the back of my mind when i go out. its a good time to take a good rest too, been so tired lately, keeping late nights and i just wonder....if only we don't need to sleep...
tonight will be heading out to Marc and Sachiko's place for a dinner gathering at their place in East Brunswick. its been so long since i've met up with them and i am glad we are catching up tonight because the two of them would be heading back to France soon in June and by then i probably be so bogged down with essays that i cant really enjoy just hanging out with them.
hoping to get some shopping done tomorrow i hope, think i shall jio Ivan and see how it goes, in serious need of winter clothing..haha!though i just bought a FCUK cardigan/jacket just awhile ago..am i shopping just to make myself happy?mmmm...=/
i do lapse into periods of semi depression..i still feel very sorry and bad for the way things ended with me and nic. i think the thing to say is, i keep wanting to make things up to you, but i just screw things up again..i duno if you are reading this but if you are, i hope so very much that you realise that i am sorry and that i know i hurt you more then i should have. please if you are reading this, take good care of your health and for your studies, i wish you the best of luck.Hate me, i think i deserved all this and i will always wish for your wellbeing.
another round of house warming on sat at natalies place.the whole gang will be there.i wonder if i need to cook for the evening..thinking curries!haha its cold here already darnit!what else can u wish for?
question of the day, how can you move on from a r.s from which you feel you done the other person a great wrong? i know none of my friends like to see or hear me talking like this. i just wish i can make things rite, i learnt my lesson.sorry, i should have never hurt you but i did, i have to pay the price and i wish you didnt have to carry the burden of my foolishness.
my mind is so messed up..i am caught in between feeling sorry and trying to be happy.
tonight will be heading out to Marc and Sachiko's place for a dinner gathering at their place in East Brunswick. its been so long since i've met up with them and i am glad we are catching up tonight because the two of them would be heading back to France soon in June and by then i probably be so bogged down with essays that i cant really enjoy just hanging out with them.
hoping to get some shopping done tomorrow i hope, think i shall jio Ivan and see how it goes, in serious need of winter clothing..haha!though i just bought a FCUK cardigan/jacket just awhile ago..am i shopping just to make myself happy?mmmm...=/
i do lapse into periods of semi depression..i still feel very sorry and bad for the way things ended with me and nic. i think the thing to say is, i keep wanting to make things up to you, but i just screw things up again..i duno if you are reading this but if you are, i hope so very much that you realise that i am sorry and that i know i hurt you more then i should have. please if you are reading this, take good care of your health and for your studies, i wish you the best of luck.Hate me, i think i deserved all this and i will always wish for your wellbeing.
another round of house warming on sat at natalies place.the whole gang will be there.i wonder if i need to cook for the evening..thinking curries!haha its cold here already darnit!what else can u wish for?
question of the day, how can you move on from a r.s from which you feel you done the other person a great wrong? i know none of my friends like to see or hear me talking like this. i just wish i can make things rite, i learnt my lesson.sorry, i should have never hurt you but i did, i have to pay the price and i wish you didnt have to carry the burden of my foolishness.
my mind is so messed up..i am caught in between feeling sorry and trying to be happy.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
"How Can You Mend A Broken Heart"
I can think of younger days
When living for my life
Was everything a man could want to do
I could never see tomorrow
But I was never told about the sorrow
And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
What makes the world go round?
How can you mend a this broken man?
How can a loser ever win?
Please help me mend my broken heart
And let me live again
I can still feel the breeze
That rustles through the trees
And misty memories of days gone by
We could never see tomorrow
No one said a word about the sorrow
And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
What makes the world go round?
How can you mend this broken man?
How can a loser ever win?
Please help me mend my broken heart
And let me live again
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Monday, April 11, 2005
Nat gave me this after dinner, after we headed down to Russell street towards ivan's car.Guys..i will take a pic of IVan hongs and haha..its a real fancy EVO lookallike!haha..hmmm cant bear to eat the crackers!even though its so tempting!shall share it with nat one day!haha...orite...can't wait for Quidam!thats the show by cirque de soilei...check it out on the internet guys!the show will blow u away..catch it when it hits singapore!i miss u all!
i went for the Melb comedy festival last night, my first foray into stand up comedy and i must say i really enjoyed myself for that one hour!we caught TRIPOD!hows tat bro Jon Fong and Jimbo?!!?! Tripod is this trio who are damn hilarious..they are great muscians as well! Went for dinner with Leon, ivan, aileen, nat and jane. Although i had a 2.5K word essay due the next day i wasn't really in the mood...i duno.have not been in the mood for studying since i came back.i just want to let those who are reading this blog to know.i wouldn't be coming back to Spore this june/july, if i had a choice.i dont think i want to go back anymore.its not that i am having so much fun here nor isit that i dont give shit about those who helped in sending me here.i just want to have abit of space.Only here can i do my own things and not be bogged down with other considerations. i would like to blog some more..but i am really tired after finishing the essay and gym.i think i am gonna crash.
Sunday, April 10, 2005
do i still dare to dream?
Had I the heaven's embroidered clothes,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and half light,
I would spread the cloth under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have to spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and half light,
I would spread the cloth under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have to spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams
Saturday, April 09, 2005
i cant pretend anymore!
I hate having to be sensitive to other people's feelings and problems.
what makes their problem any bigger then others?
Who gives them the authority to make life difficult for others around them just because fortunately some people are patient and kind enough to put up with nonsense?
i dun have the patience and i dun like to live my life as someone whom i aint.
having to suppress how i really feel.
what makes their problem any bigger then others?
Who gives them the authority to make life difficult for others around them just because fortunately some people are patient and kind enough to put up with nonsense?
i dun have the patience and i dun like to live my life as someone whom i aint.
having to suppress how i really feel.
Friday, April 08, 2005
hey people..i must apologize.i havent been updating my blog lately..well..certain things happened that changed your perspective about hw you wish to live your life...well..we all make mistakes and i reckon yah i am sorry for what i have done and i am really sorry that i broke someone's heart.but i can change that anymore no matter how hard i try. the only way i can react from this to be a better person and reflect on what i have done and never ever do it again.Look back in regret yes, for a moment and sometimes yes.but not live your life in regret that it would mean you be stuck at that moment in life forever, we are not meant to be losers. i will try my very best to live the right way from now on. heres a pic of me and ivan!
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