school's out

it was the last day of school ydae and together came relief in the form of finally i am gonna have time to just do my essays and nothing else but also the impulsive insane urge to drop everything, pack my bags and rush home to be with nic.
after all theres nothing more that i miss back home then her and if i could just make sure i get all the ends tied up here, why not?
but realism kicks in and probably dreams get punctured and hope deflated..it just ain't gonna be that easy for me to do that.
other little errands to do as well as resolve the whole transfer of bills,etc with meina.
sounds like a messy divorce?
wahhaah =P

feeling tired and missing, yearning for someone close to my heart alot.
if only things were easier, for me to love you more.
see you people soon and thanks to those whom bothered to ask when i'll be back.
hope u all understand i won't be available as much and thanks for bearing with me on that.
i love u all

i am officially a pauper

i am glad i am heading home soon.
i am on the road to economic instability.
Studying overseas is such a pain especially when you used to be working and now your financial resources/income has became as dry as a frigid woman.
i want to go home sooner!help me!help me!

United Nations

the past few days saw the following people coming to view the apartment and potentially housemates in future.

1) German post grad student-andreas, alas can't rent the room out to him coz he's only staying till dec and its uncertain what happens next but we've became friends and i asked a GERMAN out for beer...how can he say no?hahah well it be interesting this weekend.

2) A french and Japanese couple, such a young and cute couple whom both just arrived ydae from France.helped them look around after they came to check out my apartment. had lunch with them affter Marc asked if i wanted to lunch with them and it was really nice chatting and learning more about education in france.people, don't bother abt STATES or UK or AUST..F*** the anglo saxon+english speaking nations whom profiteer from international and native students!HAIL French and German institutions where education is free!thats where my children would be going in future and hmm perhaps meet amelie?kekeke

3)This guy from PNG who had the most potential of them all coz he is working and best suits the interests of both myself and meina, really cool guy whos working in the chemistry industry..gimme VIAGRA dude.

i wonder who else is gonna come knocking on my door..i felt good today from helping out the couple and generally after handing in one of my essays. A pass won't kill me, the world still revolves and i still got you.i missed you.=*

one essay down, four more to go.one week gone, one last week of uni to go. time to get home and be with the most important person in my life.i really can't wait.but no one ever said love was easy and the easiest part is just getting together.working to make the relationship work and to grow together, now thats the bit that needs alot of work....but for someone u truely love wholeheartedly, i am willing to be a slave for love.missing you, =*

i must be crazy

i think the post meeting up syndrome has really sunken into me.


i miss nic so much. i even lost the capacity to think properly, let alone say the right things.
i really have to head back and seek a cure for my emotional disorder. i can't wait to see you again.=*

essays+rental issues
if theres ANYONE out there reading this and knows of someone who needs a place to stay in melbourne either immediately or in feb 05.please please please contact me.

theres a reason for everything and things will work out.
i just want it to be accelerated.
so i may return to singapore with peace of mind and not have this issue at the back of my mind constantly, which is bound to suck, what with my work back in SAF beckoning.

back from adelaide and feeling a sense of post joy-yet now missing someone syndrome..really hate to see nic go off.the only consolation is that i be back home in three weeks and now i just have to settle my essays, my hunt for a new house mate so i may board the plane in peace come mid nov. had a fantastic dinner at Paul's at adelaide's Gouger St...wonderful seafood platter that had us both filled to the brim!even the clubbing after that was great..yea the company u are with really makes the difference and though it was just nic n me amongst a sea of aussie blokes and sheilas, we couldn't care if the world around us passed by and forgot about us.i need to either regain my drinking ability or retrain my 5-10 skills.its a beautiful day.i missed you!!=*

wHAT is TRUE LOVE?

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lets hear what you all got to say.

i got my first A for an essay!whaha..well kinda motivated to do well for the rest of the essays remaining.i guessed i mucked around enuff to realise what really makes a good essay, the feedback given from the tutors have been excellent too and i guess learning from trial and error ain't that bad. RighT? apparently not..sometings in life u can;t afford to make mistakes or to learn from commiting errors..theres too much at stake..especially when it involves others.can we be truly so selfless and regard others feelings prior to ours?Our actions brings along consequences, if you think you can handle the consequences of what you did/do, then by all means fine and dandy. but if u can't, better not do it. i guess thats my policy, no longer do i wish to risk what matters to me so much. but isit too late to learn or u just learn that its all too late?i guess the best reply to that is just don't do commit the mistake in the first place.wishing that the weather gets betta, its been a cold n windy week.

more than the light bulb in my room broke today.ouch! the weather is turning beautiful, sunny and warm, yet another cruel mockery of the greyish clouds pouring over my head.lf the clouds changes with the wind, why does mine seem like its gonna be overcast for awhile?even if it rains, you still gotta live right?i am just puzzled,why is the sun so cruel?i just need a little sunshine, thats all, yet it refuses to shine for me, fickle it is? or does it choose to hide within the clouds?where it knows it will be safe?it takes comfort within the clouds, thinking it will always be there for it to rest and hide in.time to wake up, eRic.the more you dream the more nitemarish it will become, the curse of the self fulfilling prophecy..u hv been warned.