Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
i recommend this song to by Jet...its look what you done.
i am so busy today, had to complete my readings, go running, well i did it with kaien and i realised that mr protein can't run anymore.haha and here i am in the retreat of my literal haven...lamenting, commenting, worrying.
i had to get three cups of coffee in my system to get down to work, i felt really tired and needed the caffeine to stay focused.
heading back to studying. i am anticipating home to call, they have not been calling for a while. wonder if everything is okie.
Wednesday, March 31, 2004
Monday, March 29, 2004
even in the worst relationships, you would have come out of it learning something.
its a wet day here in melb! rained in the morn, afternoon and at night. man it feels like spore.only much more windy.
went to the gym familiarisation prog today, waste of time as usual, but at least i can use the gym now.
going through my readings for tomorrow. oopsie.. some stuff about india and the caste system, gosh, its really cheem, i had to take a break and thus-blogging for awhile.
i am starting to feel really pissed..why does it seem to be so difficult? i am frustrated at the momentum of my studies, its too slow! i feel really retarded.. like a old jalopy that keeps breaking down, i need a engine tuneup. anyone knows a good mechanic?
essays due next week, working on them and like studying, its slow. gosh. i betta pick up soon. i feel like a bicycle in a formula one race.. way slow!
do things happen for a reason? how else can we explain life? is there a greater force behind our everyday lives? is it God? or isit something more divine? some supernatural beyond comprehension force at work?
i am just hoping it likes to make poor students like me scrap through with what i am doing now.
chilly night..13degrees..brrrr..makes u wana snuggle up with someone..
any volunteers?
went to the gym familiarisation prog today, waste of time as usual, but at least i can use the gym now.
going through my readings for tomorrow. oopsie.. some stuff about india and the caste system, gosh, its really cheem, i had to take a break and thus-blogging for awhile.
i am starting to feel really pissed..why does it seem to be so difficult? i am frustrated at the momentum of my studies, its too slow! i feel really retarded.. like a old jalopy that keeps breaking down, i need a engine tuneup. anyone knows a good mechanic?
essays due next week, working on them and like studying, its slow. gosh. i betta pick up soon. i feel like a bicycle in a formula one race.. way slow!
do things happen for a reason? how else can we explain life? is there a greater force behind our everyday lives? is it God? or isit something more divine? some supernatural beyond comprehension force at work?
i am just hoping it likes to make poor students like me scrap through with what i am doing now.
chilly night..13degrees..brrrr..makes u wana snuggle up with someone..
any volunteers?
Sunday, March 28, 2004
sheesh i think i am a shopaholic
okie this morn we had a rush to meet up with frances and adrian for lunch out and then shopping at smith st... madness.. i spent so much but all on necessities, got pullovers and sweaters for the oncoming cold spell. okie..i indulged myself in a pair of oakleys..but they were cheap..haha well..kinda..
so rest of the day i was helping out the two of them shift to their new apt.. managed to do some readings and squeezed in some time to cook dinner too..feeling heaty..its authum here..but its a hot day here..crazy weather here..keke
nothing much today..not in the mood to think of anything.
had a quarrel with my hsemate earlier..man... itsnot worth it to fight with a woman..i let it go in the end n let her had her way.. i just wish to avoid the negativity of it all.
ciaoz!
so rest of the day i was helping out the two of them shift to their new apt.. managed to do some readings and squeezed in some time to cook dinner too..feeling heaty..its authum here..but its a hot day here..crazy weather here..keke
nothing much today..not in the mood to think of anything.
had a quarrel with my hsemate earlier..man... itsnot worth it to fight with a woman..i let it go in the end n let her had her way.. i just wish to avoid the negativity of it all.
ciaoz!
damn i feel hungry
just a little update..daylight saving is over..so effectively the time difference between aust and spore is reduced to 2hrs!
i wld love to hear from you people. an email will do too.kekeke =P
wish to know how i spend my weekend? i stayed at home, even though my housemate asked me to go to nextblue, its a club here at crown, basically a asian joint.haha i still decided not to go despite her pleas...i felt bad saying no to her but just don't feel the same clubbing when you do not know the person that well.
the feeling is definately not the same if it were jimmy, andrew, dan2, edwin, or any of my other kakis..where i can let loose and have a ball of a time just guzzling drinks after drinks and talking shop all night long, top it off with supper at newton..sighz..the food back home..=P
anyway i would have felt really old going there..the crowd is like 18 somethings, the young and the beautiful..not a place for an old bloke like me..disenchanted with life and such places..gimme a beer and a kaki anywhere anytime. i choose that over ogling at gals at some club anyday. such is the lost of interest.
getting busy, essays due in a weeks time, working on them and hope they turn out fine. if only they were as easy as blogging.keke
i wonder at times, what makes people fall in love? isit the initial physical attraction? it will fizzle out right? they are plenty more pretty and goodlooking people around too..ooh how about the special feeling that is supposedly what makes you know ..shes the one?
if only it was that easy...its hard to love someone..even harder to know who to love..OH u think i am a flirt who can't tell whos the one for me? honestly isit that easy to know whos the one for you? i can just follow my hormones, which ironically due to the male genetic requirement to procreate and extend the familly line..which basically makes me 'like' almost every other decent looking lass that i meet! is that the feeling we are talking about?
i not been through much, yet i feel i seen enough of the bgr thingy to get disillusioned by it.
what makes two persons compatible for each other? what if sometimes they are from two different worlds and are complete opposites? what may seem like obstacles and differences that can be worked out NOW, may seem to be what drives couples apart after reality sets in.
such is the irony. with love, you can accomplish so much more, when it leaves you, EVERYtIng seems impossible.
i feel hungry, for affection and for food, i can probably find the food easily and without thinking, just sink my teeth into something.
affection-wise?
can it be as easy as instant mee?
i wld love to hear from you people. an email will do too.kekeke =P
wish to know how i spend my weekend? i stayed at home, even though my housemate asked me to go to nextblue, its a club here at crown, basically a asian joint.haha i still decided not to go despite her pleas...i felt bad saying no to her but just don't feel the same clubbing when you do not know the person that well.
the feeling is definately not the same if it were jimmy, andrew, dan2, edwin, or any of my other kakis..where i can let loose and have a ball of a time just guzzling drinks after drinks and talking shop all night long, top it off with supper at newton..sighz..the food back home..=P
anyway i would have felt really old going there..the crowd is like 18 somethings, the young and the beautiful..not a place for an old bloke like me..disenchanted with life and such places..gimme a beer and a kaki anywhere anytime. i choose that over ogling at gals at some club anyday. such is the lost of interest.
getting busy, essays due in a weeks time, working on them and hope they turn out fine. if only they were as easy as blogging.keke
i wonder at times, what makes people fall in love? isit the initial physical attraction? it will fizzle out right? they are plenty more pretty and goodlooking people around too..ooh how about the special feeling that is supposedly what makes you know ..shes the one?
if only it was that easy...its hard to love someone..even harder to know who to love..OH u think i am a flirt who can't tell whos the one for me? honestly isit that easy to know whos the one for you? i can just follow my hormones, which ironically due to the male genetic requirement to procreate and extend the familly line..which basically makes me 'like' almost every other decent looking lass that i meet! is that the feeling we are talking about?
i not been through much, yet i feel i seen enough of the bgr thingy to get disillusioned by it.
what makes two persons compatible for each other? what if sometimes they are from two different worlds and are complete opposites? what may seem like obstacles and differences that can be worked out NOW, may seem to be what drives couples apart after reality sets in.
such is the irony. with love, you can accomplish so much more, when it leaves you, EVERYtIng seems impossible.
i feel hungry, for affection and for food, i can probably find the food easily and without thinking, just sink my teeth into something.
affection-wise?
can it be as easy as instant mee?
Friday, March 26, 2004
do you like veggies?
ok, i was peeved by this ridiculous aussie while attempting to sign up for the gym here today..haha with whoelse as my gym buddy? mr leongie kaien..hah!
man she was so rude and full of airs that i wanted to give her a good verbal fooking! godamit..if not considering not to lose my composure and act maturely, i would have done so.
had dinner alone today..meina was out with frenz for korean hotpot.haha i whipped up some steamed fish, stirred fried some veggies and baked a sausage wolved it down with rice..haha..
tats when nic smsed from LA..wow..touched that she did..well..even more so since she was disturbed from her rest..
did a homer and was guzzling beer and watching tv..patch adams..such a touching story..hic..
so how many chances do you give someone? isn't it more of how much more your heart can take? the disappointment and crest fallen feeling that well..no one chooses to be in that situation, but yeap it happens all the time..well if you can find it in your heart to try again..more often then not, its always easier to opt for the easier way out....hasta la vista baBEEE... goodbye relationship..try again i might say? well it all depends on is it worth it? and the whole notion on worth is also well based on if its effort from both sides..it be nice to BOTH work on the problems and get through it TOGETHER>..
so why do we mortals fall in love? is it out of the initial attraction/honeymoon period tat will fizzle out with time? what keeps two persons together then? can someone tell me? or isit plain loneliness that drives us to each other? so its interesting yea...love or loneliness? it could be either one.. and no one is ever the wiser..
do we think about it rationally and logically..is there something that keeps two persons together other then love and loneliness? such a sad bunch we are...
man she was so rude and full of airs that i wanted to give her a good verbal fooking! godamit..if not considering not to lose my composure and act maturely, i would have done so.
had dinner alone today..meina was out with frenz for korean hotpot.haha i whipped up some steamed fish, stirred fried some veggies and baked a sausage wolved it down with rice..haha..
tats when nic smsed from LA..wow..touched that she did..well..even more so since she was disturbed from her rest..
did a homer and was guzzling beer and watching tv..patch adams..such a touching story..hic..
so how many chances do you give someone? isn't it more of how much more your heart can take? the disappointment and crest fallen feeling that well..no one chooses to be in that situation, but yeap it happens all the time..well if you can find it in your heart to try again..more often then not, its always easier to opt for the easier way out....hasta la vista baBEEE... goodbye relationship..try again i might say? well it all depends on is it worth it? and the whole notion on worth is also well based on if its effort from both sides..it be nice to BOTH work on the problems and get through it TOGETHER>..
so why do we mortals fall in love? is it out of the initial attraction/honeymoon period tat will fizzle out with time? what keeps two persons together then? can someone tell me? or isit plain loneliness that drives us to each other? so its interesting yea...love or loneliness? it could be either one.. and no one is ever the wiser..
do we think about it rationally and logically..is there something that keeps two persons together other then love and loneliness? such a sad bunch we are...
wrigley's chewing gum
i did the most amazing thing yesterday.well i wasn't feeling all that great after attending tutes and realising that i could find my 'voice' i had all these thoughts in my mind yet i could not just speak out and assert myself at all..hmm i guess i was kind of overwhelmed by the outspoken aussies..tsk tsk..it made me feel really stoopid though and believe me, its the last thing you wish to feel while attending skool.
and so i went on a run to clear my thoughts..i always like running to clear my mind and destress..well maybe not in the army context of waking up early JUST to run but yea it sure feels betta when u run when YOU want to. so i did a run around my suburb and finished off doing some chinups at the park. no..they dun have chin up bars here thats so assessible, but i made do with what was available.
you must be wondering now..what is so amazing about that? seems pretty routine NO? i headed home and after dinner, i just started boozing, ransacking my fridge for beers, nice cheap beers they have here. beer of the day was amstel...felt good ..in a way.
i wonder what is it that keep two people toghether sometimes? is it anything more than just the initial physical attraction leading on to the 'honeymoon' period whereby you are oblivious to all the differences and wassits among the two persons? what happens then? we start noticing flaws, differences and aspects that well, for the better of the 'better half' we wish for them to change or get rid off. so where do you draw the line at how much change there should be? shouldn't there be something more then that? if all we want is just to change the person. then we ask ourselves? why did we like the person in the first case?
how many chances do you give someone to change? once twice? how about when u feel ..the person cannot change anymore? its all in the feeling..isn't that what started the whole mess?
and so i went on a run to clear my thoughts..i always like running to clear my mind and destress..well maybe not in the army context of waking up early JUST to run but yea it sure feels betta when u run when YOU want to. so i did a run around my suburb and finished off doing some chinups at the park. no..they dun have chin up bars here thats so assessible, but i made do with what was available.
you must be wondering now..what is so amazing about that? seems pretty routine NO? i headed home and after dinner, i just started boozing, ransacking my fridge for beers, nice cheap beers they have here. beer of the day was amstel...felt good ..in a way.
i wonder what is it that keep two people toghether sometimes? is it anything more than just the initial physical attraction leading on to the 'honeymoon' period whereby you are oblivious to all the differences and wassits among the two persons? what happens then? we start noticing flaws, differences and aspects that well, for the better of the 'better half' we wish for them to change or get rid off. so where do you draw the line at how much change there should be? shouldn't there be something more then that? if all we want is just to change the person. then we ask ourselves? why did we like the person in the first case?
how many chances do you give someone to change? once twice? how about when u feel ..the person cannot change anymore? its all in the feeling..isn't that what started the whole mess?
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
Trial of lovE?
" in a trial of justice, you listen to the evidence, in a trial of Love. YOU listen to the heart. "
my two cents worth for a dear friend of mine, hope you are coping fine. i'll always be here to hear you out.
its been a while eh? since i last blogged, reason being, Australia is such a efficient country at times, one moment they will surprise you with their " ooh u will get it in a few days and next thing you know, its in the mail the day after!" and yet they are days when " it will be in the mail in 3 days time and its been exactly eleven days since i APPLIED for my broadband here and i STILL not received the darn installation cd YET! " cheerios! to optus! i heard it gotten better after Singtel took over, gosh, cannot imagine how it was before. in fact i am writing now on my notepad and will just be copying this over when i can get online and post this.
essays due next week, gonna be busy researching for some info and i guess the real test is here. wish me luck guys, i really want to do well. for everyone and myself.
lately i received emails and had friends realising they miss me being away, well i was really glad to know that. beeming from ear to ear, NOPE..not in an egomaniacal fashion but in appreciation that theres is some reciprocation of how i am feeling here, missing all my dear friends and its heartwarming to know that you are being missed as well.
Doesn't it make you feel good? or are we all too caught up in our own lives to realise this small gift that being friends are all about? yeap they do come and go and there are the ones just good for ruining the whole notion of friendship, but if nurtured, it can be the most rewarding and satisfying 'relationship' you ever get. No, theres no sex, but darn it, a soulmate is even harder to find/get then a female vaginal orgasm. Its even betta and emotionally satisfying. enough sexual innuendoes already.
david tao's ( pu tong peng you ) is playing now.
i finally settled in! the past weekend, i gotten a washing machine and sofa and now it really looks like a home. come and visit anytime! its not designer chic but hey. you must be proud of what you have yeap! come and sit next to me and we shall have a glass of wine and just chat the night away. getting chilly tonight. keeping my fingers and toes crossed that i will get the installation cd in the morning.
miss ya people lots and yeap i love you all.
my two cents worth for a dear friend of mine, hope you are coping fine. i'll always be here to hear you out.
its been a while eh? since i last blogged, reason being, Australia is such a efficient country at times, one moment they will surprise you with their " ooh u will get it in a few days and next thing you know, its in the mail the day after!" and yet they are days when " it will be in the mail in 3 days time and its been exactly eleven days since i APPLIED for my broadband here and i STILL not received the darn installation cd YET! " cheerios! to optus! i heard it gotten better after Singtel took over, gosh, cannot imagine how it was before. in fact i am writing now on my notepad and will just be copying this over when i can get online and post this.
essays due next week, gonna be busy researching for some info and i guess the real test is here. wish me luck guys, i really want to do well. for everyone and myself.
lately i received emails and had friends realising they miss me being away, well i was really glad to know that. beeming from ear to ear, NOPE..not in an egomaniacal fashion but in appreciation that theres is some reciprocation of how i am feeling here, missing all my dear friends and its heartwarming to know that you are being missed as well.
Doesn't it make you feel good? or are we all too caught up in our own lives to realise this small gift that being friends are all about? yeap they do come and go and there are the ones just good for ruining the whole notion of friendship, but if nurtured, it can be the most rewarding and satisfying 'relationship' you ever get. No, theres no sex, but darn it, a soulmate is even harder to find/get then a female vaginal orgasm. Its even betta and emotionally satisfying. enough sexual innuendoes already.
david tao's ( pu tong peng you ) is playing now.
i finally settled in! the past weekend, i gotten a washing machine and sofa and now it really looks like a home. come and visit anytime! its not designer chic but hey. you must be proud of what you have yeap! come and sit next to me and we shall have a glass of wine and just chat the night away. getting chilly tonight. keeping my fingers and toes crossed that i will get the installation cd in the morning.
miss ya people lots and yeap i love you all.
Thursday, March 18, 2004
everyone should just HUG!
don;t it make you feel good when u are being hugged? i wished i could give my mum a hug now
..shes been retrenched today..must be an absolute bummer of a day. everyone has their down
day.. my MD player is kaput today too..must be an ominous sign..dammit. no more music cept
for radio here..sad man..all my MDs..gone to waste..sheesh.
in fact i dun even feel like writing anymore.
i just want to sleep it all off and get over this bad day.
gonna be eliz bday in an hours time. if you are reading this.HAppy B'day! wish i was there!
meina was really sweet though..knowing i had a bad day n the news of mum losing her job when
i called back ..to offer me a cup of tea just before she slept..thanks yea!
no worries mate? lotsa things to worry about now..
..shes been retrenched today..must be an absolute bummer of a day. everyone has their down
day.. my MD player is kaput today too..must be an ominous sign..dammit. no more music cept
for radio here..sad man..all my MDs..gone to waste..sheesh.
in fact i dun even feel like writing anymore.
i just want to sleep it all off and get over this bad day.
gonna be eliz bday in an hours time. if you are reading this.HAppy B'day! wish i was there!
meina was really sweet though..knowing i had a bad day n the news of mum losing her job when
i called back ..to offer me a cup of tea just before she slept..thanks yea!
no worries mate? lotsa things to worry about now..
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
you will never get indigestion from swallowing your pride...
wow..its been like 3 days since i last written anything. time really flies here. essays up
in 2 weeks time. Gosh! haha. time to get focused. nothing much really cept that have to try
to find some focus amongst the myriad of topics and issues that you can write about. writing
well is another thing but heck. right now, i just hope to get by. i can't be expecting to do
wonderfully well for my first semster here.
look through my fotos on my laptop with my housemate, meina, before cooking dinner and hmm
..its kinda calming to see her photos. i miss everyone back home. especially the guys from
camp, i wonder if they feel the same? haa.i guess not..its such a sad reality that probably
thats the way life is. do people value friendship and ties as much anymore?
a soulmate is for eternity...
had a freaking full dinner of fried dory fish and chicken with capsicum and carrots. keke..
too bad i had to cook and wash up, meina cut herself again while preparing the fish. keke..
cute girl is she not? haha.
its a cold night and i still have 2 readings to complete before tomorrow's tute. i guess i
wun be sleeping early tonight.
i remember the first few days i been to Uni. seeing some of the graduands in their graduands
gown? is that what you call it? hah! made me reminiscent of the days in OCS. the familiar
feeling of ...sheessh.. can i make it? why did i get myself here? all the apprehension and
fears feel so similiar.haha.. but looking back and drawing inspiration from seeing senior
cadets in their number1 and commissioning made me hang on and going on every day, every
exercise. The emotions inside during commissioning and the fact that i went through Alpha
Wing made me realise, that hey, i made it!
i grinned to myself.. and drawing the same inspiration from the graduand in her gown, i
shall use it to motivate and keep myself on track.
time to go do my reading.
in 2 weeks time. Gosh! haha. time to get focused. nothing much really cept that have to try
to find some focus amongst the myriad of topics and issues that you can write about. writing
well is another thing but heck. right now, i just hope to get by. i can't be expecting to do
wonderfully well for my first semster here.
look through my fotos on my laptop with my housemate, meina, before cooking dinner and hmm
..its kinda calming to see her photos. i miss everyone back home. especially the guys from
camp, i wonder if they feel the same? haa.i guess not..its such a sad reality that probably
thats the way life is. do people value friendship and ties as much anymore?
a soulmate is for eternity...
had a freaking full dinner of fried dory fish and chicken with capsicum and carrots. keke..
too bad i had to cook and wash up, meina cut herself again while preparing the fish. keke..
cute girl is she not? haha.
its a cold night and i still have 2 readings to complete before tomorrow's tute. i guess i
wun be sleeping early tonight.
i remember the first few days i been to Uni. seeing some of the graduands in their graduands
gown? is that what you call it? hah! made me reminiscent of the days in OCS. the familiar
feeling of ...sheessh.. can i make it? why did i get myself here? all the apprehension and
fears feel so similiar.haha.. but looking back and drawing inspiration from seeing senior
cadets in their number1 and commissioning made me hang on and going on every day, every
exercise. The emotions inside during commissioning and the fact that i went through Alpha
Wing made me realise, that hey, i made it!
i grinned to myself.. and drawing the same inspiration from the graduand in her gown, i
shall use it to motivate and keep myself on track.
time to go do my reading.
Sunday, March 14, 2004
cold sundae.nite...
its A COLD sundae nite...
brrr...makes u wana eat some hotpot..
finished shifting...FINALLY... haha..
went marketing at richmond ydae..and it made me regret not going marketing with mum all this while..its not to learn how to market..but just the act of going with her...sighz..
gonna keep it short today..
had a long day unpacking and fixing up the place..its finally over and now..
on to studying..heez.
till then.
brrr...makes u wana eat some hotpot..
finished shifting...FINALLY... haha..
went marketing at richmond ydae..and it made me regret not going marketing with mum all this while..its not to learn how to market..but just the act of going with her...sighz..
gonna keep it short today..
had a long day unpacking and fixing up the place..its finally over and now..
on to studying..heez.
till then.
Friday, March 12, 2004
'san bao fan' = chicken,char siew and egg with rice.
whew..i just shifted some of my stuff over to my new apartment, lucky edwin ( my housemate ) had a car, though it was rather wierd that we were shifting stuff around at 130am here!haha..well we were restless and not sleepy so yea..
hmm jessie's birthday soon in a few minutes..think i better call her first.
keke...shes asleep already..gosh..i keep thinking tml is sat..well its fri actually but since i hve no classes on fri..it always feel like sat.
man.. i dun mean to be drama mama here but earlier while cooking dinner..all by myself and feeling rather sombre.. i was overcomed with a sudden sense of emptyness.
the apartment was empty ..housemate was at uni...the tv's on but its all crap shows here..gimme some taiwanese crap here anyday! hahaa i miss kangkang!
it happened all of a sudden and it felt so quiet being there all by myself there. sighz..
heres a song that REALLY shows how i feel...
葉子 是不會飛翔的翅膀
翅膀 是落在天上的葉子
天堂 原來應該不是妄想
只是我早已經遺忘
當初怎麼開始飛翔
孤單 是一個人的狂歡
狂歡 是一群人的孤單
愛情 原來的開始是陪伴
但我也漸漸地遺忘
當時是怎樣有人陪伴
我一個人吃飯 旅行 (到處)走走停停
也一個人看書 彈琴 自己對話談心
只是心又飄到了哪裡
就連自己看也看不清
我想我不僅僅是失去你
hey waddya know? arsenal did win 2-0..haha cool eh? like i said..a season of greatness beckons for the Gunners! yea..sorry edwin..man u is not in luck eh?
hmm jessie's birthday soon in a few minutes..think i better call her first.
keke...shes asleep already..gosh..i keep thinking tml is sat..well its fri actually but since i hve no classes on fri..it always feel like sat.
man.. i dun mean to be drama mama here but earlier while cooking dinner..all by myself and feeling rather sombre.. i was overcomed with a sudden sense of emptyness.
the apartment was empty ..housemate was at uni...the tv's on but its all crap shows here..gimme some taiwanese crap here anyday! hahaa i miss kangkang!
it happened all of a sudden and it felt so quiet being there all by myself there. sighz..
heres a song that REALLY shows how i feel...
葉子 是不會飛翔的翅膀
翅膀 是落在天上的葉子
天堂 原來應該不是妄想
只是我早已經遺忘
當初怎麼開始飛翔
孤單 是一個人的狂歡
狂歡 是一群人的孤單
愛情 原來的開始是陪伴
但我也漸漸地遺忘
當時是怎樣有人陪伴
我一個人吃飯 旅行 (到處)走走停停
也一個人看書 彈琴 自己對話談心
只是心又飄到了哪裡
就連自己看也看不清
我想我不僅僅是失去你
hey waddya know? arsenal did win 2-0..haha cool eh? like i said..a season of greatness beckons for the Gunners! yea..sorry edwin..man u is not in luck eh?
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
spaghetti, lotsa tomatoes,broccoli and mushroom and chicken soup
hmm..what makes a terrorist justified in his actions? is it the method? or the cause?
can it be argued that if someone is 'fighting' for a nationalistic cause, say to topple a oppressive regime? then acts of violence and fear inducement is ethically justifiable?
what do you people think? come on..chew on it for awhile..
tiring day.. and still uncompleted readings for tomorrows tut. i guess i can only sleep at 3am tonight.
saw off jiahui's parents who came visiting after shes been here for like 2years plus..well its always nice to see your loved ones..but yet..the emotions evoked when they return? its like a loss again. is it 'worth' the joy and then the pain once they left?
i would say yes! its better to be with them as much as you can rather then just going back once or twice a year for a couple of months.
life is short and appreciating those dear to you now is never too late if you've not done so.
started late like me? well.. its better late then never.
arsenal shall join the semi finalists tonight! 2-0 win at highbury.
can it be argued that if someone is 'fighting' for a nationalistic cause, say to topple a oppressive regime? then acts of violence and fear inducement is ethically justifiable?
what do you people think? come on..chew on it for awhile..
tiring day.. and still uncompleted readings for tomorrows tut. i guess i can only sleep at 3am tonight.
saw off jiahui's parents who came visiting after shes been here for like 2years plus..well its always nice to see your loved ones..but yet..the emotions evoked when they return? its like a loss again. is it 'worth' the joy and then the pain once they left?
i would say yes! its better to be with them as much as you can rather then just going back once or twice a year for a couple of months.
life is short and appreciating those dear to you now is never too late if you've not done so.
started late like me? well.. its better late then never.
arsenal shall join the semi finalists tonight! 2-0 win at highbury.
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
roti prata and alot of chicken
man..i am havin problems sleeping early lately...face breaking out..too much stress? yea..i guess so.. i just hope i made the right choice in determining my subjects combination. i just want to pass and get back. low performer? no aspirations? HAH!
after such a long break from studies, the wonderful things SAF does to your intellectual capacities and doing subjects you only heard of.. why not be adventurous eh? well i always wanted to be a psychologist..
dreams and reality... you make the choice and you live by it.
haha guess whom i saw at the grandprix? haha nah..not montoya or kimi..but LEONG KAI EN..haha
wat a small place..well.. the last place i expect mr protein to be..after many attempts to meet up..all thanks to him calling at the wrong time-everytime ( we never did meet up ) till we just bumped into each other at albert park..haha
okie..so he is not a gay...i saw his gf guys! he is straight afterall..haha
looking around for a new handphone here..since you are paying, might as well get a contract and a new phone too..samsung or sonyericsson? tsk tsk..
had a really interesting lecture this morning..lotsa info about the terrorist groups of the past..like the red army ( Baader Meinhof Group ) and recent wannabes like the PLO and well my personal fave the ASALA..no its not a indian dish..keke..no offence there
its the algerian secret army for the liberation of algeria..wow..i wish there were some radicals in spore..cool stuff i am learning..hmm terrorist in the making? well.. many terrorists originate from the UNis and religious schools that they attend..so haha..well..hmm..eh..
realised there is so much reading to do..man..but once you do your readings..you wouldn't feel so lost..only thing now..how to tackle the beast aka Essays.
dinner was filling..its 146am and i am still full..haha..i need to weigh myself..i think i regained my weight..in the wrong places!
HAH!
after such a long break from studies, the wonderful things SAF does to your intellectual capacities and doing subjects you only heard of.. why not be adventurous eh? well i always wanted to be a psychologist..
dreams and reality... you make the choice and you live by it.
haha guess whom i saw at the grandprix? haha nah..not montoya or kimi..but LEONG KAI EN..haha
wat a small place..well.. the last place i expect mr protein to be..after many attempts to meet up..all thanks to him calling at the wrong time-everytime ( we never did meet up ) till we just bumped into each other at albert park..haha
okie..so he is not a gay...i saw his gf guys! he is straight afterall..haha
looking around for a new handphone here..since you are paying, might as well get a contract and a new phone too..samsung or sonyericsson? tsk tsk..
had a really interesting lecture this morning..lotsa info about the terrorist groups of the past..like the red army ( Baader Meinhof Group ) and recent wannabes like the PLO and well my personal fave the ASALA..no its not a indian dish..keke..no offence there
its the algerian secret army for the liberation of algeria..wow..i wish there were some radicals in spore..cool stuff i am learning..hmm terrorist in the making? well.. many terrorists originate from the UNis and religious schools that they attend..so haha..well..hmm..eh..
realised there is so much reading to do..man..but once you do your readings..you wouldn't feel so lost..only thing now..how to tackle the beast aka Essays.
dinner was filling..its 146am and i am still full..haha..i need to weigh myself..i think i regained my weight..in the wrong places!
HAH!
Monday, March 08, 2004
cappucino
plan gone wrong..subjects in a mess and still i am not sure of what subjects to do...sheesh..theres only 4 days left..
in a mix up of how i am to settle this..will it be sociology and political sciences or international studies?
gosh..its really confusing..though its good that the uni do not struture your degree so much..but having too much of a choice is not exactly fantastic as well.
i guess in life thats the case eh? lament lament lament..choices and decisions..
yeah! arsenal crushed the pompeys 5-1..whaha..unbeaten still in the EPL as well. i sense a year of greatness for the Gunners!
called grandma earlier on..heez..she was surprised to hear from me and i could sense the joy in her voice from hearing from me..hope her health improves though. its nice to know just a simple call can make someone feel so good. Ever felt like that before?
had a cuppa with meiyin, yaohui and yuwei and micheal before heading home... i miss my beer kakis...argh..dandan..where art thou?
ooh man...lect at 10am..and i still can't sleep..sheesh..too much caffeine..*_*
in a mix up of how i am to settle this..will it be sociology and political sciences or international studies?
gosh..its really confusing..though its good that the uni do not struture your degree so much..but having too much of a choice is not exactly fantastic as well.
i guess in life thats the case eh? lament lament lament..choices and decisions..
yeah! arsenal crushed the pompeys 5-1..whaha..unbeaten still in the EPL as well. i sense a year of greatness for the Gunners!
called grandma earlier on..heez..she was surprised to hear from me and i could sense the joy in her voice from hearing from me..hope her health improves though. its nice to know just a simple call can make someone feel so good. Ever felt like that before?
had a cuppa with meiyin, yaohui and yuwei and micheal before heading home... i miss my beer kakis...argh..dandan..where art thou?
ooh man...lect at 10am..and i still can't sleep..sheesh..too much caffeine..*_*
Sunday, March 07, 2004
eggs with onion,roast chicken from the supermart, veggies in oyster sauce and luncheonmeat
its raceday sunday here in melb..darn..Ferrari won..a 1-2 finish too..shucks. worst of all kimi had to crash out. though it was a early start to a nice cold day..i ended up waiting for YH and MY for 2 hours, no thanks to the lovely technological wonder we love to embrace=SMS.haha.oh well..only reinforces my notion that people dun talk to people anymore..soon we will be smsing or emailing our colleagues who just next door/cubicle?
tink not? well... pray tink again?
supertired after the race and damn dungry too..haha explains the wonderful spread for dinner?whaha. sneaked in a little nap before that.
caught a little of moulin rouge during dinner..hmm.. the notion of love swirled around in my head?
hmm .. wat is it? why do couples quarrel over the most trivial things?
is communication between two persons these days a dirty word that on one wishes to mention?
if theres anything that i came out with stronger from my past relationship..hmm its been what? 3years soon?--- its the lesson that communication is the probably the most important aspect that anyone should and could have..
----
my heart seeks to embrace
no one is ever the same
liken a void
yearning to be filled
the loneliness and solitude
how i wish
for it to vanish
tink not? well... pray tink again?
supertired after the race and damn dungry too..haha explains the wonderful spread for dinner?whaha. sneaked in a little nap before that.
caught a little of moulin rouge during dinner..hmm.. the notion of love swirled around in my head?
hmm .. wat is it? why do couples quarrel over the most trivial things?
is communication between two persons these days a dirty word that on one wishes to mention?
if theres anything that i came out with stronger from my past relationship..hmm its been what? 3years soon?--- its the lesson that communication is the probably the most important aspect that anyone should and could have..
----
my heart seeks to embrace
no one is ever the same
liken a void
yearning to be filled
the loneliness and solitude
how i wish
for it to vanish
Saturday, March 06, 2004
chicken pho and spring rolls
keke.just back from a hearty drinking session and moomba..its a festival here in melb..sorta like a funfair in spore but way bigger scale..cool fireworks by the river.. and same time saw the ferrari f1 racecar..haha.well tml i be there at albert park to hear the 300horsepower beasts scream their way aroud the tracks.haha
met up with yaohui and meiyin as well as yuwei,micheal and joe..went for dinner at Russell st for viet pho..its a rice noodle dish...soupie too..heez =P
lucky yaohui and meiyin found adcomm..it was most distracting to think they were without a roof over their heads for a moment.
met them and went moomba and followed by 3 rounds of beers..so nice to be seeing them and drinking again..wish dan were here..edwin too..sighz..my soulmates...=P
waking early tml to go albert park..gotta grab some shuteye now...
met up with yaohui and meiyin as well as yuwei,micheal and joe..went for dinner at Russell st for viet pho..its a rice noodle dish...soupie too..heez =P
lucky yaohui and meiyin found adcomm..it was most distracting to think they were without a roof over their heads for a moment.
met them and went moomba and followed by 3 rounds of beers..so nice to be seeing them and drinking again..wish dan were here..edwin too..sighz..my soulmates...=P
waking early tml to go albert park..gotta grab some shuteye now...
Friday, March 05, 2004
chickie rice and late night snacking on chicken balls.HAH!
its a fri nite..not much mood to go out..since tml will probably be a busy day.
went running earlier..hmm either i am faster or i ran the wrong route todae..i felt inspired to run a marathon today..hah..well..spur of the moment u say? maybe not..asics melbourne marathon is in oct.hmm..
spent the whole nite basically on the net..chatting with nic..it was nice the way our new found friendship is heading..it sure felt good to talk to her..anytime! - and generally warming the chair and snackin on the left over chickenballs from dinner..haha
washed clothes..tidied the room..man..i felt like mum or awhile.keke..wat a fri nite yea!
its definately a change from the boozing and partying back home. and way healthier too no?
not tat i missed it...well i do..but i did chose to stay home tonight..could have went out to a fren'z gig and drank myself silly.but wats the sense in that?hehz.
hmm ironman back in SAFPU sat morn..wished i could be there to see the 'misery' and relive the day we came in second despite all odds set against us!
no time to be nostalgic..should be seeing yaohui and meiyin tomorrow.
i guess coming here has made me appreciate my mum n frenz more.. still i wished everyone could just be more sincere to each other at times..seems the world is getting more and more pretencious..scary thoughts no?
went running earlier..hmm either i am faster or i ran the wrong route todae..i felt inspired to run a marathon today..hah..well..spur of the moment u say? maybe not..asics melbourne marathon is in oct.hmm..
spent the whole nite basically on the net..chatting with nic..it was nice the way our new found friendship is heading..it sure felt good to talk to her..anytime! - and generally warming the chair and snackin on the left over chickenballs from dinner..haha
washed clothes..tidied the room..man..i felt like mum or awhile.keke..wat a fri nite yea!
its definately a change from the boozing and partying back home. and way healthier too no?
not tat i missed it...well i do..but i did chose to stay home tonight..could have went out to a fren'z gig and drank myself silly.but wats the sense in that?hehz.
hmm ironman back in SAFPU sat morn..wished i could be there to see the 'misery' and relive the day we came in second despite all odds set against us!
no time to be nostalgic..should be seeing yaohui and meiyin tomorrow.
i guess coming here has made me appreciate my mum n frenz more.. still i wished everyone could just be more sincere to each other at times..seems the world is getting more and more pretencious..scary thoughts no?
Thursday, March 04, 2004
BAK KUT TEH and spring rolls..
its gettin hot in here..fooking hell..its fall here already and yet its like so hot here man! think i am gonna burn during the grandprix this sun..go kimi! team mercedes maclarens.heez
yaohui and meiyin will be here so that be a good thing too.can't wait to show em around..just in time for the moomba festival too..it be an exciting weekend..
wrapped up my new place too..its gonna be a two storey apartment just fifteen mins walk to uni.cool place.kekez.. wish u were all here to join in the so called housewarming..haha
met up with Jenny earlier! wow..its so nice of her..keke..happens that she was here on a melb flight so really cool of her to visit and she even brought me a copy of the NEW PAPer and straits times..keke.hmm...its really very 'homely' seeing those things. feel bad that she didn't had much rest and had to come look for me..well..i am glad that shes my fren! unlike some earlier less deserving ones..sighz..=P
we went to camy's for a late lunch of noodles and GUO TIE..haha its the best melbourne has to offer mates! so next time you are here ..its a must try...easy on the pockets too..so yeap...
went off to her hotel to pick up the papers and just relax..chatting.. and lamenting the fact i been missing out on all the tv shows back home..haha
bid farewell and left her to her much need rest and went on to my housemate's place for dinner...bak kut teh..haha slurpz..kekez..
finally met some of the camp guys online..man..its so nice to be 'talking' to them..i had an impulse to just fly back right now!..well..if only i am that freaking rich..keke..
late nite around 2300hrs here..made a new friend in uni today..a hongkong gal - michelle...nice and sweet..kekez...same tut grp too..but oh well..not here to be a 'chee-hong'..must maintain focus..
i think i be dropping anthropology..its really a very scary subject..but i'll hang on for another week and see how it goes..i can't figure out the readings at times..and all those marxism and pre/post colonialism..man..is it what i really want?
at least i know i am gonna do political science...its really interesting..right now i am doing a subject on terrorism and modern conflict..wow..its really interesting..haha..maybe i be influenced by my readings and become an extremist one day?haha
the way things are going ..its all looking good..though i am getting scrawny man..sheesh..all the hard work..gone to waste.
miss you mum!
yaohui and meiyin will be here so that be a good thing too.can't wait to show em around..just in time for the moomba festival too..it be an exciting weekend..
wrapped up my new place too..its gonna be a two storey apartment just fifteen mins walk to uni.cool place.kekez.. wish u were all here to join in the so called housewarming..haha
met up with Jenny earlier! wow..its so nice of her..keke..happens that she was here on a melb flight so really cool of her to visit and she even brought me a copy of the NEW PAPer and straits times..keke.hmm...its really very 'homely' seeing those things. feel bad that she didn't had much rest and had to come look for me..well..i am glad that shes my fren! unlike some earlier less deserving ones..sighz..=P
we went to camy's for a late lunch of noodles and GUO TIE..haha its the best melbourne has to offer mates! so next time you are here ..its a must try...easy on the pockets too..so yeap...
went off to her hotel to pick up the papers and just relax..chatting.. and lamenting the fact i been missing out on all the tv shows back home..haha
bid farewell and left her to her much need rest and went on to my housemate's place for dinner...bak kut teh..haha slurpz..kekez..
finally met some of the camp guys online..man..its so nice to be 'talking' to them..i had an impulse to just fly back right now!..well..if only i am that freaking rich..keke..
late nite around 2300hrs here..made a new friend in uni today..a hongkong gal - michelle...nice and sweet..kekez...same tut grp too..but oh well..not here to be a 'chee-hong'..must maintain focus..
i think i be dropping anthropology..its really a very scary subject..but i'll hang on for another week and see how it goes..i can't figure out the readings at times..and all those marxism and pre/post colonialism..man..is it what i really want?
at least i know i am gonna do political science...its really interesting..right now i am doing a subject on terrorism and modern conflict..wow..its really interesting..haha..maybe i be influenced by my readings and become an extremist one day?haha
the way things are going ..its all looking good..though i am getting scrawny man..sheesh..all the hard work..gone to waste.
miss you mum!
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
chicken pizza and an applejuice
just had an exhausting day..lects, tuts went home for a nap before another tut on terrorism, which is really interesting, considering the topics and discussions that occurred. its def one of my fave subjects now.
hmm as to those on anthropology..really cheem stuff and its gonna require a lot more reading so i cld catch up with the rest of the class.
its really very intimdating and daunting..i been low MIKE and feeling really retarded when i go tuts..i dun seem to have anything to say..makes u feel really shallow and worst... a frog in a well.... all this will change..i hope with time..it better be this way..ahaha
jenny smsed and told me she be flying to melb.haha she be cursing..yet another flight to melb.keke but i am really glad shes dropping by and we can meet up over dinner soon.heez =P
over the weekend yaohui and meiyin wld be here too for the F1 grandprix..so its gonna be an exciting weekend..lotsa catching up to do and definately a morale booster to the already deflated one in anticipation and preparation for the hard work ahead.
wish me luck people..hmm ironman challenge eh..keke...well dun fret edwin..the pain is temporary but glory is forever.. with jaffar around u never noe wat can happen..it was him who led apc to victory over us last year..dun giveup..just prepare some yokoyoko..haha
the journey has begun..
hmm as to those on anthropology..really cheem stuff and its gonna require a lot more reading so i cld catch up with the rest of the class.
its really very intimdating and daunting..i been low MIKE and feeling really retarded when i go tuts..i dun seem to have anything to say..makes u feel really shallow and worst... a frog in a well.... all this will change..i hope with time..it better be this way..ahaha
jenny smsed and told me she be flying to melb.haha she be cursing..yet another flight to melb.keke but i am really glad shes dropping by and we can meet up over dinner soon.heez =P
over the weekend yaohui and meiyin wld be here too for the F1 grandprix..so its gonna be an exciting weekend..lotsa catching up to do and definately a morale booster to the already deflated one in anticipation and preparation for the hard work ahead.
wish me luck people..hmm ironman challenge eh..keke...well dun fret edwin..the pain is temporary but glory is forever.. with jaffar around u never noe wat can happen..it was him who led apc to victory over us last year..dun giveup..just prepare some yokoyoko..haha
the journey has begun..
Monday, March 01, 2004
stir fried noodles..
sun nite..feeling tired after a long dae..went to officeworks to collect my new executive looking chair..haha sorta a power chair i reckon. =P
heavy bastard..had to lug it around city and get on the tram before carrying all the way back home..not assembled it though..probably when i shift to my new place?hmm= moral dilemma.
prepared dinner earlier..stir fried noodles with assorted fishcakes, fishballs,fish tofu,capiscums,onions and carrots.keke still edible..i guess the dark soy sauce saved the day.wahaha
waiting for mum to call.. i miss her so much..i wish she can just relax and dun worry so much..heez =P but still i guess motherly instincts are difficult to just put aside.
first day of uni tml and still i have not decided on my second major..sheesh..its all to overwhelming. i don't really feel comfy going into a 2nd year subject in which i have no basic knowledge of. well i should be prepared for it since deciding not to do commerce subjects but how on earth do you prepare for a tertiary education especially after you been through the army?
edwin..are u reading my blog?haha i missed talking to ya man..its been only a while knowing you but we get along real fine.. in a way i guess i could relate myself to you and i hope to see you soon!
do consider coming down here to study..we can have fun together man!hahah
doing some reading prior to lala-land. "Get great marks for your essays" yeap. i pray so too. hahaha
just me=wee
heavy bastard..had to lug it around city and get on the tram before carrying all the way back home..not assembled it though..probably when i shift to my new place?hmm= moral dilemma.
prepared dinner earlier..stir fried noodles with assorted fishcakes, fishballs,fish tofu,capiscums,onions and carrots.keke still edible..i guess the dark soy sauce saved the day.wahaha
waiting for mum to call.. i miss her so much..i wish she can just relax and dun worry so much..heez =P but still i guess motherly instincts are difficult to just put aside.
first day of uni tml and still i have not decided on my second major..sheesh..its all to overwhelming. i don't really feel comfy going into a 2nd year subject in which i have no basic knowledge of. well i should be prepared for it since deciding not to do commerce subjects but how on earth do you prepare for a tertiary education especially after you been through the army?
edwin..are u reading my blog?haha i missed talking to ya man..its been only a while knowing you but we get along real fine.. in a way i guess i could relate myself to you and i hope to see you soon!
do consider coming down here to study..we can have fun together man!hahah
doing some reading prior to lala-land. "Get great marks for your essays" yeap. i pray so too. hahaha
just me=wee
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