its a sunny saturday here!what a pleasant surprise!hee..sometime the weather does reflect ur emotional state..on other occasions..it can really make a mockery of hw u are feeling..thats pretty true for radio programs too..ever noticed when u are feeling low..it seems to be playing all the emo n soppy love lost n unrequited songs?haha...twisted eh life?well..all the more we should face it with the strength and belief that its worth living for every moment. no longer should we live life with fear of things we can't control..what we can control is what we do to our lives..not the other way around..really glad to have been out last night..as usual..drinks were aplenty.company awesome and addictively hilarious, even had time to emo with lindsay n Ain, two of my closest friends here in melb..we dun really hang out that much last sem, but really clicked when we met again this sem round?when u open ur hearts and minds to one another..u really do feel that others do the same to u too..well not all..but if u are lucky..u be able to find those whom u can share a good laugh, corny jokes, sad moments, a stiff sambuca and tandoori chicken salad. been up doing laundry and getting my studies here all mapped out..have not been really into studies since i been back.but no woris..no longer do i feel daunted..i even feel excited! betta go study already...need a nap too..not been sleeping much la..keke but thats beginning to become my routine around here. yippeeeee..rainbows and jolly green giants, life so mysterious, so different. skooting on my lill wee rocketship, u made me danced, laughed and flipped!

emotional basketcase. i always wonder if i am such a person..someone who can't control my own emotionals..which seem to be rollercoastering lately.sometimes i believe i will go bonkers or even worst..i alienate all these feelings that i become numb and cold? it does make you feel weak and hapless doesn't it?when you can't control your ownself,own emotions and actions? you feel silly that you felt this way, acted in a particular fashion or generally peeved that you didn't know this side of you could exist? does this mean we are not whom we seem to be? everyone looks good on the outside, whats going on within the person's inner most thoughts and feelings?its hard ain't it?especially when u have time to let your mind run wild? i wish i could bury myself with work and just counter this..but i am sure all of us know, somethings do take greater importance even though it seems very clear and logical? does letting our emotions take control over us make us irrational and delusional? sometimes we all need an avenue to let out our emotional screams and cries! aAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH anyway to take my mind off the matter, i looked thru photos and chanted as well, it does take my mind off things and in a way, able to look at things from a calmer and different perspective. so sad, i can;t run anymore in the evenings..its so darn cold and windy..gonna curl up under the covers and do some soul searching..i just hope my brain does not freeze in the process. i think and i reminisce..i miss my time in Spore so very much..especially the days just before i flew back? as i look at the calender that silently gazes at me from up there on the wall..i realise its gonna be a long 3 months..3 months too long.

sleepyhead

i feel extremely bushed out, tired, exhausted, spent, worn out.
gonna curl up underneath my quilt and sleep for awhile.
have loads on mymind but its so messy i can't pen them down.
hoping for a good rest that will clear my head as well as give this old bag of bones a good rest.

Uni been great so far, having survived last semester, it all seems to be a breeze now, with relation to what to expect and do, essays are a different problem altogether.

will be having headaches soon as to how to find a new roomie once meina leaves, hopes she starts finding someone soon.

fingers aren't responding well...i really need to rest before i PENG SAN.
my thoughts go out to you all.

i been out in the city this afternoon, collected my fotos..n struggling with the fact that i had less then ten dollars with me..went on to meet xiaomin as shes here on flight..went arnd shopping..ten bucks can't get u nothing so its all window for me.i felt swamped by a pinkish tidal wave as i saw the colour all over shops in the city..man...just when i was thinking about getting a pink top man..saw some pretty good ones too..on the racks..but duno hw they look when u wear em..heheee..nid to get my cheque cleared first..had dinner with her and her friends and adjourned for chitchat at her place..realised that openness with your heart beckons others to open theirs to you as well...its really heartwarming knowing this..i really feel blessed when it comes to friends and relationships with them..its been a swell bunch here n in spore as well!geez..sometimes i wonder where i be and what i be doing without them..open your heart and embrace those around you..don't build walls..build relationships to be cherished and savoured ..like good wine...wat u get out of it..is what u put in it..n where u store it..keep them close to your heart....<> a song that i realli realli like!

of course..have a smoking genie or should i say faery in this case?heeeez

justin obviously tinks so as he gives the thumbs up..

beer, sambuca,vodka, barcadi and wine..wat else can u ask for on a cold night filled with warmth of friends?

alrite folks..pics from my boozing/chill out session at Lindsay's place..man..i feel diff after tat nite..theres so much love in the world man...even among strangers..haha..heres us having a good time and laugh in between drinks..

i just love the way my camera takes pics in ambient light..this was like in reali dark conditions with just a few lamps within the room..haha...lindsay's puckering up for a good one eh?keke..

i had a great weekend!fri nite lounging and drinking at stellar bar at melbourne city..the place wasn't stellar..as always..the company is what matters..loved chatting to valerie and abeleena, both of them are returning home soon, makes me so envious that they are....sob sob...well...the redish decor reminds me of a certain place back in spore..embargo..a place i love to go lounging...i been there recently while i was back in spore..its great..had great fun drinking and eating..keke...their pizzas are quite tasty U noe?!? haha...sat nite/sun morn was filled with more drinking at lindsay's place...booozed and played silly games that really tested my knowledge of movies, played celebrity..its darn fun yeah! good company and good food and drinks..its a wonder why the neighbours did not complain..ooh i forgot..its not singapore..keke..whahaha...dun u love it when u embrace life..embrace love and face whatever is ahead of u, your future?made so many new friends today..some i met before..but strengthened the bonds this morning..its amazing what drinks and silly games can do for friendship building. its beginning to look sunny here in cold windy wet melbourne..hehe..coz the sunshines coming from the spotless mind...ooh clementine...how i miss you so...you know who you are!=P check out the mantra of the day. chooose life!