外星人地球冒險記。

Without darkness, there'll be no light.

2008-09-23T08:03:00.002+08:00

In the world we reside in,
Opposing forces are running in parallel with each other.
Conflicting, co-exisiting.

If this world is filled with good people.
Then may i be the necessary evil that allows goodness to stand in the forefront and claim moral highground.

I need help, but whom will understand that i really want to change?

____________________________________________

2008-09-02T09:39:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling empty.

There seems little purpose in the tasks i get about to do everyday.

It will be difficult even though i know this day would come one fine day.

2008-07-27T14:07:00.002+08:00

I should seek solace in reality, rather then indulge in a dreamscape that i know holds greater pain as sensations are heightened in an ulmost unreal manner.

The fleeting moments of ecstasy are often peppered with a hint of disbelief that this could be happening.

Everyone deserves a chance at happiness, but it seems happiness is a wily fellow whom seeks to be always ahead and chased after. Never stopping. never following alongside.

You attempt to grasp hold of it, but only to realise how feeble and mortal you really are. Clutching wildly as you try to hold on to the pleasures of happiness, you end up clawing at your very own existence, the harder you try, the deeper your wounds. This is my fatality. My fatal crush.

I realised

2008-07-16T01:22:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i wonder if the mind indeed is that all powerful, whilst debate rages on regarding the untapped powers of the mind, i've been experiencing very strong sensations in another powerful sensory organ lately.

The human heart, does it also encompass the human spirit? or is that more spiritual then physical?
It is indeed an impressive organ, not only does it give life thru circulation of blood through out the body, it seems to be that both heart and mind are sometimes almost reliant on each other...

its late and my thoughts are incoherent, i've not been writting for awhile and the past week or so has seen me experience plenty of varying emotions so i decided to take some time tonite to pen down some of what's floating about between the grey matter inside my head.

Heighten emotions, feelings of loss, disappointment and unbearable strain on the heart that feels like it's just waiting to stop in immediate cardiac arrest. its like the heart and mind is being put thru a tolerance test of its limits.

demise of a dear friend to disease, endless bickering and non resolution of issues important to each other, a catching up that's 2 years overdue. From lows to highs, i'm brought down to earth despite the glow of happiness from a wonderful experience last evening, almost singlehandedly done so as i recall how highs are balanced by lows and i shuddered at how dangerous it is to get your highs to a point where u'll really really feel the painful thud of that very fatal low.

once a couple of years back, i came across this ultra sensation of dull cold pain that robbed me of every single tear in my eyes. Whilst it remains true that to date that horrible experience has rendered me insensitive to some extent. i am almost certain that the twisted logic of how hope and happiness is actually the eternal spring of sadness and pain. Both co-exist so that the other gives meaning to the other.

i believe the same twisted logic extends into everyday life and therefore i've become afraid to dream and hope. Is there really 'hope' left?

Bitter

2008-06-03T23:51:00.003+08:00

All these years i cherished the friendship that us guys had.
I might have been away on occasions, but in it all, i've tried to maintain bonds with you guys whilst you all seek to relinquish them.
true enough, a bitter ending was in sight, since it is so that i'm dispensable, let it just end as it is.....

Number 585.

2008-03-27T00:05:00.002+08:00

Does one really (truly) forget?
If you loved and got hurt ... but the hurt seems lesser when you loved and lost thereafter... what does that mean?

08

2008-01-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

Happy 08 Guys and Gals,

I've been lazy to blog lately and possibly for a long long time.
No doubt work, family and life has taken me away from this personal space which i've kept very closely to myself when i started my studies abroad.

Some of the resolutions i've made prior to the New Year.

1) Be more family oriented, spend more time with the family and take my family for a holiday.
2) Participate and complete the Standard Chartered Marathon 2008.
3) Patience Patience Patience.
4) Be more focused on work and perform like a true professional.
5) Do charity work.

And because you've all been such sweeties, i'll share with you a really really secret wish that i've had lately.
Pssst... I wanna be on the cover of Men's Health.
LOL

Post Birthday Alien

2007-12-16T16:17:00.000+08:00

Lately i've been addicted to facebook so i've not been blogging..getting lesser inspirations to blog nowadays, at one point i was thinking i probably stop blogging coz after all i've returned from studies and that was the original purpose of this blog. =)

But looking back at the entries i had, i can't even bear to entertain that thought any longer.

I've been meeting up with friends, feeling happy Xmas shopping and anticipating my birthday, which was last week.
Spent a few days on leave thereafter and did my routine visits to the temple for prayers, SLS for latest gadgets and looksee, caught up with some of the guys whom orded and the weekend went by quietly with the help of D Gray Man and Heroes.

Another few weeks and it'll be the end of the year 2007.
Peppered with the holidays thats coming soon, i'm really reflective on how the year has went by and i'm gonna do a pondering kinda post before the year closes for 08. Set some targets and goals, resolutions as well.

Missing Lucas.
^^

I'm in a December and Xmas kinda mood!

2007-12-06T08:51:00.000+08:00

Ho ho Ho!
Its the time of the year again, i've always loved Dec.
A time of the year whereby work kinda slows down to a really comfortable pace, the festivities and mood (at least mine) is all jovial and festive, the weather turns cooler, a time to catch up with mates after a long year hard at work, its just Merry!

A couple of things went by since i last posted, Luca's baby shower, a concert at the indoor stadium and although there ain't any plans as yet for xmas itself, i'm happy the way things has been this dec.hahah the bonus coming in is helping alot too! lol

The weather lately has been just lovely, windy n cool, it reminds me of the face-chilling, bone shuddering cold breezes of Melbourne, in fact, after catching up with Cali and Kris on monday, i am officially in a i miss melbourne mood too!
hahahha

Can u just imagine yourself at the sidewalks, underneath a toasty heater, licking off a cone of roche gelato from Il Dolce Freddo and thereafter heading across the street to Notti's for a pizza or a hot chocolate?
Or how about a movie at Cinema Nova?hhhahha gosh! I'm horny for Melbourne!

I miss everyone of my friends out there too, it was great to hang out with Kris and Cali as well as my sec sch blokes last night out at the kopitiam, if you haven't seen me for the past 2 months, its about time we've met up!hahha

HOHOHO! =)

A Quick Update

2007-11-14T07:30:00.000+08:00

It's gotten quiet all over again here as i was busy last week fussing over the arrival of my Godson, Lucas, last Monday. Hee ^^ He's just super cute!!! hahah

The week went by quickly and the weekend was spent spending time over with Lucas, it was the first time i held a baby that was just days old and it was quite nerve wrecking at first as i'm worried if he would just fall off from my arms anot!

Daddy Desmond assisted Godfather in that and it went quite well till Lucas pooped in his diapers and had to get a change of his nappies.

Following that i fed Lucas his dinner (?) and it was also another first!hahaha Yay! Its just beyond words the feeling watching him drinking his milk down eagerly! I can't wait to see him get bigger and all!hahah

More photos soon! =)

Godfather soon!=p

2007-11-04T10:15:00.000+08:00

The week was spent out in the field supervising some training, not exactly the most effective way to spend your week be it in terms of work, play or wastage of time, but it did give me a good recovery from the lack of sleep that i usually subject myself to during a normal week.

The weekend was spent first thing early Sat morning at a Yoga class, pretty interesting and slightly amused that i am still rather flexible at this point, however its really too therapeutic for me and not something i'd do full on at this present time and age. The pushy ah-lian 'Member consultant supervisor' didn't really do much for me in terms of info and impressing me with her knowledge of alternative fitness and holistic methods and she pissed me off after a while.
Decided to cut the day short by skipping the massage session and shopped around for Godson's present in the afternoon till i met up with his parents at night for dinner and a get together session.

*btw, i realised i'm eatting alot of eggs lately..hmm hmmm.

Woke up early this morning and decided to blog again to retain what i've remember about this weekend. Things are work are looking busy soon but with the year end holiday period approaching and the presence of a good boss, it doesnt look that bad at the moment.=)

The last outing to the bookshop also landed me with a pictorial book which i've wanted to get lately.yay!=P

That's it for now i reckon guys, Finally WELCOME HOME NIGEL! =)

Out to the wilderness.Again.

2007-10-30T00:13:00.000+08:00

Today's dinner marked my return to a real adult food's diet.
Since my extraction last week, i had meals which were either liquid by nature, soft foods or ingested through self induced swallowing skills.
It felt good to be able to eat real food again plus it was great to have a good and hearty meal...it still feels weird, feels like i have less teeth to chew on nowadays but i'm glad this ordeal was over.haha

Back to work and heading straight into an outfield training stint in an offshore island to the east.

I'm not exactly enthused by the whole idea of it but i reckon a job's what i've got and i've got to work for this job.
A recent cab ride induced this interesting conversation with the cabby and his theorem regarding the bosses of the land creating a whole society that's based on work ethics and a constant desire to be financially superior as a means of subduing the masses.
while he had not used the same words as i have, i felt that he isn't very far off from painting the minds and opinions of many out there in society.
It is indeed not a desired state of how one should live their lives and this is in tandem with my personal mantra that life is more then the ceaseless race for more cheese.
All i can hope for is that one day i can find a mouse whom shares this ideology.

Recovery Day 3

2007-10-27T09:59:00.000+08:00

Since the jawrattling experience of removing all four of my wisdom teeth 3days ago, i've found time while staying at home recuperating to watch more drama on the web, chatted with my men whom orded and are living well and great out in the real world, many have found jobs and or are in the midst of regaining their pace in life.

So alls well and good for them all and i'm glad, especially excited for Leibiao whom will be heading to Bangkok again for training before the SEA Games this year end.
Just to let all the readers here know, LeiBiao, Wong, is a kickass Muay Thai exponent whom was a Scout trooper that just made everyone whom knew him proud.
I'll be cheering Team Singapore on this time round and for a good reason, there's a true blue Singaporean within the team that's worth pushing my decibels limit to the max. =)

Although the rest at home has been good, i've yet to book an appointment to remove the stitches in my gums yet, i guess it'll have to wait till Mon, one or two more days with stitches in my mouth wouldn't hurt right? I wished they had used the dissolving type of material for the stitches, but i guess that wouldn't be possible with all the costcutting everyone is trying to do in the Civil sector, would it?

I'm hoping to get the long awaited camera i've been eyeing for awhile today, as i realised this blog has been pretty barren pix-wise as i've grown really jaded of pix taking. Its weird as i used to have my camera wherever i went. With luck and boy's addiction to toys, this would invigorate my cam-whoring and pix snapping abilities.haahaa =P

In eager anticipation of tomorrow's match between Arsenal and L'Pool.

Hopefully its a better week to come

2007-10-25T05:38:00.000+08:00

I hate the dentist.
And following yesterdays' wisdom tooth extraction, i don't think that mentality is gonna change much.
At the very least, there aint much swelling, but one side's bleeding alot more the usual and its bothering me...might need to visit the dentist again.bleah.

Oct bonus came in, hmm not as much as i expected.
Bleh.

Its the bloody taste in my mouth that's bothering me more.
argh..boh gay boh gay (toothless toothless)
=(

转角遇到爱

2007-10-21T14:02:00.000+08:00

Ahhhh Apologies.
I've been slacking off blogging for really too long now.
These few weeks i've been busy with preparing papers for my work and its back to the mentally stressful periods that i've endured as a student.
This time round i'm balancing it up with lotsa gym n swimming coz i really dislike the heavy headed experience i get whenever i'm bogged down with lotsa work.haha
I'm a brain-less himbo. hahhaha. =P

Besides work, i've been captivated by this taiwan drama series titled 转角遇到爱....
Its been rare that a drama series is able to captivate me as usually i don't have the patience to endure the entire serial..but the sheer humour, touching sweetness this series exudes justs kept me coming back to it every time i was free to watch if off the net.

Now that i've completed the series..its left me rather empty..hahaha but to feed off my post addiction to this drama series, i've decided to splurge out on tiks to the lead actor's soon to be in Singapore concert.kekeke q^_^p

Its another week of work..and come wed..my wisdom tooth extraction..argh...=(

I'm Off To Thailand AGAIN!

2007-10-04T15:53:00.000+08:00

I'm off again, this time round for a really short short trip.
Just over the weekend, for work, travelling over 2,ooo KM north up.

In November i'll also be heading up for another trip, perhaps 5 to 10 days then.
And in January 08, a full scale training stint thats about 16plus days.

Hmmm did i ever make a wish that i'll head there so often?hmmm HMmmm
Ah well, heres to a safe, swift and succinct trip.
=)

There was a girl named Jenny.

2007-10-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

As i sweep away the cobwebs from this musky lil corner which i've always deposited my random thoughts and ideals, i would like to tell everyone a story about a girl named Jenny.

Jenny believes in true love, the other, your better half - before self, the sacrifices she makes are unlike many of the female species i know of late.
I haven't seen Jenny for a while now, back then while i was at a lil continent far far away, this girl with the sweetest smile was a carefree soul, a lil Miss Independent perhaps, she had the world at her feet, she was pretty, she had a loving boyfriend, yet her smile was always so radiant because she loved how her life was.

Carefree, independence and above all, she had love.

The few times that she'll visit, Jenny always brings a smile to this emotionally erratic alien. She always seem so wise and theres a reason why now that i think about it. Whenever the heart was in doubt, this girl would have an answer.

Seasons came and past us by, one fine day i realised Jenny had given up what i had thought given her smile the brilliance it radiated.
Jenny was madly in love with someone she had just met and already she was ranting about spending the rest of her life with him. The wintery winds and cool spring breezes now hinted of a different scent, i couldn't believe the grin of a carefree soul was now replaced by the gentle hint of a smile of a different kind.
Ahhhh..how can i describe this? I can't.

Many moons had past without ever seeing her smile again, until lately i caught whiff of her lovely smile again. This time i had to seek, the reasons behind those smiles.
Being as wise as she was, she illuminated my thoughts as she spoke.

"I was worried i'll fall in love with someone that would be poor, so in his stead, in these few years before i had met him, i've saved the earnings that i've made. So i may get married with the man i love, even if he was penniless."

There were other gems of wisdom Jenny shared with me this time we met, some i couldn't even transcribe into words.
All i could do was be in awe of how this girl had found love and defined love in her own way and i was speechless at her selflessness.
Indeed, the greatest love of all is putting others before self.=)

It was a funny monday, one moment i couldn't find myself or relate to how love should be. The moment this girl spoke, i realised how and what love really is.
Question is, how many of us could really love like that?

It was no wonder she's the favourite girl of a man with the initials. F.G.

And all i could do is wait.....

2007-09-22T15:36:00.000+08:00

A new posting, a totally new working environment, a whole new set of feelings.

Under the former boss which i detest, a workplace that doesn't bring good memories, a sense of dread.

These are the components of the latest emotional cocktail i've been concocting, it's definitely potent and unfriendly to those whom are not hardcore emotionally.

I feel like running away from it all.

Perhaps i should re-read my older posts and TRY and feel a little more positive. *hurhur*

*I apologise for my lack of posts, i feel that my bandwidth for mental apprehension and correlation has somewhat deteriorated. Therefore i have been avoiding posting, meanwhile, the author is trying desperately to find back his blogging best, a reinvented diet of good reads, booze and great music has been prescribed*

情人的眼泪

2007-08-13T02:31:00.000+08:00

Omigod.I'm so in love with this song!
I downloaded 4 different versions of this classic love song sung by 4 different artistes.
*swooon.
lol~~~

为什么要对你掉眼泪
你难道不明白是为了爱
只有那有情人眼泪最珍贵
一颗颗眼泪都是爱都是爱

为什么要对你掉眼泪
你难道不明白是为了爱
要不是有情人跟我要分开
我眼泪不会掉下来掉下来

好春才来春花正开
你怎舍得说再会
我在深闺望穿秋水
你不要忘了我情深深如海

2007-08-08T09:55:00.000+08:00

You're A Prayer for Owen Meany!

by John Irving

Despite humble and perhaps literally small beginnings, you inspire
faith in almost everyone you know. You are an agent of higher powers, and you manifest
this fact in mysterious and loud ways. A sense of destiny pervades your every waking
moment, and you prepare with great detail for destiny fulfilled. When you speak, IT
SOUNDS LIKE THIS!

Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

2007-08-02T09:23:00.000+08:00

Whenever i grow weary at my job, this never fails to put my heart beating strongly again.=)

" Men who adopt the profession of arms submit their own free will to a law of perpetual constraint. Of their own accord, they reject the right to live where they choose, to say what they think, to dress as they like. from the moment they become soldiers, it needs but an order to settle them in this place, to move them to that, to separate them from their families and dislocate their normal lives.

On the word of command, they must rise, march, run, endure bad weather, go without sleep or food, be isolated in some distant post, work till they drop. They have ceased to be the master of their own fate. If they drop in their tracks, if their ashes are scattered to the four winds, that is all part and parcel of their job."

This is home. After all.*ROAR!*

☆不能说的秘密电影主打☆

2007-07-26T09:52:00.000+08:00

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面

拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 oh
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

should i STAY or should i GO?

2007-07-24T20:01:00.000+08:00

What if you had an opportunity that only arises once and you might never have this chance knocking again on your door?
What if however, it encompasses you having to break a legal bond with an institution and inconvenience many others whom acted as your surety when you took up the bond?

One fine sunday night was spent out in the wilderness, amidst the pouring rain and the numerous mosquitoes.
Both myself and a buddy had this thought...what are we doing out here in this rain on a sunday night away from our loved ones?

I've presented my thoughts about our duties to the nation but lately i've became disillusioned with the lack of autonomy and empowerment some of us have within this fine organisation.

Knock Knock...

2007-07-18T19:26:00.000+08:00

Apologies for ye faithful readers!!!
I finally had the chance to take a break after the weekends have been burnt consecutively for the past month due to various work commitments.
It felt good not to work on a monday and even better to go shopping around on a tues!!
Heehee yay! I love shopping really.
In fact i've been commented that i'll probably outshop most women if not for my stringent savings plan! hurhur.

And so while i was out these two off days, i was actually out looking to get a new digital camera and so as i was out enjoying my day as the SLK (Sim Lim Kid), i was introduced to the Lumix FX30 camera and though on impulse i had wanted to get it right away, i decided to get back home first and do some research on it before committing on the purchase.

For those whom know me, i really SWEAR by Ca**n but i reckon up till date, the lack of improvements to their Ix*s range has really put me off.=P
For years, despite charging a real premium for their aesthetically superior design, the people at Ca**n has failed to improve on a few features which i thought was really bad in view of the other cameras out in the market.

1) Lack of a on screen battery meter... (I really hate it when the time i see the flashing low battery meter means i either have to dig out my spare battery or that i'm left with a few shots left!)

2) NO Image stabilizer... for years i've practised and perfected the 'Two hand double elbow lean on hard surface trying to be a tripod" posture for shots at night or those that required super still and steady hands. Despite this being their 4th or 5th incarnation of the Ix*s range, the good people at lovely Ca**n has yet to add in this feature into all of their product range.

3) Lastly and finally....the current model which follows the range which i've mentioned earlier has gone backwards in terms of material selection for the camera..what used to be metallic substance and style has now became plastic-icky and toy like. Good for the weight but bleh and hallelujah! if u so drop you precious camera.

soooooo..after ranting about the minus points...allow me to present...the object of my new found interest... taaaDAaaaaa!!

*smiles!!!

And since we're on the whole toys for boys subject for today's post.
My latest obsession.... from SE.

On duty now but missing a whole bunch of people at this time! =)

i've Been lazy.

2007-07-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

Over on monday earlier this week, my workplace celebrated her Golden Jubilee.
I was glad that part of work was over, suddenly it felt as if i was back in my previous workplace before i left for studies, with all the regimental drills and all...deja vu man.

Talking about Deja Vu, lately something happened again that led me to think deeply about this theory of self fulfilling prophecy.

I'll cite just two examples as too much details bore the idle reader and also i've already had enough white hair for the time being.=)

Years ago, i was a trainee somewhere and i was hoping i wouldn't be selected for this dreaded vocation...during an innocent trip to the shops, i bought this polo tee which only a specific vocationalist would have to attend during part of his training.
weeks later down the road then, i realised that i've been selected to be posted to the dreaded wing for my next phase of training.

Now we fastforward to the current few years and a likewise situation has just occurred...
last year while i was attending a course somewhere, AGAIN i innocently bought a running singlet which beared the insignia of the impending posting which i will be headed to come this September!

On top of these two incidents, there were many others, it was to the point where i realised that this wasn't just in my mind, it was actually happening every single time!!!
Now why don't i seem to have this kinda positive mind over matter power when it comes to things like affairs of the heart, money and I'm a hero that's came to save the World?

*if you had similar experiences like mine, feel free to drop me an email or yak to me about it over msn.
I'm already feeling your vibe.=)

Weekends are so short!!!

2007-07-08T11:52:00.000+08:00

Due to my commitments at NDP this year, weekends have became more precious then before.
Fitting everything into one sunday with no monday off in sight has tired me out, i look hagged/jaded and temperament have became more volatile then usual.

Despite all this, catching up with Nat before she flew off for her getaway in Melb was great and thanks once again for the gifts you've gotten me. Let me digest my comics first before i move on to heavier stuff like the novel.=P

Heading out in awhile to bring mum out for lunch at chinatown and at the same time visit the Buddha tooth relic temple with her.

Another wedding dinner tonight. $$$$$$$=Gone.

010706~010707

2007-07-01T09:45:00.000+08:00

A year ago today, i awoke realizing that i've just lost one of my best troopers.
Lately, before this fateful day, i've had deep thoughts about Herng Jye again and again, i've thought about how things would be, if he was still around, as the men are about to ord and end their national service, i miss him more and more so.

Perhaps it is also due to the fact that i'm posting out soon.
Coupled with the eminent fact that i'll be disposed off as soon as NDP ends, the sour feeling creeps into my mind.
Indeed this post is one of lament....
A loss that shouldn't be and a failure to complete and put closure to this wonderful journey with the men throughout this mono.

Herng Jye, You will always be remembered.
A Brother, A Soldier and A Friend.
010706.

All Hail King Henry, The Departed.

2007-06-27T00:00:00.000+08:00

A Legend has left Ashburton Grove.

Although he didn't really perform this season. He will always be a Gunner through and through.

All the best and may all Gunners pray for the team and Monsieur Wenger.=)

2007-06-19T00:53:00.001+08:00

Over the weekend, i headed up north to a lil place called Pekan Nanas in Pontian where i spent my childhood years running after wild kampung chicken, picking up durians just outside of my yard, falling down n cutting myself on the dirt road, swimming in streams..all this and more in the company of someone whom raised me (more) during my infant years, My Granny. =)

I'm always so grateful for her being in my life, for always watching out for me during my sickly childhood years, for being such a nuisance with my loud cries and naughty nature, for always keeping me safe and unafraid during those trips where we had to head back to Singapore to get my passport revalidated. (When i was a kid, i was terrified by the big trucks that roared past the roads and blasted their airhorns!)

And so after many years of just visiting her during CNY and her birthday, this year was extra special coz its her 80th Birthday!!!
Though it was raining and there was a human jam at the Malaysian customs, it wasn't gonna prevent me from getting there to spend time with her this year.=)

She looks happy doesn't she? =)

There were plenty of other pix but its all of us relatives and of food so i shall keep those for myself!

Thanks for everything and i love you Ah MAH!=)

.........

2007-06-01T22:16:00.000+08:00

Usually before i leave for holidays or training overseas, i'll have a lot to write in my blog and tonight is no different.
Tmr afternoon i'll be heading to Thailand again for some work matters.

darnit! Because of this, i'm gonna miss two weddings, one anniversary, one Mayday concert already!!!

Just the other day i met kim again after a long absence, yeah coz of work n social life, i havent hung out with my sec sch bunch for a year or so.
But though i accept that i've not been there with them for most parts, what irked me was how the group liked to push the responsibility to the individual.
its You who hasnt made the effort, its You...
In reality i'm pretty sick of this attitude, i've always been someone whom if you bother to ask, you'll seldom find me saying no, lest for very good reasons, i find no reason to reject others too. And so conveniently, the individual is blamed for not putting effort, alright i'm guilty as charged!

So pray explain, how do you rationalise inviting me for the wedding dinner, yet not asking me for the ROM when i already mentioned i won't be around for the wedding dinner coz of work but no one bothered to inform me about the ROM????

Disappointed i am.

Bring me to Alaska!!!

2007-05-22T12:47:00.000+08:00

Some of perceive one of the ways to travel the world requires you to get into this niche group we like to call aircrew. In reality, jobs nowadays requires you to travel very much often and to many different places as well.
As many of my friends could attest, though the places us non-crew visit aren't as glamorous or exciting, all in all, its really great if your job allows some opportunity for travel, especially when you're young and all! (LOL)
I'm really praying hard that i'll remain in the unit till they get back from overseas training in ALASKA!
YooHOOOO!! Think eskimos and sledgedogs people!! Yay!!!

hahaha

Meanwhile, training hard physically. =)
and checking out tattoo shops.heeheez

三只老虎,三只老虎。

2007-05-17T00:01:00.000+08:00

Was out earlier with Gavin and the rest at the tattoo shop checking out designs for a tatt that i've been wanting to get very much and for a long long time.

I've found something tat i really like, its something outrightly 'beng-ish' ..yah, what to do?
everyone associates tigers and dragons with the underworld figures we've all seen adorned with skin art of such in movies and on telly.
But it's something i fancy very very much and i'm keen to get it done before i head up to thailand this june for the upcoming bilateral exercise.

5-6 hours under the needle doesn't sound very enticing. But even though it's my first time, i believe i'll be able to sustain.hurhur.

Latest update too on my posting..seems like there's still on conclusion as to where i'll be posted to, news come from all directions but i've learnt not to really be too interested in it anymore coz ultimately it really isn't up to me or as if i can make a choice. Its going good though, i don't feel so congested with thoughts and i'm just letting the usual nerve wrecking workload occupy my rather idle mind.

Been trying to read more but i'm always stuck with my manga and comics+anime that i've totally neglected about having good literature as part of my mental diet. Perhaps that is why i'm getting constipation up there and thoughts aren't coming out as much as they should!

An evening that was planned to be out drinking and enjoying the awesome live band at dragonfly now sees me in cyberspace dishing out my thoughts on this webspace. mmm i've really no true kakis at the moment whom share my passion n thirst for the strong drink, Thai Buddhism and sunnydays by the beach!

No wonder i'm unhappy!?

*Maybe i'll post my tatt out here if it becomes a reality. =)

HOPE

2007-05-13T05:21:00.000+08:00

Hope is a dangerous thing.
It's so lethal, i think it should come with a health warning.

I think as we all go through this mortal life, somehow or the other we've learnt how upsetting it can be when hope doesn't translate into reality.
And as that happens and we swear off HOPE. One way or the other, it comes back to us almost karmic or seasonal like, to strike at our deepest emotional reserves again.

Be positive but not hope for too much i'll say. =)
Good Morning!

Are you Lonesome tonight?

2007-05-12T14:14:00.000+08:00

In life, often we find ourselves in a situation whereby we find our pool of friends decreasing due to the different stages in life. What once was a merry gang of 13 bashful boys has now become no more. In work it is not much different, when you were in the junior ranks, the pool of fellow colleagues and people whom you interact with is vast and deep. As you progressed, this pool becomes smaller and rather shallow, by this i mean many things, there aren't any more true friends, each individual is another whom wants to outdo the other in some sense or the other. Each and every one has his own priorities then and no longer can you share the camaraderie where true bonds were formed.

I'm coming to a stage where i'll be posting out from my current unit soon, how soon or how late, i'm not sure. I'm sure however, that i'm very much gonna miss this tour and the people and men that have fought under my charge during this period. Where there was once 39, now there is only 38. I still think of him very much and the sadness is compounded when i realise i might very well be posted to a place where the incident took place that resulted in that loss.

Indeed, i've come to realize through it all that being in command is addictive. Though i could settle for a less tedious appointment and a cushier job elsewhere. The hard and tough times you go through with you men aren't comparable to anything else in this world for i strongly believe that only when you go through the toughest times together, only through that will you discover and forge the strongest bonds.

I wish i could stay till the men ord and get back to their lives out of the army, i wonder if that is possible, i'll keep praying for that though.

There's just too many things to think about and my grey hairs are multiplying by the dozens. I hope everyone out there is doing fine. =)

2007-04-23T11:41:00.000+08:00

Get Your Cyborg Name

How bored can you get?lol

oooh so pretty.hurhur*

2007-04-19T19:29:00.000+08:00

2007-04-19T19:19:00.000+08:00

Been a few days since i'm back.
Bags are mostly half unpacked, room's in a mess, bills everywhere, letters/correspondence all over the shop.
Fortunately i'm off for two weeks to get my life back in order after being away for a month plus.
Somethings have changed.
Some remain the same.

Overall it's gonna be a exciting journey from now on too.
The troops are gonna ord in a few months time, i'm gonna have my new posting, probably gonna get a tattoo, a car too perhaps, (hurhur) and perhaps the part where i'm dreading.

There's gonna be so many of those whom i've become so used to that's gonna leave and move on towards their next stage in life too.
It aint coz i'm emo or anything, but separation and me don't fit together too well.
Though a certain event years ago hardened me to a certain extent, the sudden loss of someone dear last year has made me realise how fragile life is and also how everyone almost takes each other for granted too easily.

There's just too little time left in our lives to be wasted.

*Looking forward to all the great movies that are heading our way soon!

2007-04-13T20:15:00.000+08:00

Its finally over, in a few hours, i'll be departing via bus up north to Taipei!
300++KM of road to be travelled.

But something made my day and perhaps my whole trip, even my whole tour as the PC here all worthwhile and worth emo-ing about.

As we watched one of those videos made by the media team covering our events since we touched down in Taiwan for training, at the end of it, something flashed on the credits that tugged my heartstrings so strongly, i gave a roar of approval amidst the banter of everyone else.

"In Memory of Ong Herng Jye"

Though simple n short, it meant so much to me that at least besides us in the platoon, someone still remembers our friend whom has departed from this world ahead of us.

HJ, i miss you so very much.
54, RECCE!

2007-03-30T21:41:00.000+08:00

550th post.

in two days time.
it'll be a 9 day back to back to back mission.wooohaaa!
Atec's over but the real challenge is now.
glad that its tough.at least theres a reason why we're separated from family n loved ones.
to be far away and train.

Purpose.

Thats what we're here for. And i'm looking forward to returning to my loved ones soon.
I pray for blessings for everyone.=)

two weeks

2007-03-29T20:34:00.000+08:00

its been two weeks since i've been here.
time realli flies!
atec is over and though we didnt do as well as we should.
i am glad one major exercise is over and now its just down with the other till heading back home.
cant wait to be back!!!
although taiwan is a nice place and all, it kinda sux to be away from ur family and loved ones especially when ure so used to them already!heeheee =P

probably will update this blog with some posts soon when i get back.
wait out for pix!!

2007-03-13T15:33:00.000+08:00

I'm flying off to Taiwan in a few hours.

It seems like i've got everything settled/packed and ready to go.
But somehow besides the apprehension of leaving for such a short yet long time, it seems things are not what they seem to be.

I pray that everything be fine. Alongside with Kristine's prayers too. Thanks Kris.=)

TO INFINITY AND BEYOND!

Argh!!!

2007-03-10T02:34:00.000+08:00

Kerbish!!

No Naruto this week.Bleh.
was looking forward to downloading it and watching it this friday evening but i guess i'll have to settle for reading the manga which i just bought from Kino.
lalalalalaa... Just three more days before the flight to Taiwan and evaluation.

Moomba!!!

2007-03-07T12:08:00.000+08:00

Remember The Birdman Rally? The fireworks? The game stalls? The huge plush toys for grabs? The carnival atmosphere along Yarra river? The Moomba festival is again on this coming weekend.

And i'm not there. =(

545

2007-03-07T11:39:00.000+08:00

My 545th Post.

Its a week break before i depart for overseas training.
A welcomed break indeed.it has been nonstop since the first evaluation.
Another couple is getting their marriage solemnized.

Wedding bells are indeed ringing this piggy year.

Forever Young?

2007-03-03T11:34:00.000+08:00

I came to discover i can't take the toll of staying up late very much lately.
..........
now i understand why my mum n dad retire for the night so early after the 9pm Channel 8 drama serial.
Bon Voyage, Alan! =)

*makes a secret (not) wish that i'll be in Melb again SOON!!!

2007-02-22T02:25:00.000+08:00

i'm bloody unhappy at work.
thanks to a boss whose words do more to demoralise then anything else.

Screwed up.

Unhappy

2007-02-16T18:00:00.000+08:00

It was a tough week.
4 Missions in 4 Days. Little to no rest, the only thing to look forward to was the upcoming CNY hols.
However this morning, at the debrief which usually takes places after exercises, i left for home feeling very unhappy and unappreciated.

I try to come up with the words to describe what happened but the train of thought just isn't there.

Screw it, A better new year for all to come, please.

2007-02-15T18:14:00.000+08:00

4 Days 4 Missions.
I tink i'm gonna (seh) die from all this.
damn tiring.

Need proper food n rest too after these 4 days.
Oh and good loving too.=P
Haaa

2007-02-06T23:00:00.001+08:00

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2007-02-04T19:03:00.000+08:00

The unit is undergoing evaluation and pretty soon it'll be a long trip overseas again, the last one i did something like tat was years ago man when i was still in cadet skool.
Its gonna be trying, such a long distance, longing for someone, being unable to reach for and touch the person u yearn for. I will miss my family too.

In a few minutes the Superstar finals would be on.

It has been a year plus since i've came back, what have i achieved so far?
mmmmm nothing really substantial really, i didn't save alot, neither do i think i would be ready to have a car, repay my granny's loan nor be financially ready to settle down.

In the past 29 years of my existence, i am often if not the typical laggard, always the last to come to a stage where my peers have already 'been there, done that'. Sometimes i wished i could pick up the pace and do something first for once, but then again, i've no regrets with regards to the way that i've lived my life for the past 20 odd years.

It may be difficult to imagine, but having dropped out from poly before, then working and bumming for a year or so before heading back to skool to satisfy the social requirement for one to have a proper education in order just to stay with the masses, i think it's quite remarkable that i made it through to Uni.

Although my peers are years ahead of me, i've always believed that there's nothing wrong nor negative about being slower then the rest, in exchange, my perspective on life as well as my own experiences have became so much more colourful. After all i am used to being 'behind' others, i'm after all a december baby.haaa

The rule of equivalent trade. =)

Clap not for me nor my tale of the Alien, but applaude those whom never give up despite only having the backs of others in their sights. =)

2007-02-04T18:58:00.001+08:00

SE Rocks. Nokia can N (end) their series all they want man.=P

I can't wait to get my hands on this beauty.heeehee

Ready Get Set Go!

2007-01-21T14:39:00.000+08:00

All the past few months/weeks of feverish training and re-training/practise culminates in the event known as ATEC stage 1 starting tomorrow.

Then its off to Tekong again midweek to round off the whole evaluation by this friday and hopefully some sanity is restored to all of us again.

Its unfortunate that there's a bout of conjunctivitis (sore eyes) around camp, praying hard that i wont get infected, but the show must go on!

I'm feeling really emo this week, i know it's a terrible period for her to be going through right now but i really need to focus and i can't afford to screw up at this stage.
I duno should i feel angry or sad at her lack of appreciation of what i have done, though i must say i feel like she's picking on me (perhaps i'm too sensitive), i shall try to be more understanding.

Its really a simple case of needs and wants, XXX needs this, but YYY can't deliver what XXX wants. The equation is imbalanced and trouble brews!
Every one of us is different and expectations/etc differs from person to person, i, for example, is terrible at pacifying upset or angry people. Haaa.

Feeling really tired too and probably you'll realise this already from my incoherent thoughts in this post, i wonder isit that i need more sleep or that i'm tired from sleeping??? mmmmMMMm

Rain Rain Go Away.

2007-01-13T12:21:00.000+08:00

unlike some people, i dun really like the rain. Particularly the rain back home here in Singapore.
Lest u decide to think i'm missing Melb again, i didn't enjoy the windy cold rain back there too.haaa

Soaked to the skin for the past four days, witnessing the bunk getting flooded, slippers and pails floating around, i'm amazed i didn't get struck by a cold or something.

It hasn't been a good week, the rain, the criticism, the disappointment of not doing well despite trying hard, (or have i not tried hard enough?), i am gonna rehash my priorities this new year.

2006-12-24T15:07:00.000+08:00

Its gonna be a boring xmas!

2006-12-11T02:42:00.000+08:00

I Always loved the end of the year...
there's many special days towards this part of the calendar and all the more so coz its a time when we take a break by clearing our leave, go on holidays and all the festivities that goes on during this time we all know as the holiday season.

I've already been on TOO many holidays this year so its a good time to just stay domesticated and spend time with family these few weeks.
Mum's also nagging about spring cleaning so it'll be good to start taking out the trash after clearing redundant items from previous year(s) from my cozy little room.haaa!

After the crazy year comes to a close and we start the new year, i've already a whole bunch of things which i wish to do and get done for year 2007.

But its still earlydays for such talk coz i so wish to just spend the next few weeks seeking out the company of those whom i've yearn to see for the whole year but perhaps just perhaps for the next few weeks, these ppl might be free from their schedules so we can meet up and have a nice catch up before the end of the year.

Other then that, there's already loads of people whom i MUST catch up with so i hope i can accomplish this little desire of mine in time before the year closes in on us.

I'm grateful for the things that happen and i do reflect on the things that didn't occur very much to what i had wanted it to be.

Happy Holidays Everyone.

2006-12-11T02:35:00.001+08:00

I'm a Chevrolet Corvette!

You're a classic - powerful, athletic, and competitive. You're all about winning the race and getting the job done. While you have a practical everyday side, you get wild when anyone pushes your pedal. You hate to lose, but you hardly ever do.

Take the Which Sports Car Are You? quiz.

2006-11-22T19:09:00.000+08:00

its been awhile eh?

Been a hectic month or so earlier,
Leopard 2 and Kocha Singha with the Thais, it was good to have a break from all those outfield that we were having.
Camping out at Sembawang Wharves now, its really erm...trying.... hahah
BUT what the heck, its only for two weeks.

So hang in there ERIC!!!

I'm pretty upset that my whole life has been so busy to the point i haven't got time for many other things in life.
Can't wait for Xmas and all the festive cheer to perk myself up! =P

Back to the Wharves in a few hours.haha
Almost wanted to do a I want or To Do list...
But it aint so practical when you're stuck at work most of the time eh?lol

Someone left the job.

2006-10-29T02:28:00.000+08:00

Naming Movies must be tough work nowadays.
Check out the number of "The's " in this week's movie offerings.

The Black Dahlia
The Covenant
The Prestige
The Departed
The Guardian
The Oh in Ohio

And upcoming are
The Grudge 2
The Texas Chainsaw Massacre : The Beginning
The Santa Clause

Thanks!

2006-10-17T00:24:00.000+08:00

For all ye faithful and sincere friends whom still visit the alien's rants about his life.
Thank you. =)

I'm heading back to the place where i once called home for two years.
Melbourne.
I shall embrace you once more.=)

2006-09-02T19:56:00.000+08:00

how do i live without you
i want to know
how do i breathe without you
if you ever go
how do i ever
ever survive
how do i how do i
oh how do i live

当你的手还握在我手中
没有一次
我还停留
说不出口的感动
当你的手还握在我手中
灿烂的笑容
不论过多久
都让我心动

每一天在你的怀里等待
每一次我感觉你的存在
不能重来
不愿离开
是永远都灿烂的爱

每一天在你的梦里等待
每一次我感觉你的存在
so how do i live
how do i live
how do i live
without you

当你的手还握在我手中
没有一次
我还放手
没有一次
停留
当你的手还握在我手中
灿烂的笑容
不论过多久
都让我心动

oh tell me now

how do i live without you
how do i breathe without you

2006-09-02T08:56:00.000+08:00

Continuously i've been outfield for the past two weeks, LCK, PASIR LABA, MANDAI, i'm getting jaded from all this.
This sunday would be burnt as well, FIBUA training, rendering me unable to spend a day with my beloved untill the coming saturday!
A whoopping 2weeks without each other's company.
Bleh.

I need a break from this.
Oct, Taipei. Hear me calling?

Mates

2006-08-12T15:17:00.000+08:00

Lately i've been reconnected to many friends whom have lost contact with since i've been to Melb and after my National Service.

I met Rujia at the National Stadium during NDP.
KokCheng came back over the holidays too to settle his wedding in Oct. It turns out his close poly mate is my gal's best friend.
Last night i've got an sms from Ping, one of my fellow section mates in Tango/Alpha Wing during my Officer cadet days.

But i'm glad to have made contact with these friends of mine again.
Three Cheers for Friendship!
Hooraaaay!
HooooRaaaary!
HooooooRaaaaarrrrRY!

2006-08-06T17:51:00.000+08:00

Majulah Singapura!

2006-08-06T17:50:00.001+08:00

This is the last time that the Parade will be held in the National Stadium before it's reconstruction.

2006-08-06T17:50:00.000+08:00

Towards the end of the show, the skies were filled with red and white ballons. A magical sight.

2006-08-06T17:49:00.000+08:00

I used to think that only Melb had a spectacular cloudy sunset. I was wrong.=)

A Year Has Passed.

2006-08-06T17:19:00.000+08:00

Last year this day was spent preparing for a big National Day dinner i organised at one of my mate's place in the suburbs, a big get together doing what Singaporeans do best.

Eat lotsa food, make alot of noise and mess up the whole place. hurhur*

Although my chicken rice dish that day failed coz it just took too long to cook for 15pax and i ended up only preparing enough for 6 people. It was a wonderful occasion due to the sheer number of people who got together and had fun together.
Even my roomie, Leon was invited and he definitely enjoyed his share of Singaporean dishes, especially my SAMBAL with Lady's Fingers.hahaha

This year, i made it to the NDP Preview and with abit more luck, i hope to be in the Stadium with my beloved celebrating the Nation's birthday.
Although to some, this day is just another public holiday, after participating in the parade in 2002, being there on the actual day with all the raraaa from the parade and jetplanes, i find myself boiling with sheer patriotism whenever i hear the National Anthem.

Its not coz of my job, nor am i one of those who think this lovely island we reside in is really the first world country it attempts to project, but i know when shit happens, nothing will stop me from protecting this land where my loved ones live in. Its not the reason why i am in the job i'm in, its about being able to protect what you love and thats how you call it your own.

Dearest Singapore, though my heart yearns for a life that's unreal in Melb, i know i truly belong here. Where my home is.

2006-07-17T19:26:00.000+08:00

Its time to pick up and start afresh.
i've gotten a cut foot thanks to the escalator last weekend!
it's a painful start but let's go!!!!

Choices

2006-07-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

Lately i've got no mood to work, not only has the incident made me morbid (yet wanting to embrace life) it has rendered me unable to articulate myself in the manner which i was used to.

My younger brother just had his convocation today.
I'm glad we've both got our education out of the way for now.
I wish him luck n good fortunes in the job market.

Hopefully there's more good n uplifting news like that in the next few posts.
Take care y'all!
*Hugs!

A Friend, Brother, Soldier's departure.

2006-07-02T09:49:00.000+08:00

On July the 1st, i received news that one of my troopers has left us, gone to another plane in this universe, i sincerely hope it's a much better place with less pain and anguish.

I've been to funerals before, but often it's those of whom i'm not close with, relatives, friends' relatives or i've probably attended these funerals at an age when i've yet to fully understand the fragility of life and how much it means to lose someone.

The full impact of his demise didn't strike me untill i was right in front of the altar, before then, imagery of his behaviour and the interactions we had had already played out in my mind, but nothing prepared me for the sight of a friend's photo, a trooper whom i've regarded as my younger brother on a funeral altar.

There were those whom asked if i have taken a last look at him. Even as i try to explain that i couldn't, my facial expression contorted from being deadpan to the extent where my lips could no longer help but shake as i said i couldn't bear looking at him lying in the casket when i already couldn't control my emotions just by looking at his photo.

There are those whom were concerned with the details of his departure, i couldn't be occupied with them, to me these were information i don't need to know, i know i've already lost one of my best troopers, isn't that enough for the time being?

Herng Jye, in reality, i still can't accept the fact that you're gone.

*I am struggling to continue this post, although i wish to come up with an eulogy of sorts, the flood of memories and experiences i shared with him cannot be contained within words and i'm not able to articulate myself well after the late nights.*

Life Oh Life!

2006-06-25T20:00:00.000+08:00

Melbourne..i can't help missing you, desiring you, yearning for you, its utmost scandalous how badly i want you.
My chums are going skiing this weekend, Australia's in the final 16 of the World Cup and i am heading to outfield exercises this coming monday facing the possibility of not seeing my gal till like two weeks later.argh!
I know i am unfocused and unprofessional to an extent.

But you, those who read my blog, know, that work aint life itself, its just a part of life.
I'll keep my fingers crossed for Oct!=)

Besides my complaints, nothing much else has happened in my boring life here in humid Spore, i just had a tiff with my gal yesterday, thank goodness it was over before any damage (or was there?) was done.
What ever the case, i'm glad to be well again!
I just hope my lungs are alright!

=P

2006-06-23T18:10:00.000+08:00

Orange Army!!!!

Breathe!

2006-06-18T12:36:00.000+08:00

Now that i'm well, i've been assessed to have hyperinflated lungs.

I'm thankful that i'm healthy again, i hope that the tests doesnt render me medically unfit in some capacity or another.

It has been a busy and sorta bad week if i may put it that way, at work, there was a major issue which threatened to throw the entire platoon into disarray.
The issue has been resolved and fortunately we have the understanding and support of our commanders so it wasn't that bad come to think of it. In fact, we've been very lucky following the fiasco.

I think i need a change of luck..haha anyone with pomelo leaves?=)
*For the uninitated, some chinese believe showering with pomelo leaves+water removes bad luck.

Blugh!

2006-06-10T01:05:00.000+08:00

I've got Pneumonia.
Stoopid Lung infection!
BLeh!

sick as hell

2006-06-04T12:08:00.000+08:00

I havent been this sick ever, almost a week of fever and headaches, coughing like i'm gonna spill my lungs out any moment, a frantic trip to the hospital worrying that it might be dengue/malaria, such medical drama, it could only be topped if i met a doctor with the 'charm' of DR. Gregory House or even the lovely DR Allison Cameron lol. (I miss my dramas in Australia!!!)

The final few doses of antibiotics would be finished by tonight, i do feel better, but i wonder how things would be once i stop taking the paracetamol to curb the feverish feeling i've had for the past week.
already i feel drained and damn weak.
i must recover and start training all over again!
But for now, i think i'm better off heading back to rest!
Laters people, i missed you all!

sick man blogging

2006-05-27T10:35:00.000+08:00

I succumbed to the dreaded flu bug after many around me got infected by the pesky flu virus, it wasnt pleasant at all, since coming back from Melb, i haven't felt or been this sick and it wasn't funny shivering on a hot day and having to wrap blankets around you just to keep warm.
Fortunately, i hope the worst of the flu bug is over now as i am recovering from a fever and the numerous body aches the flu has inflicted on me.

On sunday i shall be making my way into Msia for my granny's 80th Birthday, for the uninitiated, my granny took care of me during my childhood till i was ripe for Kindergarden. All this while, we were staying in Johor Bahru, Malaysia, in a sleepy lil town famous for PINEAPPLES! =)
I recall with vivid and strong images of 'Ah Mah' bringing me across the causeway every once in awhile to renew the passport during my childhood years. The huge lorries, smokey engines and loud horns still remain in my head as i look back at how life was when i was a little boy. hurhur. =P

Ahhh the age of innocence.
I shall go fight off the headache i'm having right now.Shall be back to blog again soon i hope!
Course awaits me on monday...I'm missing my gal so much now.BOOO!

Our lives began to End when we began keeping silent about things that matter.

2006-05-13T10:49:00.000+08:00

It isnt by choice that this blog has been a ghosttown for the last few weeks.
Being on course at the Western tip of the island and being ferried last week and next to an Island resort for military training doesn't help to allow me time to give this blog it's much deserved attention.

Spending time underneath the stars made me think about alot of things..about my loved ones, about my job, about my options for the future and it was the cumulative effects of these thoughts that reinforced my belief that this job is not what i really want to be doing for the rest of my life.

I want to spend more time with my loved ones, with my family, the present one and the family which i hope to build in the near future and not be out being swarmed by mozzies at 2am awaiting to be redeployed for another mission.

A job/career is an important part of a person's life, but it shouldn't consume the individual's entire life and there's a possiblity that this job will do just that to me with time to come.

What would i be when i am able to leave the force?
Dreams of starting a food biz, flying (piloting), doing research in History..i dont know yet,nothing firm has materialised but perhaps something will guide my decision in the near future.

The other thing that keeps my heart pumping is the continous thought of my loved ones as well as those under my command in the Scout platoon. Without people around us, i dread to imagine life as an individual whose life is devoid of concern about others. If you can't love, how can you be loved in returned? It is because of my love for those around me that keeps me sane in a place where although distances seem to have narrowed by technology, but due to economic reasons, individuals are being dispersed all over the globe, further and further apart with advances in transportation, what i yearn for after a crazy week is to return to the embrace of a loved one, to let my defences down, to be totally vulnerable and just let my tired soul be the way it should be..at peace and at ease, resting and recovering from the toils of each day.

You can be my lover, my family, my friends or even someone who only knows me through this blog, if you're reading this and you feel something warm within you.
Tell someone you love them this very minute.=)

2006-05-07T16:40:00.000+08:00

The volcano has exploded.
I am sorry..i can't help myself..just don't harp on issues when i am already stretched to the limit.

This blogger will return after a week in Tekong.
Alien wishes for a warm and comforting hug.

2006-04-23T19:24:00.000+08:00

Another weekend, another weekend's worth of updates on my otherwise quiet blog...used to be so lively aint it? =(

Friday night, brudder jimmy celebrated his ripe old age of 27 with drinks at our fave drinking place. I'll not mention the place but its got the worst beer i ever drank on tap and it has been like this for years already!

But the highlight of the week has got to be the chalet i went to on sat (which originally i didnt really feel like going) but ended up as a really wonderful chalet/drinking session with my sec sch mates! We've not drank and had fun like this for almost ten years!!! imagine tat! =P

But i guess besides the wonderful company of 11 out of the 13 original buddies from sec.sch days, a hatchet was finally buried and the ghost of friendship gone wrong was finally exorcised.

And to top it all, WX's getting married on Oct 19th!

Now that's a weekend to remember.=)

2006-04-16T20:52:00.000+08:00

Food Glorious Food!

2006-04-16T20:51:00.001+08:00

Enroute to makan!!! yay!!

2006-04-16T20:51:00.000+08:00

Mi and the gals at VB>

2006-04-16T20:40:00.000+08:00

Across the weekend i caught up with frens from Melb and London.
It was a really rushed plan to meet coz all our schedules are always so busy, but i'm really really glad we've met after such a long time.

Went Villa Bali (thanks Krissa for choosing the venue!) and hung out, chilled with Krissa and Calli over WOLF BLASS wine, cocktails and Tsing Tao Beer!hehe =P We've caught up with how each other were doing, what we've been up to, topics discussed included Calli's diving trip, Krissa's work and her plans to do charity work in Myanmar, the lack of eye candy at VB and my new found r.s amongst snippets of laughter and camera whoring.=P
The time spent with the girls made me miss Melb so much.AGAIN!

Much as i like to visit Melb again, i am torn between having to save up for Cairns towards the end of the year and zipping off to Melb this coming July... perhaps i'll see if my gal can make it for Melb during that period and take it from there. Otherwise, i guess i'll have to postpone my Melb trip! Feeeling quite drab about that though, i really would have loved to visit Melb in the winter season as well as attend Lind's and Ain's graduation if i happen to be there at the right time..too many ambitions too much expectations..=(

On another note, dragged myself out of bed early tis morning to catch Weilun for brekkie! We did the most impromptu call to Junlun and dragged him out of bed as well to head for Bah ku teh in Sin Ming. Its been awhile since i last saw WL and i am glad the three of us caught up today..kept thinking about the wonderful times we had back in Safpu and the nights of Champs league soccer, midnite snacking and laughter we had three years ago.

London London.
6000++ KMs away.
I wonder...

2006-04-16T14:49:00.000+08:00

Allow me to display a moment of weakness.
I miss her so much...

2006-04-16T09:29:00.000+08:00

I'm so glad i was able to meet up with Cali and Krissa last night!
Shall post more details and *fotos later today but right now i'm gonna have to wake up my dear wong weilun, who's flying back to London on tues..meeting him for brekkie.
but the dude's still asleep!!!

I feel like prata.Good morning Singapore and good night London!

Tagged! =)

2006-04-15T02:22:00.000+08:00

Yay! Meeting with Cali and Krissa is finally gonna happen in a few hours time!=)
But first...

1. My ex is: One of which is getting married on Labour day (congrats Ammy!), the other, still refusing to talk to me.

2. Maybe I should: rethink my direction in life.

3. I love: music, intimacy and beers. (Not in order of preference.=P)

4. I don't understand: why people can't make up their minds all the time.

5. I lose: my ability to love without abandon if i were to control or manage my sensitivity.

6. People say I'm: a cheeky fellow.

7. Love is: something that i struggle to comprehend but endeavour to feel.

8. Somewhere, someone is: thinking of a love that could have been.

9. I will always: remember the days in Melbourne when I had the greatest bunch of friends, met an angel whom changed my life and had the greatest fun at the ripe old age of 27.

10. Forever is: a phrase that's over-rated.

11. I never want to: be in a world where my loved ones are gone.

12. I think the current US President: is the devil in disguise.

13. When I wake up in the morning: I feel lovesick (besides wanting to sleep somemore).

14. My past was: an invaluable lesson that i can achieve great things if i DECIDE to put my heart and mind to it.

15. I get annoyed when: I am hungry.

16. Parties are for: letting your hair down and having fun!

17. My dog: remains a plan for the future.

18. My cat: what cat?

19. Kisses are the best when: delivered with passion, coated with love and sprinkled with lust.=P

20. Tomorrow: will be an opportunity to do the things you didn't today.

21. I really want: a car!!!

22. I have low tolerance for people who: are rude.

Alrighty, now Genie and Cherie.
You've been Tagged!

2006-04-10T01:43:00.000+08:00

1) 24 KM Route March
2) INterview newly posted in CPLs
3) PAck up for Recce Commanders Course
4) Attend Recce Commanders Course
5) AAR for Field camp with the troopers.

Busy week/month or so ahead. I'll be relocated from Mandai to Pasir Lebar Camp (near Jurong West) WEF Wednesday, its going to be a trying period.

2006-04-09T03:27:00.000+08:00

I'm a sucker for sappy romantic Korean movies. I wonder if any of you out there are also? Although the storyline might have be predictable or rehashed from an earlier movie. The excellent soundtrack, unique Korean language that seem oh so gentle and romantic seems to be a surefire way in set those tears running. Unfortunately, this particular film i am blogging about is no longer showing at the cinemas! Such a shame!=( In anycase, feel free to visit the website at http://www.paranglove.co.kr/main.html Anyone can help to get a piece of the dvd as well as the beautiful OST?

2006-04-02T17:48:00.000+08:00

Just yesterday i came closest ever to reaching my ippt gold timing, just 4 seconds off the pace and i hope after tmr's test, i would have done what my CO said was "Very difficult lah". Which is to hit IPPT gold despite never having done it before in OCS.
I hope he likes to eat his words.=)

I better stay away from the lappie coz the room's been in a mess since i've been back in Spore and i think its about time i do someting constructive about it!

CHomping on a cookie filled with lotsa love. I'm e, for Estactic

I Love Bangkok

2006-03-27T21:58:00.000+08:00

A quick weekend getaway in steamy Bangkok.
The place is still bustling with activity, road side stalls selling yummylicious food, hot thai food, even hotter thai chicks (especially those in Uni Uniforms. hurhur =P) smoggy atmosphere, constant traffic jams, just the way i remembered it to be and the way i like it.
I was reaquainted with the best Pork belly soup i had ever tasted, which i have missed very much since 1.5 years ago when i first 'slurped' up two bowls. Even the auntie selling durians was still there with her machete and looking not too different from the way i remembered her to be.

Although i couldnt get to Wat Rakang due to some language problems/miscommunication, it was good to be able to visit Wat Suthat again and offer prayers while appreciating the majestic sight and artistry of Buddhist art, the temple and its surrounds.

Other then eating eating and more eating, besides praying, it was a good trip out shopping, especially checking out the Suan Lam Night Bazaar which is soooo MUCH better and easier to shop then the imfamously hot Chatuchak Weekend Market.=)

Finally, forget Krispy Kreme, all Hail Mister Donut!

2006-03-23T18:14:00.000+08:00

Isit a sign or another one of my funny dreams?
Just last night i had this dream whereby i was back in Melb.
However, most of the regular gang werent there in my dream, interestingly even one of my seldom seen Singporean childhood friend appeared in dreamy Melb.

I was happy to be back in Melb at that moment, to the extent that i had even slapped myself repeatedly to make sure i wasnt dreaming, slap slap slap! I didnt wake up and so i thought, wow! Kewl! i'm back here again.Quik! wheres the rest of the gang?

It was only slowly then i realised, oooh sheesh, i have to go Bangkok tmr! How am i gonna get back there? Silly dream it was, it didnt even end properly, all i could remember from that dream was how i tried to look for Alvin's number on the mobile but yet i couldn't. HoHum.

2006-03-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

大概真的不够喜欢你才任你坐上客机
若我真的不要放走你谁又怕去挡飞机
但我真的想过嫁给你才没有逐吋爱起
肯假装总会骗倒你无奈我自觉卑鄙

曾怀疑共你很努力地
扮谈情便有转机
然而时候到该礼貌地
放手再拒绝你

谁当是玩游戏为你花过力气
很可惜最多似好知己
我试过在暗中配合你
我试过学放松接受你
小火花擦出了烧不起
我爱你未够深对不起

是我真的不够喜欢你纯被爱未免太悲
他应该使我有心跳陪住你没有惊喜

谁当是玩游戏为你花过力气
很可惜最多似好知己
我退后未够早对不起
我顾虑亦太多对不起
小火花擦出了烧不起
我对你未够狠对不起

A Week Gone By

2006-03-22T22:23:00.000+08:00

Another week has gone by and i'm loving my work more and more, the politics and inefficiencies might be there constantly but the feeling of having men under you and training and bonding with them with the passing of each day and event emits a sense of fulfilment that i struggle to describe.

Soon the first year Commanders would be Ord-ing (that means their National Service ends), i am gonna miss having great guys like Lawrence, Bingyao, Ywee Ern, well, the entire bunch is just great, unique individuals whom made up the Scout Platoon.

Going to have a short break this weekend away in Bangkok. More updates n fotos once i'm back!=0
Take care lovelies!

对不起谢谢

2006-03-20T01:13:00.000+08:00

我没说的你却都懂
连最隐密的伤痛

当我找不到彩虹
是你放回我心中

当我遗忘快乐的感受
是你又教会我
*Specific sections from a mandarin song which i've heard lately*

Thank You Natalie.

Emergency.Numbers.

2006-03-20T00:53:00.000+08:00

I guess i need to resort to this after all, i can't get hold of all those whom i wish to get their contact numbers of again so easily so if you happen to visit this blog, it means u're someone whom i wish to maintain contact with and please do a kind favour by texting a message stating u're saying hiyee to me so i can save your contact again this time (backing up on good ol pen and paper too!).

Just in case you're wondering, my mobile number is located on the right hand corner of this blog.=)

2006-03-20T00:17:00.000+08:00

Its been awhile since i've blogged and also since i've checked out my friends' blog, realising i've been tagged with this by Cali, i decided to get it done asap on sunday night since i'm not working tomorrow! hehe no monday blues. *yay!

Anyone game for a swim, gym, shopping session on monday? kekeke

1. A song by a Beatle: Oh My Love - John Lennon

2. A song featuring piano as the main instrument: Real Men - Tori Amos

3. A song with a woman's name in the title: Josephine - The Wallflowers

4. A song with a man's name in the title: Charlie Brown's Parents - Dishwalla (Does Charlie Brown qualify as a man? =P)

5. A song about money: Advertising Space - Robbie Williams

6. A song with weather in the title: Rain - Anthony Callea

7. A song with parentheses in the title (these are parentheses): The Remedy (I won't worry) - Jason Mraz

8. A song made by a punk band: Wings of a Butterfly - HIM

9. A song with the word "song" in the title: The zephyr Song - Red Hot Chilli Peppers

10. A song you love so much you stop and listen whenever you hear it/put it on repeat mode and never get sick of it: I Miss You - Incubus

Alright, i am hereby tagging Froggy, Nat the brat and Zihui. hehehe =)

2006-03-19T14:02:00.000+08:00

Deja Vu!

Last month or so, ZH's fone went dead on her, after admiring her N70 the other day, i was actually worried that my fone (7610) would somehow succumb to bad luck and get scrapped.
And indeed it has, my fone went dead on me on friday, it couldnt have happened at a 'better' time, my contacts, the dates stored within the calender, the numerous messages from dearest friends, all gone. =(

Just sent in the fone for repair, finger's crossed it's repairable so i may trade it in for a new fone that i've been pinning for (but not financally willing to buy). *bleh.

PS, Cali, i've been tagged!
Will come up with something tonite.hahah
does mandarin songs count?=P

2006-03-16T01:40:00.000+08:00

Alien finds himself in a situation whereby he is caught between the past and the future.

The decision was made, hopefully having the best results for everyone involved.

Bangkok Beckons.

El Cheapo Tactic #235

2006-03-06T02:54:00.000+08:00

*Yey!*
I've gotten my Credit card annual fees waived. Mwahahahha.=P

But then again, with the credit card market being so competitive, they can't be seriously thinking that people would willingly pay annual fees when other banks/cards are offering free cards/platinum cards at random right? kekeke

Consumer power shall dictate that credit card fees should be a thing of the past.
Holler if you're made to pay those fees!

2006-03-06T01:57:00.000+08:00

A Happy belated birthday to Dad!
Fri night was spent having dinner with the family and it was nice to visit that nice lil' Zher Char (means assorted cooked food stall in local dialect) again after so long for a meal together with the family like we always used to.=)

The weekend was well spent in the company of a dear friend whom i have grown to enjoy the time spent together.

Sunday was interesting too!
I was awaken really early in the morning at about 730am, by sounds of male voices singing in the distance. It was a mandarin song, to be exact, it was 月亮代表我的心。
Groggy from being awoken so early in the morning, i climbed out of bed to investigate this abnormal occurence on a sunday morning.
It turned out to my pleasant surprise that it was in fact a group of guys and their male buddy whom was getting hitched this morning and was being made to sing (along with other 'necessary tasks' ) before he could get to his wife behind a locked gate kindly guarded by her 'sisters'.
*i always tell myself to stand by a lock cutter when its my or my buddies turn. It might come in handy! *chuckles*

Headed back to bed with a smile after experiencing early sunday morning romance in the air.

I headed down to Beach Road in the afternoon and gotten myself someting which i should have a few days ago.hahaha oh well, no harm done. Then it was back home for dinner with Mum and basketball game with the guys after that.

It felt good to work up a big sweat after the game. I love the game, although i'm not that good in it, it feels good to be competitive and enjoying the game while keeping my ass fit during this slack period while i am on course.

Last day of the course tmr and back to Unit on Wed.
Life's just gotten busier and less interesting on Wed.=P