In a few hours time i will be heading north east of melbourne city towards Tawonga and onwards to Fallscreek! I am so excited now, i dont know if it is because i am cold from wearing just a teeshirt without the heater on or am i shaking from excitment!=p Will be away till sunday evening and i will miss having the company of someone whose smile i miss everyday..Have fun at the wedding yeah.=)

Hair cut.

I like cutting my hair really short when i am unhappy..it really seems to make everything lighter.

No more hopes of doing blond streaks, it will take forever to grow my hair out to a decent length for streaks and by then, even if it does grow tat fast, i will be back wearing camo again...which seriously clashes with platinum blond.=P




She's right, i am going to be very hurt.

Alcohol Is Rain For My Arid Heart.

someone once asked me what is it with guys and drinking (throw in other forms of self abuse) when they feel terribly unhappy?

Greco's Hot choc Rocks, and introducing the other supersweet cakes which we had..now you know why i'm getting prosperous.=P

Two Guys, A Girl And at Greco's.

Nat trying to looking Natty and mi looking quite 'prosperous' and silly. =P

Mi and My Long lost Sister, Jean....clearing our nostrils and looking quite silly.=)

Heres the yummylicious nasi lemak dinner that Jac prepared for us...wooohoooo..sure made us all miss home i bet!But it also warmed our hearts tucking into that fantastic dish we all love so much!

So this was where KeKe gotten to after running away from me, with his friends, happily ever after. =) Keke, I cried so hard when i lost you (and since i lost your other half too, it was a premonition after all), now i have 'found' you again. heheehe its kinda like coming around, Full Circle.

Rainy Day, flanked by Ivan and Nigel, man i should have brought my gortex along too@ Loch Ard Gorge, my favourite place along the great ocean road!=D It brings back alot of memories, but i'm letting it slide...perhaps it is possible to move on, i just need to focus on the nice memories and the lessons which i have brought out of the past. =) I hope shes doing fine too.All the best! =)

This will be the one of many fotos which i shall be posting...stay tuned! Lets start with a rainbow..has the rained stopped and skies cleared?

We were at Rachel's place earlier for chickenrice dinner, yummy omelette..it was good to do this sorta thing, chill out over dinner at a friends place.chat about crap, bitch about everything, talk about life. It was good that Nat made her way down as well.Lunch with her was nice, seeing her blowing her nose off made me feel that she needs some TLC to get well soon!oh..get well soon k nat! =) It always feel comforting and serene when i get to indulge in your smile. thank you.

Last picture for todays posts...Ivan and Aileen at Warnambool, we managed to catch a whale did a dive so that wasn't half bad coz i reckon that there are those who came and didnt get to see anything.I like this picture alot too.=)

Cozy with a nice warm wood fired fireplace!

This was taken from the balcony of the cottage we stayed at overnight at Port Campbell.It was a really cozy place!Check out the moo-moos just across the road..hehe Kianseng..this pic is dedicated to you!hehee =P

Look at all these boats! some of the homes even had their own little docks to tie their boats to so they could just walk down from their houses and onto their boats!=Cool!

The car that took us from Melb city to Warnambool for whale watching, to Port Fairy, a really nice town and back to the coastal great ocean road. Here we were having a picnic at one of the harbour along the river at Port Fairy, a really pretty place. =)

Barcardi 151

I must have been an idiot or i could have became an idiot after drinking 11 shots of 151 in 2 hours.

what the hell is wrong with me?

I can't handle the way certain things are developing around my life and this is what i do to negate that feeling?

I never puked so hard and so much before, even ivan was mocking me for getting drunk before he did, well true, back in the army i could drink more then you, but you have came a long way too and i was never a good drinker.=)

I just drink myself silly?is that the way i have been telling myself and friends about handling problems?

A headache that stayed throughout the whole day and night after that crazy 2hours made me felt so sick about myself and what the fuck i am doing to myself..
yah yah..i am complaining about myself...so spare me the judgement, i know i was stupid to have done this and lament about it after the dirty deed.

sorry to Liz and Ken-jin for trashing their apartment when i threw my shirt at the stout bottles and stained the carpet. Luckily the cleaners i hired did a good job at their place. kudos to the excellent chicken rice Liz made.Inspired me to cook! =P

the weekend was spent on a great ocean road trip, brought back alot of memories and coincided with a time of the year that could have meant something if things weren't the way they were.
Loch ard Gorge still looked beautiful, although the rain was pouring, i still wanted to see the place again.

Didn't take much fotos but the trip ended with a spectacular rainbow from the middle of the ocean as we were driving back.
I hope all of us gets a break in their lifes where a rainbow shines through the greyish, wet clouds that bears upon their life now and then.

Take care my dear friends.

Recently this blogger has been kinda grey and gloomy..first the raindrops on the window...then the sad news of Kangfei's demise after battling Leukemia...its getting to me, i feel so vulnerable and morbid about how fragile life is.I was hoping to meet up with her today, but she's under the weather and i hope shes feeling better or at least resting well to get over it soon.Get well Soon! =) Some good news!it FINALLY Started snowing at Fallscreek and thats just beautiful with ski trip coming up in 3 weekends time. everything looks set!Finalising the details of the trip and equipment hire..all looks well and good to go!i'm sure i'll have a butt aching good time!keke =P Since i'm so bloody eng (Hokkien for free) i will hit the gym more often and stop being such a couch potato.i;ve already got Leon hooked on Gundam seed and wooohooo!my dvd collection of Samurai X is being shipped here as we speak!kekeke

A Farewell Which You Couldn't Say.

I only talked to you once, yet after these few years, i still remember you, it was probably easy, you were dark and not as tall as the rest back in SAFPU and i will continue to remember you.
Kangfei, when Hongda told me that you have left us to be home with the Lord whom you love so much, my heart sank and i couldn't continue to work on my proposal anymore.
I needed to share with you, even though we were never close and you might not remember that you even spoke to me before, i will cherish the memory of that chat in the mess and the drink that you bought for me back then. Thank you.

I couldn't say goodbye or see you for the last time but i know you are at a better place right now.
You are home and you will be well taken care of, its hard not to learn the harsh truth about how fragile life is and at a time when you thought the news you would hear about your friends is that they are getting married, the word of your demise has shaken me.
I couldn't say more about you, but i shall share the valuable lesson that i will always endear to my life, to cherish and love everyone around you, everyday.
Have you told the ones you love, that you love them today?

Kite, i have missed you and i still love you very much as a dear friend.
Natalie, you have a special place in my heart. you've been beautiful. =) I Love U too.
My family back home, there was once when you all went to M'sia without me when i was in the army and when granny called to ask why u guys were taking so long, that was when i first had the scariest thought that i could lose a loved one. I love u all and i'll be back soon.=)
my 'brothers' and 'sisters' back home, you all know whom you are.
Weilun, i miss you very much, do take care in London,i love u bro.
its too late to call you guys now, i'll call when its a more app time to.

Cherish every one, every moment, every day, we all are lucky to be here and to have each other.
That, Kangfei, is the thing which i shall bring with me whereever i go and that is what you have given to me.

There is no questioning why it had to be you, why it has to be when you are ording, why it was so sudden, God has a plan for you and you have touched all of our lives in your own special way.
That was his plan and that has been achieved, there is no more suffering, there are only memories.
I light a candle and say my prayers for you.
With that i'll say goodbye and farewell.

There comes a time when we must bow our heads to fate or to circumstances. Being obstinate and denying the truth can be a difficult thing to do. You don't push too much because you are afraid that you'll never experience what you did again. You can't pull it closer, that might upset the balance which determines the way two people interact with each other in the future. All i can do. Is look at the raindrops on my window and smile to myself, she loves the rain, as i listen to the falling raindrops and think of you. You are on my mind when i wake and thoughts of u accompany me into sleep. I wish i became the rain which you love, to shower upon you, with every raindrop falling upon you, just to be that little bit closer to you.

I've been drooling over this jacket for the past two weeks, attempts to get it purchased from the States by my friends have been to no avail. Oh by the way, let me introduce to you,the north face 5 boroughs jacket.hehe.sadly it isnt available in australia and i've been asking the distributor to help me on this one. Nara's visiting in two days!YEA! Yumcha together with alan and ivan, it would be a great reunion. =)

cereal and leftover soup.

I decided to remove last night's post because after waking up to see it again.
i felt it was rather inappropiate, furthermore, i just needed to pen down some of what i was feeling and it achieved that effect.
thus theres no need for it to remain on this blogspace.

now that its the holidays, i think i shall need to draw up a few things which i hope to do during this 6 to 7 weeks.

Firstly, i want to travel, Sydney and Brisbane are top of my list as they're just further up the east coast from Melb.
Lets hope i get some travel kakis soon, it doesnt matter how we get there.i wouldnt mind driving, flying midway thru and flying back. =)

i need to sort out what subjects i want to do next semester as well. mmm
means two more history modules to complete my history major and two spare modules to do what ever i want.mmmm

finally at the bottom of this rather make shift list, i want to regain the fitness (or whatever it was) that i had during AHM training 2003.
I have hard work cut out for me but i miss the days of running. I love running and thats what i like to do when i need to clear my head.

Clementine Clementine
My head runs wild with thoughts of The eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.

寂寞星球 人人寂寞

Omigod. Another Non-Singaporean is gonna win Eye for a guy 2.
At least this time round they've got a babe on instead of just boobs. =P

I am kicking myself for having missed out on this program two seasons in a row due to my melb stint. hmm at least i'll be back for season 3, lets see when will a Singaporean bloke or Local Kopitiam Kid win.

I guess this just reinforces the idea that Singaporean men aren't good enough.
You have to acknowledge the power of the media, its getting tough guys.
Will we ever be FREE from IMPERIALISM?

Centuries ago, these HONG MAO REN..(red haired people) came and suckered a Malaysian Prince into 'selling' Singapore to them as a trading post, at least they were decent enough to build big guns at Sentosa to surrender Singapore when the going got rough with the Japs.
At least Singapore didnt have any natural resources for them to plunder..

Tell me those who chance upon this post.
Are Singaporean men really such wusses and losers?
will we always be a 2nd best?

DISCLAIMER
I in no way think ANG MOH ZHAR BOHS are better.
This post is purely meant for discussion purposes and does not reflect the views and opinions of Singaporean men across the globe.
Well at least i heard that Singaporean men are hot property in Shanghai.

Quote of the day, i saw this on Shuling's MSN, mmm poor girl. Such a Fool for Love...
But oh so true. Struck Me like lightning.

"Love is Like War.
Easy To Start.
Difficult To End.
Impossible To Forget."

做 Essays 危害健康, MSWord 想把我氣死。

Into my final stretch of essaying for this semester, in fact it was quite eventful towards the finishing line, it left me 'breathless' for a while.hah

towards the mid of my last essay, the wonderful MS word decided to play punk with my referencing n footnotes.mmmm excellent.i couldnt get the program to number my references in the right order and it would always use a funny odd random symbol instead of a number.

that wasted abit of my time and also my mental ability.was tired after reinstalling MS office.but..
it still happened.so now i have to manually swop the symbols using the character map.yipppeE!

in another 18hrs time. i'll be free.

So good to see Genie online and get a 'honourary' mention on her blog.i do and will continue to miss her blog.I miss u too girl! u're so lucky..europe hopping! i can't wait for my turn..this probably means i have to save like a schoolboy and that means no car and no fancy treats for friends and ladies, there goes my social life (or the one i tot i had)... ...more pondering....

any girls out there who would choose taking a bus with me? Over that dude with the nice car? I've got nice long limbs, u can grab onto them as if they are the grab poles or handles on the bus/mrt.
oh and no worries, theres no fare increase! ~winkwink!~ ^________^

ritey, another 500 words plus editing and i'm done!hoooray!
wheres Peanut? Making me worry at the back of my mind...

My poor computer speakers are dying on me, i wonder if they will survive another 5 months.Already i can hear it crying out everytime i load my bass-sy tracks...ouch ouch ouch! mmm i really can't live without music, especially during essay production mode and the lappie speakers are too wussy to really bring out the groove of the songs..perhaps i shall see if there are any good deals or second hand speakers i could invest in for my acoustic fetish. On another NOTE...i am down to my last essay which i have about 72 hours to crack out.Not a problem i believe, things are getting boring here, Leon's out for the weekend and its just essays and books accompanying me. Well at least i have my beers, WMA and MP3s to surround me while i etch out the last essay for this semester.~Zihui should be coming back from her Europe trip too~ oh well..back to work and more essays.Misery ended for a certain Peanut.Heres a thought sent out to you! ~carried by the wind~

Hands Up!

若是有一天你的手也感到寂寞
別讓拐杖成為它的新伙伴
記得還有人的雙手在尋找
在想念你的擁抱
你所散發的溫暖

Lousy Angelfire ... now i have no host for my blog's background music.
Had a really bad head and neck ache last night.
Working on essays is hazardous to health!